Serendipity.

where do you find machines like that doe

tbh lifting has replaced a lot of my other unhealthy coping mechanisms and i dunno if this is any healthier but im gettin free stuff this way so??? im gonna count that as an improvement lmao

Same here. To some degree, it’s actually improved my life: - it’s got me getting out of bed, getting dressed, and getting out of the house - it’s given me the first-hand understanding that no, people generally *aren’t* watching you all the time when you’re out in public, which has actually helped me with anxiety issues - it’s given me a sense of accomplishment. For someone with massive self-esteem issues, this is huge - it’s got me using social skills that have become learned behaviour which I do when I’m not lifting: not wanting to look suss has probably made me a nicer person to random people - it’s made me better at being aware of my surroundings and focussing. I think this is how mindfulness is meant to work, but previous attempts at trying it didn’t really work for me. - it’s allowed me to engage in small acts of self-care which I previously wouldn’t have justified due to the cost - it’s facilitated me eating healthier - I’ve gotten into using my brain and teaching myself skills and researching. When depression fogs up your ability to do that, which it did to me mid-year, actually being able to do it again feels amazing. Again, it’s becoming a learned behaviour which is helping me get into learning things in other areas - it’s minimised the effects of poverty, many of which are psychological and a lot which are rooted in a sense of helplessness for me - it’s made me better with money. For some reason, when you can’t have ANYTHING, you want EVERYTHING, but once you realise you can have anything, part of you realises that you don’t particularly want it and you don’t bother, in the same way as just eating all-round healthy and not guilt-tripping yourself about food makes you less prone to crash dieting. I’m actually working on getting savings happening now. - it’s helping me get my shit together  - it’s given me SOME control over things. When you’re poor, your options and control is limited, and that thinking starts to permeate every other area of your thinking. Now, I think, “I have choices.” And that’s started permeating my thinking elsewhere. Having choices = feeling better Does this sound fucked up? Probably. But it sure as hell beats hurting myself or other people.

holy fuckaroni i thought this might get 4 notes at most

This was like the best ted talk i’ve ever seem

why father

The moment when the table turns.