showed him all my teeth

he didn't feel good about what he did , but he hadn't done it for himself . not really . he'd done it for his dad . he always swore to himself he'd do what it took to live out the dreams he never got a chance to , and , yeah , he would be disappointed in how he'd gotten there , but the most important thing was that he had . his tour bus was lonely , and he had more regrets than he could count on both hands , but he had fans screaming his name at all of his shows . and one very familiar face , tonight , staring right at him from the front row .

clay had often wondered what she thought , if she'd heard it . if roles were reversed , he wasn't sure if he'd listen or avoid his music at all costs . his voice faltered when their eyes met , but he recovered quickly , and he didn't dare look her direction for the rest of the night . until she was standing right in front of him , and his customer service smile was frozen on his face . " charlotte , " he replied after a moment , a curt , polite nod in her direction . it felt so weird to say her name now , a name he'd avoided breathing since he told his none - too - happy mom they'd broken up . he could think of nothing else to say , now . all that came out was : " i take it you didn't like the song . "

yeah, any of those times would have been a better time to feel like they had no history. the more she thought about it the more it really started to tick her off. if he didn't have an army of security she would have slapped that fake smile clean off his face. well, she guessed she could still if she was fast enough. it wouldn't be the worst thing in the world to get banned from his shows for life. but he had way more money than she did...he could easily sue her.

she shook her head, her thoughts trying to take over her reaction. "i heard it." she said pointedly, ignoring the way she could hear screaming fans behind her telling her to hurry up. "i reckon you haven't heard about how our town reacted to it." she stared him dead in his eyes. he was a big shot now. she was sure he didn't check in with anyone who wasn't biased towards him since his reputation wasn't the one that got hit from everything. she really used to have it all...now she was beginning to have nothing to lose. "i just wanted you to have to see the person you hurt. acknowledge that you're not mr. perfect now."

for a moment, anelise was in complete bliss. the way he held her felt better than him being inside of her. not that she was saying that didn't feel better than it ever had before. that this, right here, was hands down the best sex she was ever having in her life. she almost let herself fall into the delusion that she could have this man's babies. that she could take on anything he gave her. that she wanted him so badly she would give just about anything up for him if he asked her to. her moans were vibrating off of the walls and it was only turning her on more. she didn't think she would ever feel this happy ever again.

then it all fell apart. his words sobered her up so fast that it scared her a little bit. hopefully he hadn't noticed the way she had completely tensed up for a single second. nothing more than a second. but it still had happened. she tried convincing herself he misspoke. that he didn't actually say the three most dangerous words he could ever say and she was making it up because he felt really good right now. clearly she was making it up! if she wasn't making it up that means he said what he said. that means their relationship was...there was no path forward. lines were crossed and things needed to end. she knew. she could fight it, but in the end that was what was going to happen. loving her was a death sentence. she was not going to let that be him. because she loved him too.

he did not realize what he said . damien did not notice her growing tense against him , did not register a single word that had left his own lips . . . which was probably for the best . it would send him into a spiral , too , and he would be watching the sand fall through the hourglass right now , counting down the mere seconds before she told him to get out , instead of focusing on how much he loved liked being with her like this . he didn't know she had caught it , because he hadn't even caught it himself , still mumbling " so good " while he moved inside of her , still pressing kisses into her skin .

if this was every day for him , the man could not imagine wanting for another thing . if life was waking up in the same bed as her every morning and going to bed side by side every night , showering together as routine rather than rarity . . . damien knew better to imagine it , to let it be anything more than a very brief passing thought . he knew better than to want her more than he should . he knew , he just didn't know how to control it . there was something about her . he could not just flip the switch off when it came to how he felt , and it did not have to unnerve him because anelise would never let things go too far , anyway . but there was a worry underneath it all that even if she did , she was the one person he would never be able to run away from . he would let her destroy him , and thank her for it .

he wasn't even phased. she did not know how to take that. it was a little hard to dissect his emotions when he was fucking her like this. she could feel herself squeezing him so tightly inside her, like she was trying to convince his dick to stay there. it was intimate and considering the situation, the perfect time to do it. she let herself pretend she could be loved by him. she let herself feel what it felt like to fuck someone she loved. she closed her eyes and let herself just feel. he might have misspoke, or got caught up in the moment, but she knew what she felt and since he had given her the delusion that he loved her, she was going to let herself be loved by him for tonight.

if she could be a girl in love she would do this every single night with him. she already couldn't keep her hands off of him so she imagined she'd be ten times worse if they were like open about their feelings. she would sleep over at his house and leave a toothbrush. she would slowly move her things over and bask in the way he looked at her while she bettered herself for him. she'd have more boundaries at work and with other guys. she would whisper she loved him when he fell asleep. she would stare at him when he wasn't looking and wonder how did she get so lucky. if she could be a girl in love, she could imagine that her life would be better. if he even meant what he said. if she could mean what she wanted to say.

charlie realized as he sat there , listening yet trying not to hear the moans and the whimpers she was making , it was the first time he hadn't been able to walk in . any other time he'd heard anything sexual coming from her room , he knew he could join , he could watch , he could help , well before they were dating . now not only was he not invited , she'd locked the door . and was . . . sucking her dildo . that was definitely what he was hearing . he groaned , still a little hopeful she would feel bad about torturing him and let him in to make it up to her .

