dxbris

How have I successfully gone from “you’re the most important person in my life, I want nothing more than to love you” to “you make me want to kill myself” TWICE in my life. Damn, I must really suck. It’s clearly me the problem, as it has happened yet again. Maybe I’d be better off alone so I can stop ruining everyone’s lives

5 years later, and you were right. And I broke my promise. And it’s really fucking annoying that you were right. I am the problem. You’d be happy to hear me say that. I’m a good mom, but I don’t think I was made to be a good partner / wife, which is a bummer, because I’ve always tried to be a good spouse.

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Son wakes me up at 4am for oatmeal. Then I stay up doing laundry for hours. Then, have to take step daughter to her first therapy appointment. Come home to continue doing laundry for hours. All of the laundry is finally done and away, but the kitchen floors are in desperate need for a mop. It never ends. I need a nap.

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You ever read old love bombing messages from your emotionally abuse ex, roll your eyes, and thank the fucking UNIVERSE that you are where you are now? Yeah. Me too.

It’s called: fuck around and find out

If we’ve gone like 5 years without hanging out, don’t show up at my funeral with some fake ass shit. That is all.