laven ✩

food: ~800

horrible few months. was hospitalised then sent to an ip, managed to discharge myself from that ip then got sectioned so had to go to a different and much worse ip. now nearly back at a healthy weight after being tube and force fed for months so they’ve decided i’m ok for discharge

changing adhd meds to elvanse/vyanse (lisdexamfetamine) to try regulate my emotions better does anyone have any experience with it!! effects/pros/cons anything

10.30 iced coffee with oat milk

home sweet home <3

i got made a voluntary patient on friday after my psych assessment found me to be stable and my vitals have also stabilised (my heart and liver were a bit fucked before) and so tomorrow i am gonna discharge myself!!!

if i can’t be skinny i need to look exactly like taylor swift ok?

my like adult real life job is as a machine learning scientist and i spent today programming predictive models for my own weight gain and weight loss based on over 8 consecutive years of daily weight, calories and exercise data. also running some simulations about when i’ve got myself hospitalised or when i’ve triggered a bad binge or self harm relapse and it’s actually super interesting looking at some of the trends