alessa would find ways to still be part of the world she wanted to be in. she tried everything and was ready to give up until a miracle happened. becoming a gear designer wasn't in her book, but it was better than nothing, right? she had somewhat experience when it came to sewing but wasn't a professional. that is when she decided to teach herself by watching videos and tutorials or simply winging it and hoping for the best. slowly, her work had gone from a crappy scraps to creating the most beautiful and iconic gears from japan, mexico, and the states. every wrestler who were legends had come to her to make their ideas come to life. 

she'd get sad because it reminded her she wasn't in the ring like she wanted to but sucked it up because she was lucky to be part of this industry. years later, alessa is grateful for working with all elite wrestling and has been with them since the beginning. 

if she were honest, alessa always thinks of the “what if's” too often, which is why she drowned herself into her craft instead. it soothed her and made her forget about it. she may get too caught up in her work, but it was better than overthinking.

not many people know of her rough upbringing. how it wasn't the way she thought it would be growing up. all the things she had endured and the pain she needed to pretend it didn't hurt her when, in reality, it did. very few people know about it, and it's her small circle. there was no point in talking about it. the past is the past, and she would never look back. her skeletons would stay in the closet she'd never open. wrestling was the reason that kept her sanity intact. hence why she wanted to be in the ring but became a gear designer instead after her training stopped. 

her mother wasn't exactly kind to her and would compare her to others constantly and the harsh words that would come out of her venomous mouth while her father wasn't there. he was there physically but not emotionally. it wasn't like she despised the man since he was a stranger who happened to be her father. 

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character info . connections . self paras . headcanons

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here are her recent texts...

her saved photos she loves dearly...

songs that give her harmony...

as you can see, alessa’s phone isn’t exactly organized. she says she wants to do a refresh and delete things that are not worth keeping ( this is literally on her to-do list in her notes app ) but it seems like she never does it whether it’s because she’s busy or because she secretly doesn’t want to get rid of it. in a way, she’s kind of hoarding useless stuff. there’s this thing where alessa will feel “good” about deleting something that had no value to her but she immediately regrets it. it’s almost as if alessa feels like she didn’t think about it much when that’s not the case. i’ll give a more in depth on what her search history and notes app looks like.

her search history isn’t too crazy but it’s so random and out of pocket. it’s mostly how to-do’s searches since there are times where there’s something she needs help with for her craftsmanship. yes, she’s a professional at it but sometimes she needs a little help every now and then. you can also find her going to fa.nfic.net but immediately erases her search history once she’s done rereading a fanfic she adored from 2015 and hopes for the author to update it even though she knows it’s not getting updated. she’ll go to look up the most niche and odd things. you expect to see her go to chanel’s website? yeah, she’s will but she’ll most likely judge the styles of each bag with a rating and her opinion except it’s rare she does that. she’ll probably end up in some forum where alessa will get too invested in and falls into a rabbit hole then get into an argument on reddit.

she doesn’t really search a lot if i’m being honest. alessa is the type of person who just wings it and will learn the hard way even though it’s normal for her. it’s part of her routine when it comes to using her phone. alessa talks to pretty much everyone and doesn’t mind it. though most of the time, her phone is on do not disturb on weekends. the only few people who can get to her is @bladerunncr , @glitzglamx , @dcvilette , and @alxshelleys since they’re on her emergency contact list who can call her and she’ll be able to hear a notification from them.

notes that are either depressing or refreshing...

her notes app is actually a mixture of depressing and endearing. it goes way back to 2014 since that’s when she got her first “real” phone aka the iphone 6 ( she still has it but it’s hidden somewhere in her box of memories including her old phone was a burner one ). as i mentioned, alessa is kind of a hoarder when it comes to stuff. especially if it comes to electronics and such. anyway, let’s move onto her notes she has written over the last decade.

you’ll find a list of wrestlers she’s worked with in the past or the present whether they’re from njpw/stardom, cmll, and a few indies. her list is up to date but still keeps the old one so she can look back at it. alessa jokingly refers to it as the “death note” ( her nerd ass really loves that anime ). except she sees it as something she holds sacred and not some list because some of the wrestlers on there are very important to her and part of her journey where she designed their gears and saw them as people who saw potential in her when no one else did.

here's some examples what her notes looks. some of them are old and recent. the examples from the bottom go from depressing to silly to being annoyed. there's a few lists that have to deal with her clients, groceries, stuff she needs to order, and so much more but has a hard time keeping up even if she has those journals where you write down what you need to do. her mind is constantly thinking and never really taking a break. almost as if her mind is on autopilot. it's kind of a unique she doesn't really stop thinking and comes up with ideas and such. that's one of my favorite things about alessa. she just keeps going and letting the wind take her wherever she ends to be. and yes, there's a few notes where alessa has talked shit about a few wrestlers that annoy her. she knows she can't say them out loud because there's a chance she'll get into a fight and will probably have to pay a fine.

she most likely would be living in new york right now if she left wrestling. alessa wouldn’t be a famous artist. she’d be an artist who explores different types of styles and learn more about the history behind all of it. this includes her learning more about as she wants to expand her horizons. there’s certain artist she’d avoid that are very well known. alessa would never do that since it’s a big no for her. she would inspiration, but not from them. she wants to be her own person and for people to see her work as hers only. which is why she’d dig deep to find perfect ideas even if it takes hours.

not only that but, she’d living in new york instead of detroit since she believes her work would get more attraction than over there and would have a muse— the perfect person that captivate her and can’t get enough of them but not in a weird way. it’d be someone she knows from art school. there would be a possibility alessa would fall in love with them but again, she wouldn’t really have time for dating since her main focus would be her art.

since that didn’t happen, alessa creates designs for fellow wrestlers who she loves working with kenny omega, mercedes monè, jay white ( this one is kinda biased since that’s her wrestling son ), hiroshi tanahashi, and toni storm. she takes commissions from indie wrestlers as well since alessa likes expanding her work. she’s done commissions for aew, njpw, stardom, and cmll in the past and still does it.