yourfriendlycatlady

I was holding on so tightTo what was onceWhat could’ve beenWhen there are othersWho freely gave moreWithout me asking.I kept pouringTo someone whose not readyI gave and was drainedUntil someone came to rescue meI wished it was youOver and overBut you proved to be anotherOtherwiseYou are but a lesson.Still I hope the best for youEven when I’m still tryingTo forgiveWhat once wasSo painfulNow, but…

The coffee got coldI stopped asking questionsI stopped waitingThough the pain still lingersLike a little stingFrom time to timeSo many words unsaidI buried it under the sandI took it with me to seaHoping it would all wash awayEvery trace of youThat’s been memorized by me.

You just wanted to hold handsBut they were being inappropriateUnder the tableTo them, love is a gameNeeds to proveNeeds to competeNeeds to controlAnd once you see through their tacticsYou will never be the same againHurt all you needUntil you’ve regain your sensesHurt is all you needTo learn from their schemesFor there is no scheme in loveAnd there is no love in schemes.

Have you ever had surgery? What for? Never. I wish to keep it that way, at least, take care of my self so that I am less likely to need one. I have been taking good care of myself. Resting when I need to, leaving environments that are too stressful or harmful for me. I have been doing great so far. In this world where it’s fast paced, too focused on money making, I’d rather prioritize health,…

Are there things you try to practice daily to live a more sustainable lifestyle? Thrifting

Do you have a quote you live your life by or think of often? Like everything in life, whether it’s suffering or joy, it shall also pass. Nothing is permanent afterall. I would always remind myself, specially in times of hardships, that it is only temporary. I also use the same qoute to remind myself not to get attached too much, to any person, place, or anything, because it is all temporary.

You’re going on a cross-country trip. Airplane, train, bus, car, or bike? A bus, and I’ll modify it to make it a mobile home. Perfect.

Which animal would you compare yourself to and why? CalmCannot be seen in the dark.FearedFor I remind them of darknessThe unknownMystifiedBut can never be lovedThe way others can.I am a black catSuperstitious but keenIn the dark but kindI remind you of what you cannot understandBut let me shed my lightAmongst darknessI’ll show you new waysOf livingFar beyond what’s imagined.

The world is wide enoughTo begin againFor us to exist in our own spacesTo start overNever have to see each other againWe are but each others’ lessonsAnd I stopped looking backTo what could’ve beenAnd started moving forwardI still wish you the bestThough I wish to be no part of itFor this time, I chose myself

If you had the power to change one law, what would it be and why? I wish I could write a new law to allow same sex marriage, or civil union in our country. Where I live, the LGBTQIA+ community are only tolerated and hence, had to strive more to be accepted by society. One had to be pretty/handsome, smart, have a social standing, earn good money. If an LGBT does not have any of those things then…

Describe an item you were incredibly attached to as a youth. What became of it? An old friendAn old dreamMy dream guitar. I remember when I first had it, it was all I ever wanted then. I would practice every day and somehow gotten bettet at playing the guitar than most of my peers. But as I grew older, my dreams change. I am now pursuing law, but I would always look back at my old teenage self,…

What is your mission? To be of service to others, to live with purpose by using the gifts and talents fiven to me, to be content, and at peace. That is all I ever wanted.

What are your thoughts on the concept of living a very long life? I don’t mind taking things slow, in fact I love it. I don’t mind a slow moving career as long as it’s fulfilling and driven with purpose. That’s why I prefer the concept of a very long life, so that I would be able to take my time living, learning, and loving.

What could you do differently? I should’ve set those boundaries early on meeting people, this could’ve saved me from getting drained so much. I let people get too comfortable with disrespecting me because I always try to understand why they do those bad things, but I only ended up getting even more drained. Right now, I’m practicing drawing boundaries, I still love people the way I do, I just…

May I be kindTo myselfAa much as I didFor othersMay I be forgivingOf myself first,For how can I forgive othersIf thy have not given grace to oneselfMay I be growingWherever I goMay I always be trueBut in harmony with othersAnd even in times of conflictMay we see common groundAnd that is love