Being so mentally unstable i can only describe my feeling as a blend of every type of negative emotions you can think of. ESPECIALLY when im too self-aware but cant do anything about it, i know damn well my superiority complex is ruining my life, i feel like im better than everyone but my flop humbled me so bad that i CAN'T sit still for days, i can't think or do anything beside doom scrolling, i tried to not pick up my phone every 1 minute and it was devastating. I had to deactivate my private account for a few days so i wouldn't ruin my reputation because i would say embarrassing shits. I was at some point depressed but most of the time my energy is just so fucking high. Im unable to stop consuming everything on the internet and checking my notifications even when im extremely overwhelmed by it, I can't even sleep anymore, if this is still happening in a few days im gobna go insane
Bonus point my stomach is unwell right now, i feel nauseous all the time, every time im gonna eat something i want to vomit
I dont want to die nor kill myself, but whatever is happening to me is making me want to not exist anymore, i didnt ask to be like this
