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i thought i could move on from this but it still makes me sick to my stomach

the fact that she’s in his video while they pretend to be no contact to stop the anons from dragging them is insane

you two just love each other, why did i even think things were going to work out, i should’ve known from the love bombing since the very first day i met you, telling me to move countries for you, saying you would for me

everything still hurts so deeply, i cry over thoughts, memories and screenshots, everything.

i tried so hard and they both hurt me so badly because they couldn’t think about how everything was affecting me.

i wish it didn’t affect me but it still does, all of it, to this day.

every time i go over things with my therapist, it’s like i’m scratching at an open wound. they left me like this while they act like nothing happened.

did i even exist to either of you?

neither of you did anything to make up for what happened, for how you’ve made me feel.

i will not be sharing any of the callouts nor will i be sharing screenshots.

i originally intended to tell her to leave me alone but due to her reaching out to me and accusing me of harassment via these blogs, i decided to speak out a tiny bit because it’s very frustrating to see people speaking out about what i went through (without my consent) and even more so for it to be labeled as harassment.

and yes Smoshy (my ex) did use the n word with the hard r but that’s not my cross to bare, i did try to get him to stop but i gave up.

i don’t like callouts or cancelling people, i don’t think that stuff does anything other than force people to go into hiding while continuing their actions. that’s not justice.

hello, i’m making this post to tell @sweetcookie500 to leave me alone.

she randomly sent me a friend request yesterday. for what reason? i have a suspicion but i don’t truly know for certain. but the last time we spoke i was very suicidal and she said goodbye.

i won’t go into detail but i was logged out for a few days for personal reasons and when i signed back in i was faced with a heavy accusation, which i deny.

i don’t want to talk to you. you traumatised me and played a very big part in the deterioration of my mental health and self-worth.

so please leave me alone. don’t message me. don’t send me friend requests. the only reason i haven’t blocked you and Thomas is because i frequently share screenshots with my therapist as i’m trying to heal from everything that’s happened this year.

hopefully, i won’t have to keep this up and i can take this down after a few days if all is civil and respectful. i would prefer this blog to not exist at all and i’m willing to delete it.