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i think the most beautiful thing about being a human is the capacity to change

“She’s so sweet she’s always going out of her way to help others” quick someone give that girl all the love and safe space she deserves before being “sweet” (pathological people pleasing as a trauma response) destroys her and leaves behind a bitter empty shell of a person

I love Luigi Mangione

i wish there was more social existence you could participate in laying down. I wish there were cafes that were two little futon beds parallel to each other with a low table in between so you could eat and drink while lounging. I wish there were group activities like painting or glazing clay or theaters that were designed to have beds and bed-height tables instead of chairs. I wish there were beds alongside benches outside for anyone to use. I wish air mattresses or roll-out beds were as common as cheap shitty chairs at things like barbeques, beaches, and concerts. so much life would open up to me and be enjoyable if I could lay down instead of sitting or standing for prolonged periods and completely wearing myself down with pain.

being into unordinary and trying to find and engage with fan content compared to doing so in almost every other fandom i've engaged with is fucking crazy because this series has six MILLION subscribers and over a BILLION reads and multiple physical books and a ten year runtime. any other source material with that kind of reach has comparatively such a higher ratio of fan work/fan interaction/etc but unordinary has weirdly little. i'm not sure if that's just true for all webtoon fandoms but like the alleged fanbase vs the number of well written fics and number/reach of posts across platforms including tumblr and tiktok is so low... like the whole reader base could NOT fit in the bus but the actual active fandom probably could :( obviously i don't mean any of this in a negative way towards anyone i just wish i had more people to engage and share ideas and works with!!

I've found that people have this belief that if you explained that you were disabled, then actually the person giving you a hard time would relent. They assume that the only reason someone might be ableist about someone else is because they are simply lacking information, whereas I find that many people who jump to being ableist, inadvertently or otherwise, do not give a flying fuck if you cannot do [X action] because of a disability, and will in fact still demand you suck it up or stop making it everyone else's problem.

blast my stupid baja life

all that and i havent killed myself yet i must really love this stupid fucking life