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Everytime I think im getting further away from you, BOMB in my dreams again.

Your always everything I thought you were before the rose glasses fell off and you abused me.

It kills me to have you be so kind, without the expectation of anything in return.

I wake up feeling so lost and sad my heart breaks all over again. It makes me want to end it all.

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After all that overthinking, all that "I won't do it this time," I still ended up walking over and talking to him.

The conversation was normal. Almost disappointingly normal.

Later, I realized something funny.

Even in my dreams, I don't get a dramatic ending.

I once dreamt that he was getting married, and somehow, even then, I didn't confess.

Apparently, not even my subconscious believed in happy endings.