eclectic wanderlust

Sincerely,

Your friendly neighborhood autistic who pushed through it and and didn’t get help until she landed herself in a behavioral health hospital and was forced to put her whole life on pause for three months so as to not die. Learn from my mistakes and take a break before your brain gets fed up and forces you to take a break, because believe me it will pick the most inconvenient time and you will have zero control over it and that fucking sucks.

Finally got a proper thunderstorm this morning!!! ☔️

A normal person: a bass is bigger and plays lower notes

The store was pretty unimpressive, mostly old rusty tools and dusty old bottles. I picked up a couple small bottles to keep herbs and dead insects and things in because I’m weird, and was about to head to the register when I saw two small shelves of old books.

Obviously I stopped because old books, duh, and leafed through some late 19- to early 20th-century bindings of classic novels, and then I spotted this:

I’ve read and enjoyed Gone with the Wind, and I love a nice old copy of anything, so I opened it up to see when it was published.

It’s a mf-ing FIRST EDITION (first edition, second printing, to be precise). In fantastic condition, no less.

As a bonus, this was tucked inside of it:

There was no price on it, but I had to know how much it was, so I took it up to the register and very nervously asked the store owner how much she wanted for it. She picked it up, looked at it, and said, “Oh this one’s nice, it’s a first edition!”

I was fully expecting for her to ask at least $100 for it at this point, but she thought for a second and said,

“How does $4 sound?”

I handed her that $4 and practically ran out of there before she could change her mind because ARE YOU NUTS???

Said “dramatic” outfits were:

1. A basic black velvet maxi dress with a basic black chenille cardigan and one (1) small pendant

2. A basic black velvet maxi skirt with a black National Music Museum t-shirt and no jewelry

(Basically just completely normal clothes that happened to be black)

Jk idk if he actually connected the dots or not, but… he had all the dots in front of him 🤷🏼‍♀️

Okay so on the day that Dorian meets Lord Henry, Lord Henry is talking to Dorian while Dorian is having his picture painted, and Dorian gets overwhelmed and goes outside to get some fresh air and clear his head and get away from the effect of Lord Henry’s words. Lord Henry follows him and finds him with his face buried in a lilac bush, inhaling its scent. Dorian tries to escape the thoughts that Lord Henry is inspiring in him and runs headlong into death, DIRECTLY MIRRORING/FORESHADOWING how he shortly thereafter tries to escape the knowledge of fading beauty Lord Henry has given him and thus makes a foolish wish that seals his fate and sends him hurtling towards his death. Y’ALL. I. AM. SCREAMING!!!!!!

I fucking love Oscar Wilde I love him I love him so much he makes me fucking feral and his use of floral metaphors is always so so perfect and I just UGH suffocate me with Oscar’s flowers and bury me with their seeds in my breast so I can feed them eternally like holy FUCK he’s so good 😭

Me: it’s a true story about a 19th-century Roman convent that got into a lot of scandal over sexual affairs between the nuns and the priests and also sexual affairs between the mistress of novices and the novices

Coworker, completely shocked: the nuns????

Belle 😍

One of my favorite outfits ^^