glowing, blooming‬

🔋took videos today for progress tracking and i'm glad that i did. i was getting frustrated (number-wise) the past few days to the point that my brain almost went into a dark place. buti napigilan ko rin naman through doing a lot of research and positive self-talk. plus feeling ko din may changes sa period ko so maaga siya this month kaya as early as now, ugang uga ako. pero ayun, natuwa ako to see how my body looks! 🥺

🔋i still have a long way to go to burn more fats sa back and arms ko but i saw naman na gumaganda na muscles ko. naremind ako sa sabi sa akin ni ate ash last year (!!!) that my shoulder-to-waist proportion is so ganda kaya when i saw my pulldown video, medyo kilig. naamaze din ako to see my arm and back muscles in my face pull video kasi shet there is progress!!!!!! tinatarget din ni coach lately triceps ko since i have way too many extra squishies sa arm. kaya nilalabanan ko utak ko lately kasi ayoko madishearten or make any not-so-nice decisions just because feeling ko wala akong progress. i have photos and videos to anchor me!!! ror

🔋speaking of!!! meron may nakahelp sa brain ko kagabi to power through the knocking Sad! i think it was from ig na post. it said (NV) "even if you're not losing weight, you showing up to the gym is doing a lot of help for your health. your future self will be thanking you." okay po.🥺

🔋friends replied to me with my PR story and natawa talaga ako HAHAHAHAHAHA and my nail artist is so cute kasi consistent talaga pag-worry niya sa akin and my back kapag wala akong belt XD jinoke ko siya na hahanap na lang ako ng gym boi jowa para meron na ako agad spotter hehe pero more serious note, i think i need to start using a belt if i decide to go higher with my weights. pero hindi ko 'yun priority kasi form >>>>> weight priority ko.

🔋alam niyo biggest insecurity ko ngayong tumanda tanda na ako? my calves. HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA :( my calves are big for me azza shorty kaya di ako comfy sa awkward length ng dresses kasi di siya bagay sa akin BUT!!! i did learn how to dress my 4'11.5 self na babagay sa calves ko. thighs ko naman kasi, i like how thick they are lalo na now na mas nawowork ko quads ko but sa calves talaga takot talaga ako na it would get bigger. hindi ko siya actively tinatarget sa training but i do appreciate my calves so much!!!!!!!!!! lalo na when i think about all the thousands of steps i did, and kapag nakikita ko how activated they are when i lift, napapa-"wow thank you for helping me power through everything" ako. :')