Guys can we talk about how heartbreaking this moment is? Shane finally got up the courage to tell Ilya, the love of his life, how he truly feels about him and Ilya feels the same way. They were emotionally intimate in a way they’ve never been in almost a decade. Ilya just called him by his first name and he liked it instead of being scared. This is a huge, beautiful, and truly heartwarming moment. Shane could not be happier.
But…
The moment Shane opens the door he’s on guard again. He’s immediately scared of being caught, immediately aware there is danger, immediately taken out of that high he was just in, immediately forced back into reality. It’s such a small moment that I’m so glad Hudson chose to act out because it encapsulates the entirety of Shane’s relationship to their relationship. He loves Ilya but he’s scared shitless and that fear sticks with him for a long, long time. My heart breaks for that cutie who just wants to love and be loved in return.
