Lana Brown

Look at Sam’s face. To me, I don’t just see a man losing a friend, I see a man haunted by his trauma. Nearly ten years ago, Sam took his dive into hell knowing that it was the only way to save the world and those he loved. Watching Rowena’s own “Swan Dive” forced Sam to not only relive one of the most terrifying moments of his life, but he had to stand by and let history repeat itself in someone he truly cared for.

He and Rowena bonded over their suffering at the hands of Lucifer and it was the first time that anyone truly understood what Sam had been through. That solidified an unlikely friendship and comradery. That gave Sam the empathy he needed to find the beauty in a powerful witch. 

There’s guilt, grief, fear, and memories ripping through him all at once. Sam knows the darkness that awaited her below all too well and it ate him alive. That’s another reason he mourned so deeply for her loss. Sam couldn’t bear the thought of Rowena trapped where he once was, no matter for how brief before she would be overtaken by the souls. Not only did he have to allow it to happen, but he also had to be the one that set it in motion. He had to be the one to watch his friend take the same plunge that stole his humanity.

Rowena and Sam | 15x03 ➤ The Rupture

Sam kept his eyes shut when Rowena fell into the crack, because he couldn't stand witnessing the loss of his love

15x03 - The Rupture

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