dear j
23:40, July 18th. it is near to impossible to write down everything i feel for you, j. but i love everything about you. the way you gently rub your fingers against my skin, knowing how much it comforts me. the way we can silently sit in a room together and it would be my favorite kind of silence. the way you dress me and take care of me after doing things. the way you open every door in sight for me, and how you put my shoes on for me. the way our lips fit together like puzzle pieces, or how our hands are the same size and fit together perfectly. i love when you paint my nails, i love when your hands touch mine. every single touch of yours is heaven. every word that comes out of your mouth hugs my skin. the way you listen to me and take in every word i have to say and remember it. the way you love listening to me, as well. you are the one person i will forever feel safe with. the feeling of your arms wrapped around me feels like floating in a pool. floating in a pool to me feels like the weight of the world is being pulled away and i can just float without a worry. i love your smile, i know you hate it.. but theres a lot of things you dont see that i do. i donât know exactly how to describe it, but the way your lips shape when you smile makes me grow a million butterflies in my stomach. (p.s. i love everything about you) i also think ill forever have a crush on you. i know weâre dating and all... but i still get that feeling you get when you first see someone youre attracted to. or that firework feeling you get when you first kiss someone. i get that with you, every time, no fail. you set off fireworks in my mind and butterflies in my stomach. there isnât a single thing i wouldnt do for you. and i know that itâs the same vise versa, which is a lovely thing to have. the fact we would burn down the world to save each other is so absolutely amazing. you are my soulmate. you are the person the universe has been sending me to. all the stupid silly tiktoks about the initial âjâ, all the silly little signs about someone new coming into my life, all of the signs. they were true. the universe led me to you, j. and i wouldnt have it any other way. i love loving you, you are perfect in every way no matter what you say and i have never met and i never will meet someone as perfect as you. you are my forever, my everything. i would give you my life, i trust you with my life. i know this was all over the place, but to make a long story short. i love you. you are my universe. you are my forever. ill never let you go, j, you saved me.Â
