Wanheda

"Then what was it, Lincoln?" she shot back,  more venomous than intended, but she  couldn’t just stand by passively and listen to  him ripping out her heart either. What he’d  done deserved her anger, and Octavia wasn’t one to hide her indignation. Nor the pain that  was written all too clearly on her face. Her impatience at his fumbling instead of just explaining like she wanted, even as more tears welled up from her eyes, grew, “And-? If you were  just friends, what’s there to tell? What happened  with her?”  His last statement didn’t make her feel better. Not  at all, considering it only served to convince her  she’d been second choice all along. “And if she had been? Would you still be here with me?” she  questioned, purposely ignoring his uncertainty  regarding their relationship. It would all depend on  how he really felt about this woman. And even then—- Octavia needed to think. Yes, she loved him more  than she could ever attempt to describe, but if  another held his heart, she would only be setting  herself up for more pain in the long run. Could she  do that?

He can only shake his head to her last question though. He didn’t think he could ever cheat. he didn’t like to think of himself as such a man. “I would be living at the ocean as well,” he said instead. he would have rarely gone so far into the forest if it meant Sameya was waiting at home for him.

“You don’t know what I’m capable of,” he shot back, despite it being a lie. If anything,  Clarke was the one who saw him at his lowest and made him strive to be a better man. She  was right in assuming he couldn’t hurt her. Not  unless it was his sister on the line, but he didn’t  even want to think about that possibility.  She obviously hit a snare though and Bellamy’s smile had faded instantly. Bitterness was creeping in, the guilt still there right beneath the surface and just like Clarke, he averted his gaze from her,  only in his case, it was the fact he couldn’t bear to  see the look that might be in those beautiful eyes.

Because her safety net comforted her more than anything else.

“Then what? Are you trying to hurt me?  –Like they hurt you? Is that what this is about?” 

“I am not. Would you prefer I had lied and hid from you instead?”

“Clarke, do you have to go?”

“No offense man, but I don’t think I care for your leader too much.”

clarke griffin appreciation week - day 5 : favourite platonic relationship(s) -> clarke x octavia

Of course, he felt like Earth’s biggest  jackass right about now, but Bellamy didn’t know how to rectify the situation  anymore, so he merely watched her  with that fiery intensity he possessed. "Well, he’s wrong,” he stated dryly,  lips pressing together in a tight line when he looked down at her. If anyone should know how guilty he felt about  arming Finn, it was her. Then why  would he start such rumors? The camp  was divided enough already as it was.  Her final words were like being punched straight in the gut and his dark eyes  narrowed dangerously. Most days, he  still believed the whispers in his mind,  telling him what kind of a monster he  really was and that nothing he did could  change that. It was actually Clarke’s words  which kept him holding onto the hope  that he could be different –the kind of man  his mother would have wanted him to be. But  finally the truth was out.  Shrugging, he averted his gaze as he told  her as mockingly as possible, if only to poorly  conceal the bitterness within, “Once a monster,  always a monster. Right, princess?”  

Not that her father would ever talk to her mother in the tone that Bellamy was using now but she guessed that was just the difference in a man who trusted and a boy who didn’t. “Maybe we all have a bit of a monster inside,” she declared.

“Is that what it was? You trying to make me jealous?”

“No but it seems to be the case anyways.”

Clarke Griffin Week > Day 1:  the moment you fell in love with her ↳ “I’m gonna help you, alright?“

some people just stick to you.

Bellamy didn’t think for one second that  his sister why Clarke couldn’t get rid of him,  but he wasn’t going to hint at this thing  between them. At least, she wasn’t joking about it anymore,  even if he had initially started it.  A small smile returned to his face.“You can’t  have it both ways, princess. Guess you’re  stuck with me.”

She preferred being stuck with him lately anyways. Not that she was going to go around and start admitting such things. His small but infectious smile would only grow bolder if she did. She quickly looked away and it would be too distracting if it did.

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