renew the acolyte

does anyone else think about how brave all their friends are and get really emotional about it

I'm glad everyone is alive rn

dreamt that i went to a car dealership and Light Yagami and L were there and I saw L first so I went "woah are you L death note?" and L went "L what?" and light went " L WHAT."

everyone tells me that ADHD isn't an excuse for being lazy and that there are people with ADHD who have overcome their symptoms and are successful but every day I drag around an invisible dopplegänger of myself who is horrible and listless and always complains. and he is so heavy. I'm ambitious and I'm passionate but he isn't and the problem is that to get anywhere in life I have to grab him by the leg and pull him along the whole way, kicking and screaming, and sometimes it gets exhausting. sometimes he pulls me down with him. and it gets a bit difficult to explain to people why I'm lying down on the floor in pain when they can't see him.

I've never heard ADHD explained this way....but it's such a good depiction of it.

"people with ADHD who have overcome their symptoms" yeah that's me when I have access to Adderall. which mostly I do not, because there's a manufacturing shortage, and Medicaid patients are not exactly at the head of the queue for any meds with black market value.