We never see things as they are, we never really take time to actually think things through. We jump at the chance to take a risk when we really don't know what the future holds for us. If we're making the right decision. We can't choice who to like, who to love, who to unlike, and who to hate. You heart does whatever feels right, and your brain is just trying to keep it under control but sometimes it listens, other times it doesn't. My heart choices the worst people, the ones that should come with a caution sign but I think I chose to ignore it. My brain try's to stop feeling everything, thinking it is better if I am numb, which I must say is something I've been though before. Everyday was a constant black and white film, no light, no dark, just grayness all around. I felt nothing and for a while I didn't mind, I had been hurt so much I never wanted to be hurt again. I would avoid anything that had to do with feelings, I became unmoving and uncaring. Refusing to show affection to anything or anyone. That's how it was, that's how I lived. That's how it was and that's how I liked it. I was a emotional vacant bitch. So what if I reverted back into my old self? People would fear me. And being feared is better than being someone's punching bag.
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