Everytime

It's really hard when you think you're healed from something and it affects you all over again. Like an old trigger still has an effect on you, or an old self-destructive habit comes back, or you still have panic attacks or nightmares over something you thought you were over. I know it really sucks, but it doesn't mean that you haven't made progress. It's okay if healing isn't a straight line.

it’s honestly so weird trying to explain trauma to people without ptsd. like yes i’m fine, yes i have panic attacks constantly and feel like im reliving it, yes i’m just going about my day as usual, no i’m not going to break down and cry all the time even when it’s the worst thing that ever happened to me and i remember like it was yesterday. what’s hard to get?