effervesce Or don’t

And I’ll admit that I’m not the type to look up people who share an interest of mine ie I won’t go on yt or or tt or whatever and look up “geocaching” or “geocachers” and tbh after this post I probably will but I need to discuss smth on the matter of geocaching in the united states lol

There’s no geocaches in the hood and I feel a way about it, not necessarily negatively but not all the way positively either.

On one hand I prefer for there to not be white people poking around places that they really don’t need to be but on the other hand where the fuck am /I/ supposed to find and place geocaches lmaoooooooo bc here’s the thing

Just as much as I don’t want white people where they Shouldn’t Be, I know they don’t want me where I “shouldn’t be” lmaoooooo

And there are times—like right now lol—where I’ll be out with my husband as he’s at work (so that I don’t feel like killing my self by staying in the house, yall know how it is) driving around installing windshields all around de northern front range and we inevitably end up in white neighborhoods and there will be nearby geocaches and I’ll be like “alright I’m gonna go hit this cache while you do that windshield rq love you brb” and he lovingly would prefer I not go bc ‘there’s all that blue lives matter bullshit around here’ or bc we’re in a sundowny ass part of CO or even just bc it’s a housing development full of bored white people just waiting to call the cops on this big scary brown bitch poking around like she’s looking for something which I mean they wouldn’t be wrong and of course I’ve had police roll up and ask what I was doing even while not geocaching lmao so it’s not like an unrealistic fear. I really am a big scary brown bitch and I really would be poking around like I was looking for something lmao and like even though I wouldn’t be doing anything wrong I just don’t want to make my husband all anxious if he hears I had to explain myself to police and then he just wouldn’t like me geocaching in predominantly white areas at all and here we circle back to OKAY WHERE THE FUCJ ELSE AM I SUPPO-, you see where I’m going here. But I’m not mad at him bc I would feel the exact same way if he were the geocacher.

And like I want to place a cool lil cache around my mom’s house but I also know my fam would NOT be okay with random white people walking and digging ariund like they’re trying to find things because there no doubt would be lol geocaching is mainly white people. For sure I KNOW there’s Cachers Of Color but it’s mainly white.