this was it. hana's moment to really drive it in deep....literally....that she was mad and that if he tried to control her again he would suffer her wrath! her totally intimidating wrath that was even making her a little anxious. but it was making her really horny too. then again, it felt like it didn't really take much to get hana going. she was insatiable, truly. and she knew as much as charlie liked to pretend it wasn't the case, he was too. the fact that he didn't break down her door already almost had her pouting.

but it was confusing . because she was apologizing like the meant more to her than someone on payroll despite seemingly reminding him that was all that he was only a moment ago . there were so many mixed signals , and he didn't realize he was sending out the same amount . " i don't understand why you keep saying that , that you'd ruin my life . " he stepped forward , conflicting himself , silently pleading with her to turn around and look at him . now it seemed like she was conflicted , too , and he did not know how to leave well enough alone . " amara , you can't ruin my life ! you are my life ! "

she turned around. their eyes met. her composure fell. a completely broken looked crossed her face and she brought a hand to her chest as if she was trying to shield her heart. "and you are mine, stupid." a laugh that sounded like a sob. she felt like a little girl, pleading with him to see her the way she needed him to. she wasn't the ice queen. she wasn't the starlet. she was just amara. a girl who felt like she was drowning when finn wasn't by her side. a girl who loved him so fiercely that it consumed her soul. a girl who was so scared of burdening his life. "i have felt this way since we were children," she whispered, her head bowing. "i will feel this way until i'm gone from this earth."

but he also . . . really didn't want to leave . even though he knew she would wake up and remember she hated him in the morning , it almost felt like they were on some kind of level ground here . he'd admitted that he enjoyed her company , and she'd said he should stay . maybe until she passed out they could co - exist without staring daggers at each other for once . that could be . . . interesting . " okay , fine , i will stay , " he agreed , " but if you do fall , i am lying my ass off that i was never here . i am not going down for that . "

how pathetic was that? the moment he's nice to her she's ready to throw herself at him? leena would personally roast any woman that do what she was currently doing. and yet here she was. still looking at lloyd like he was a snack. she reached her hand out to him. "you'll catch me. i think i know that." she sighed, eyes going soft. "so are you joining me or not?" her hand was out for him to take. she was giving him an in she had never given him before. either she was too scared or too mad to try. so the ball was in his court in her mind.

" whoa , okay . come on . we are getting you to bed . " it was not a question , and he pushed her gently forward so she'd start walking . he'd carry her if he had to , but he would prefer it not come to that . " you can get out of it the second i'm gone , but you are not getting hurt on my watch . i don't want that on my conscience . " and he was also actually a little more worried about her than he thought he should be . " come on , get it movin' . "

suddenly the tension became even thicker for her somehow. she was looking up at him, face flushed, and her eyes were probably showing every forbidden thought she ever had of him. she wanted him gone so badly not that long ago and now she felt like she could cry at the idea of him leaving. the emotional whiplash was all her own doing now. she crossed a leg over the other and bit her lip. the fact that it felt this hard for her to make up her mind about what she wanted to say was getting really annoying really quick. "mm. you should stay. might fall or something."

his breath caught in his throat . he wanted so badly to beg her not to be angry with him , to give him just one more chance . he was the one person she trusted to come out of her shell with , and he knew that . and now she had to play her part around him too . now she had to look at him like the rest of them , another person with their own selfish motivations they put before her best interests . somehow even more than the hurt he felt for himself , he hurt for her . " i'm sorry . " he hadn't even meant to apologize again , and it was so soft he wasn't sure she heard it . finn couldn't watch her walk away , couldn't risk crying before she was gone so he closed his eyes , gave her time to slip into her room before he whispered it again . " i'm sorry . "

still the moment she reached her door she stopped. her hands were gripping the doorframe so hard she was sure she could splinter it. she turned her head back halfway, staring anywhere but at him. "i'm sorry too..." she said softly, a trace of her former self slipping out. "we almost blew everything up...." she said, mostly talking to herself. "and i will put my heart on the line every single time if it means i'm not ruining your life." she opened her door, her hands fumbling. "i hope you can understand."

" i'm gonna be honest with you — and you're probably not gonna like what i have to say , " dawson warned , folding the rolling paper over and finally turning his gaze back to daniela . he did feel a little bad , because this was kind of an important discussion ( he thought ) but he did not feel like worrying over details right now , and his attention was struggling to be captured . " i didn't really hear . . . any of that last part there . i zoned out . hard . you could've replaced your voice the charlie brown teacher and i wouldn't have even known , dude . "

he set his jaw , looking to the left of her , his eyes focused on nothing particular . he couldn't meet hers any longer , or he wouldn't be able to swallow the sob that was trying to work itself free from his chest . " yeah . okay . " his voice shook . finn was not the actor , here . but if she noticed , he had to assume she wouldn't care enough to call it out . he couldn't risk crossing the line in any way again . he couldn't show her how it hurt . whether she wanted him around or not , it was still his job to protect her , and he would lay his life down to do it . any day . " that was all , " he spoke around the lump in his throat , keeping his eyes leveled still with the wall . she would have to be the one to turn away . he didn't have it in him . " thank you , ms. rueng . "

she did turn her back first, the only visible sign of her how upset she was in the form of balled fists by her side. they trembled as she used everything in her to keep her composure. he was simply giving her back what she had begun to dish out but she didn't understand what she was doing wrong. it just didn't feel fair. "of course," she finally managed to say after a beat too long. "i will be retiring to my room then. since i am going to have to be on phone calls and figuring out a reason for my absence."