Leaftiger12

Hello! I'm not dead! :D

I noticed my last post gained attention; I'm glad that I could help others with my advice! Thank you all for the likes and reposts! That said, the post was published... six months ago. I never updated anything after that, despite promising that I'd come back to Legends lore. TwT Most of that time was due to avoidance, and I've pieced together why. Writing had turned into an internalized expectation for me. It was associated with career, skill, identity, and productivity pressure. I built up so much anxiety for years around the craft. That killed the hobby for me.

So instead of focusing on my own failed expectations, I thought I'd try to make writing feel safer. Which, for me, is developing a curiosity for certain character and story tropes. Having them as a base would help eliminate blank page paralysis.

How many times have you looked up from your phone thinking, “I should be doing something,” and then… kept doomscrolling?

Yeah. Same.

I wanted my account to stay focused on Legends, but this felt important to share because it’s been a huge struggle for me for years.

My loop was this: Instant gratification → Guilt for not being productive → Feeling overwhelmed + fear of failing → More instant gratification. Rinse, repeat.

It got so bad that sometimes I’d just lie in bed crying because I knew I was avoiding life — and then immediately go numb myself again with social media or AI content because it felt better in the moment.

I thought this meant I was lazy. Or apathetic. But the truth is: people who are lazy don’t beat themselves up about wanting to be productive. I did care. Maybe too much.

It turns out it is a neurobiological stress-avoidance response. My brain was just trying to protect me. The problem was that even the tiniest task started to feel like too much effort.

My solution?

LET 👏 YOUR 👏 BRAIN 👏 VIBRATE 👏

I’m completely serious.

Instead of forcing yourself into a task immediately (which only makes the resistance worse), do this:

Stand up. Do absolutely nothing. Let your brain scream: “NOOOO I DON’T WANNA—”

Make it funny if you can. Visualize your brain vibrating like:

an agitated rubber band

a shaken soda can about to explode

a fish flopping on land

a toddler throwing a tantrum

If not, that's okay. Just don’t jump to self-loathing (also makes resistance worse). Don’t judge the feeling. Just let yourself be irritated or whiny or overwhelmed. That’s part of the transition — not a character flaw.

And then… Oh. It stopped.

Once your brain burns off that initial resistance, then you can start the task. Letting your brain vibrate doesn’t do the task for you, but it makes the shift into momentum so much smoother.

From there, use the classic advice: Just start. Break the task into tiny steps. Do it for 30 seconds. Most of the time, you’ll keep going because you’ve created new momentum.

And if you still can’t? That’s okay. You can stop and try again later. Or push through if it’s something with a deadline — sometimes life just demands things. :/

Adding something positive helps too: Music while cleaning. Ambient tracks while studying. Little rituals that make the task feel less like a punishment. (My sisters and I sing songs while folding the laundry. It's so much fun!)

There’s no magical fix that makes productivity effortless. But if you struggle to get out of your own rut, maybe this will help you the way it’s helped me.

A cursed island of violet thorns and whispering trees. Vines as dark as midnight pierce the skin of all who enter.

The ground glows with mushrooms that tempt wanderers off their path.

Deep within, Vitanni’s factory grinds through the last of the forest’s beauty, one crushed flower at a time.

Legends still hear the sickening crack of quartz.

And if you see the antlers of a ghostly white elk?

Look the other way.

Happy Halloween!

Hi there!

I’m Leaftiger12, and I’ve been quietly building a fantasy world for the past few years. It started as a fun story with a friend, a few sketches of dragons and forests, and somehow grew into an entire universe filled with magic, creatures, and legends of its own.

In this world, dragons weren’t just creatures of myth — they were the creators of worlds. From the core of stars and the dust of galaxies, they shaped lands, oceans, and life itself. Their magic is ancient, woven into the very ground the characters walk upon.

I’m writing a book series set in this universe. It follows several heroes — called Legends — each born with their own elemental power and purpose. Their stories connect, intertwine, and lead back to the dragon who made their world possible: Amalia.

This blog will be my way of slowly unveiling their world — bits of lore, concept art, worldbuilding notes, and my thoughts as I keep creating. Like all starting-out writers, my post may not always be consistent, so please be patient as I put myself out there.

If you like dragons, animals, magic, or stories where destiny feels like starlight written into the sky… welcome. 🌙✨

I’m so glad you’re here!