hate being horny but in a way where i wouldn't know how to transmute it into something satisfying interpersonally
sometimes i try to have sex and realize i just want to stare at them, which usually isn't enough for people.
sex is good and desirable when i have been out in public with someone and we tease each other until we explode into an alley or bathroom or car. that's thrilling, that's fun, that's incredibly arousing. the public is part of it, it's more fun to slip into a game of seduction when you've got an audience to play with.
it is hard to get me off, so maybe a to-the-point hookup soon after with the intention of making each other orgasm til satisfaction is great.
but beyond that, if we have established that we fuck and we're just hanging out inside... i don't usually want to fuck. i want to play with you without worrying about why Im doing what I'm doing, the way you don't have to acknowledge or shy from your weirdness when you play with a toy by yourself in your room.
I want to hold myself up above you while you watch me and don't speak. play with your teeth, trace your arm muscle. make you tense, see how your shapes change. I don't feel like cumming. Or working. I just feel like I'm unable to blink. It's a favorite feeling.
