𐙚⋆.˚ Being Me 𝜗𝜚⋆₊˚

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Good morning, afternoon or evening where ever you may be or whatever time you may be reading this!!

How exciting! I'm going the Tumblr bandwagon a little late but this is both a welcome for myself and you being here :) I'm so looking forward to chatting about some of my most favourites things and even some thoughts of mine that MUST be shared! although some maybe short and sweet or maybe even straight up bollocks I'm sure together ill be able to write some good reads.

Talking of reads, I'm wanting to do a book review and I admit I'm not the fastest reader but each time I finish a book I'd love to share my thoughts and I'd love even more to here your thoughts too!! I could even create a little book club tab, Ooo now that sounds like fun! I do enjoy colouring so I think I want to share a spread every time I complete a page. of course I'm new to Tumblr so I'd like to introduce myself a little better.

I'd rather not share my name so please refer to me as ladybird! 🐞

I'm 17 years old

I study film production/theory

fav show: interview with the vampire

fav movie: "LadyBird" (directed by greta gerwig and ergo the nickname!!)

fav colour: pink 💕

I read, colour, do lego and have a few other hobbies

and, Fun fact! I have an eye condition called Irisnevus! (almost like heterochromia's sibling

1. Unsaid feelings

2. Constant reminder that I can’t have access to the healthcare I need because I live in a small village

3. Trust being broken but they continue the friendship like it used to be, I’m too afraid to say anything

4. Not knowing every little thought someone had about me

5.talking about myself too much

6. Watching a show that someone has been talking about for ages and when I finally tell them how much they are correct and how amazing it is they shut me down

7. Being social enough to make friends and be loud but too anxious to be around someone I have the slightest crush on in the way that I’ll remove them from my whole existence

8. The quiet after an argument

9. Being reminded that I’m not normal. That I struggle to do mundane tasks simply because my brain can’t comprehend it

10. Being the centre of attention

11. Being apart of drama/ confrontation

12. Grades

Okay so I mentioned a guy named sauce in my last blog post.

WE HAVE FINALLY HAD CONVERSATIONS, of course within a group but he brought up the topics I talked about and laughed at so many of my jokes! I know that’s the bare minimum but we’ve gotta start somewhere! I’m such a shy person when it comes to having crushes and all of them have been left unsaid and maybe this one will too but, I don’t know I’m still proud of myself for having the courage to talk to his casually?

I hope this doesn’t go unsaid, but I know myself too well so I’ll just enjoy it while it lasts <3

Peace and love gang xoxo

Firstly i'd like to say I'm not gonna be naming anyone!! and secondly here is the names ill be using instead

juice

sauce

Now onto my situation! So, after a few months of college I've made friends with juice and in his friend group are a few other boys but one in particular is called 'sauce' (also one of his closest friends). I think sauce is like 100 percent my type and like hello! I have a Tumblr page for ranting so obviously I'm not gonna confess, but I've come across the fact that Juice likes me...

now not to be mean but juice isn't my type, mainly because his interests aren't something I'm into, physically not my type either and trust me I ain't much of a looker myself but I've never had to worry about it before because the biggest crush I've ever had is on Cillian Murphy. ANYWAYS (sorry for that small rant), Juice just isn't the person for me and that's totally okay but I want too remain being his friend BUT if he asked me out I wouldn't know how to react id either panic and just say yes and then be miserable or if a said no then BAM!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! friendship ruined.

On the other hand with Sauce, I'm pretty sure he feels nothing for me romantically because its know he hasn't dated much, if at all (not sure) and I don't think I'd be his type but that could just be me and my own brain saying so because you never know what someones type really is until its actually said so...yeah. Also quick side note the only thing me and juice can talk about is Fallout (the show) and movies?