daisy

Is this what Lana meant by summertime sadness? Lol

I think I’m just a bad person who wants so badly for something to be wrong with me/ my life and idk why I do it :(

Why doesn’t it hurt like it used to

I lie and lie and lie and I know it’s gonna come crumbing down again

When sh is apart of ur pms so it doesn’t count as a relapse :P

The amount of scars on my legs like fascinate me like idk the way there’s just so many and especially when some are scabbed over idk maybe it’s just me

Me texting my bf with my dried bl**d on my hands and fresh c*ts ☹️ like if he knew I relapsed idk what I would do

I did it again but it doesn’t feel the same why doesn’t it feel the same grrr

Guess who isn’t sober like why why why did I do this like Idek what I was thinking but it’s too late :(

My mom threw away my r*zor bl*d*s but a few days ago I discovered that I had an extra r*zor head and the temptation was there like I so badly wanted to take the little r*zors out and just c*t until I felt numb but I didn’t :( and I’m close to being a month sober

It’s like a morbid fascination to re-open scars like the ones on my stomach?? I’m like what if I just went over them one last time o___O

Relapsed so badly lololol and my boyfriend doesn’t know I won’t tell him but I feel so icky and horrible for relapsing :’)

AND I got blood on my boyfriends sweater ;(

I was doing so good and then I saw old pictures of all the cvts on my leg and I just missed it bc there’s just scars now and I relapsed :(