Putrid

You know I've never been mocked publicly, and my friends just...agreeing. And then defending the person.

What did they do to make them love them so blindly ? My friend say they don't but, let's be honest...you wouldn't act like that if you didn't follow the person blindly.

I have no one to say goodnight to, no one to care about me at least a bit...i...what will i do, please help

I keep thinking about it and i keep getting scared, every second i am not busy i think about that...or what happened.

I hate this so much, i want this to stop so bad.

Should i change the name ? Or do a cool acronym like PUTID...or putrid ? I like that name putrid it'll be. Mjght sound too much like a AU or some shit, but fuck it we ball

Continuing to post because if i stop and think for one second i might break down...im running on coffee and will wood to be honest.

To be honest I'm still wondering if i should not die, and just live a long life...like i always say all storm have an end. But i just think this time i only wonder out of fear, because its terrifying. But what have to be done have to be done, and the problem in my life is me. I tried to be myself, and maybe its because of the other person that made everyone hate me but eitherway the endgoal is the same i can't change and being myself is the problem. If i don't act now the only thing it'll do us hurt everyone even more.

I might be a coward, and well at this point its very probable. But im tired, and they made it clear my efforts where in vain.

Well i knew i wouldn't live to be 30 but thats quicker i expected it to be.

Yes I begin posting for attention, and what's the problem uh ? Its what i need

In resume my life is more than over, i will not like explain it'll be way too long. But yeah through about it, i have nothing to live for anymore. And that's the only resume anybody will need

Nobody will see these posts and that's fine, i have nothing to bring anyway beside ramblings...and bad one at that

I'm trying to get money to give one last gift to the people i love and will never stop loving

Personally, yes. But also personally, not a great childhood. So my opinion is probably bad

I want things to get better but i can't do it alone

And uhhh a quote i create so this post wasn't pointless for anyone reading

Then i looked down

"Google ads"

I stopped wondering why it wasn't filtered out

I roamed life, eating people alive

I heard the sound of their bones cracking under my teeths

I felt the texture of their flesh snapped by my fangs

I smelt the sent of their blood wasted all over the floor

But then i realized that my mouth was empty and my body long gone