Andrew Layne Writings

It was late at night

The feeling was right

And the scene was out of sight

 As soon as I walked in the door

I made my way to the floor

Wanting nothing more

 My hip chains jingle

The clubbers commingle

I feel a familiar tingle

 I begin to feel the heat

As I move my feet

To the music's beat

 To just be me

I feel so free

At least as much I can be

 I flow with the sound

Not feeling the ground

And keep dancing around

 A feeling inside

Is coming alive

I'm feeling it thrive

 The heat starts to rise

As time flies

I receive a surprise

 He walks over and says hi

And winks and eye

A lick on his cheek is my reply

 Paws on my hips

Exploring lips

And then my foot slips

 I feel fright

But he grabs me tight

A heart is said to be the most fragile part of a human, besides the soul that is. But  don't think a heart can ever be broken. In fact, I don't think it's ever whole.

Although I believe a heart can't be broken, I imagine that it is in pieces.

My friends ask me how I am and I always answer fine

I don't want them to worry about the problems that are mine.

I don't like lying to them and it makes me sad that I do

I think about it all the time but I don't know what else to do

 I continue searching for the answer and I will never stop.

With each lie i tell i feel like my heart is about to pop.

I endlessly dream each night for a more joyful life

But each time it is cut in half with a bloody rusted knife.

 I know he people who give hugs say they care

But whenever I need them, no one is ever there.

I hold it all in and cry often cause it hurts so much

A haunting melody

Fills the night.

Chasing away shadows

That tend to fright.

 No music is playing

But a song there still is

Floating around

Like an unseen mist.

 Somewhat soft

And almost gentle.

Those that hear it

Believe they've gone mental.

 I always feel sad

About those who are immune,

Deaf to the music,

Sitting here, watching clouds go by

I see myself being left behind

And to myself, I'm asking why?

What is there left for me to find?

 There's no reason for me to be sad

I can see nothing and still see all

Most people would become crazy or mad

Waiting in the darkening light I begin to fall

 With no one beside me I accept my fate

My body disintegrated, my spirit begins to fade

Still falling without slowing, I'm losing faith

I come to the end of the hole, surroundings of the darkest shade

 Although my body is no more I still remain

My spirit lingers on something but I don't know what.

I wish to stop this inhuman pain.

Gaze upon my home, this pit, this rut.

 Please someone, anyone, help me

I don't want any of this

I want to be set free

Being standing in the grey

Let your angels of light and dark guide your way

 Light to hold you dear,

Shadow to protect you from fear

 Forces of the moon and sun

Will fight together as one

Dimming lights, increasing sounds

Wagging tails on synthetic hounds.

 From what I see

The furries are free

Neighbors are thinking “Oh woe is me.”

 The suiters are few

Some faces are new

Eep! I just got groped by Rainhopper Roo.

 Night has spread

I’ve talked to the collie Red

The straight pure bred.

 The side of the house is like an alley

It is here I chat with my friend Growly

Telling him about my friend Ally.

 The churros arrive

The furries strive

None were left alive.

 Euro and I play some games

Getting up, I ripped my Hanes

My face burned more than a thousand flames.

 Off to In-and-Out we go

Giving the drivers a little show

Hey there, pal! Watch the road!

 Yummy burgers, tasty fries

Luckily there are no flies.

Someone brought balloons. What a surprise!

 On the way back, a handler I be

Growly showing how, lucky me

Too bad I myself couldn’t see.

 It is midnight now, the party ends

Slipping out of my skin

Just to feel the purity

Of freedom.

I escape my prison,

The sense of rebirth

Rushes over.

 I am asleep, but aware;

Living and yet nonexistent,

Floating through the grey.

 It is here,

The sanctuary, that calls to me.

Its light blinding and hidden by the darkness

Of its shadow.

 The place where everything began

I know I shouldn’t say this

But sometimes I feel so sad.

Sitting here, thinking about our times

Both the good and the bad

 First you kissed, said you loved me

Then you left me, left me standing

All by myself, in the rain

With nothing left except this pain.

 Raindrops fall and soak my face

Helping me to erase

Years of tears and blood,

The soul doth lingers

Always turning the other way,

Never pointing any fingers.

Sob filled wishes

And desperate prayers

Sent to many gods

But listeners were often scarce,

He appeared

And seemed like the one

It was then, that the Fates

Began their fun

Love was expressed

And hearts were shared

But as it seemed,

Only one fully cared.

The wish that was granted

Was soon unraveled.

The wishers heart shattered,

Like rock to gravel

Staying friends to be happy

Was thought to be easy

But love being shared around him

Only made him queasy.

A wish that was twisted

But still has its perks

I can protect him from

The many jerks

The love may not be shared

But there we share a different kind.

I’m sure there’s another love

Out there for me to find.

But no more prayers

And no more Fates.

If they interfere again