LeBlackSuperman

I tried to not have these feelings. Because I fell in love with our friendship with over 8+ years of trial and error. We finally got it right. But… during that time. I learned who she is. In pretty much every season. And I love everything. The good, the bad, and everything in between.

But we’re just friends. And I value that much more now. To be whatever she needs me to be? A friend, a brother, a mentor, a shoulder to cry on, someone to laugh with, a bff💅, anything. . . . . You would think it hurts but it doesn’t. But you know what does hurt? Seeing her BE hurt over and over again by the same type of men that cannot see her as I do.. she is the most phenomenal human being I’ve ever met. Every story she tells me are bad ones. Where’s the good men? The ones that learn how to love you correctly… the ones that want to take the time to actually learn you. .

I’m so scared… literally terrified that one day … I may have to either see less of you or remove you from my life completely … because if I don’t .. I’ll never be able to move on. And that isn’t fair to the next person who wants a chance at my heart .. is it worth sacrificing a potential love for a forever friendship? I want to say yes. You may not love me the way that I love you BUT.. I know that you DO love me. You show me all the time. You pay attention to me. You know what I like and dislike. You know what brings me happiness and makes me laugh. You know what angers me and makes me cry. . You learned how to love me. And it’s rare for people to care enough to do that. I platonized all this love that I want to give to someone someday and gave it to you. Because I know that romanticizing it will only scare you away.

At some point I thought to myself.. it’s better to have her as a friend in my life than nothing at all. So for years I stayed there. In that friend zone. But then.. I got to know you for real. The real you.

I am the prototype. The proof that your teachings, your ideals, your mind, and your love.. is the blueprint. And I am happy to be walking proof. Too many people think you are too much and ask for too much but you know what I think? I think they just aren’t enough for you. You deserve so much from your friends and love interests. Your love is euphoric. And it makes me sad that people think you’re crazy or …. Idk. I’m here to tell you that you are NOT crazy. And I will walk this earth for the rest of my life being an advocate of your idea of love.

Because I love you.