while I wait for an idea,

https://paulkingsnorth.substack.com/p/the-vaccine-moment-part-three

https://charleseisenstein.substack.com/p/elements-of-refusal

https://paulkingsnorth.substack.com/p/the-vaccine-moment-part-one

https://tasshin.com/blog/meditation-tips-for-a-lifetime-of-practice/

https://www.yesmagazine.org/issue/ecological-civilization/2021/02/16/what-does-ecological-civilization-look-like

1. Diversity 2. Balance 3. Fractal Organization 4. Life Cycles 5. Subsidiarity 6. Symbiosis

The article contains a lot of research on Utopian communities in literature and has an account on personal experiences in a few intentional communities that still exist today. I found the text important to read, there were several passages that made me rethink the practices and thoughts I’m following in my communal life, and how to make them better. There are, however, many parts that I don’t agree with, according to my experience in communities. There are several ways to learn about those failures and I see communities that have done or are doing that already. Anyway, this was a good read and it’s always great to get new perspectives on my own thoughts and develop them. 

There is repetition. A movement that goes somewhere and comes back. Goes somewhere and comes back.  And again. An exploration of creating new pathways, new networks, new nodes. Expanding. Training. Learning. There is the pace. Unhurried, rhythmic beat at background. Giving us an idea of something moving forward. Time progressing. Creating a frame, a space. Defining the dimensions of the Universe in which we are located. Define space. 

While I sit in meditation, the sound of space seeps in. How I imagine space sounding like even though I know in reality it is silent. I can hear metallic, machine-like, mechanical, laconic, slow screeches in distance and a round softer lighter brighter opening OM. Space sounds get mixed with a sound of a bird chirping outside. It must be one of the first birds of the spring. I don’t remember hearing them before. Something is coming to life soon. Something is being born. Again.

 There are neon lights. Or maybe just streetlights in a light rain. A slightly creepy atmosphere, the one that I feel when walking on the street in a small town. It’s late in the evening but not too late. Wet darkness and blurry lights. Only after a while realizing that it’s awfully quiet. Too quiet. There must be something strange going on. My mind is running wild. Senses sharpen. But I only hear the repetitive sound of my footsteps. I am very much alive. 

Ainoastaan veden kiehumisen hiljalleen vaimeneva ääni todistaa minulle että tässäkin hetkessä aika etenee, on liikkeessä. Pakuriteemukista nouseva höyry tanssii paikalleen jähmettyneenä. On olemassa vain tämä hetki. Olen täydellisesti tässä ja samanaikaisesti olen ajatuksissani kaukana toisaalla, menneessä tai tulevaisuudessa, ei sillä niin väliä, yhtä kaikki samaa ne ovat, toisiinsa kietoutuneena. Aika ei näyttäydy minulle enää millään muotoa lineaarisena. Tapahtumat sekoittuvat kokemuksessani, vaikka en muistakaan olenko ne tässä elämässä jo kokenut vai ovatko ne vasta edessäpäin.

Päätäni jomottaa. Päivän työskentely nahkoja parkiten on vienyt kehostani mehut. Nostaessani katseen pystyn lukemaan saman pirtin pöydän toisessa päässä istuvan toverin asennosta. Hän on tässä, niin ikään pysähtyneenä. Pöydällä lojuvista dyykatuista leipäpusseista kynttilänvalossa lankeava liikkumaton varjo naamioi hänen kasvonsa takanaan olevaan seinään. Joudun tarkkailemaan hetken varmistaakseni pään yhä kuuluvan osaksi hänen kehoaan. Yrttitippojen voimakas tuoksu viipyy tuvassa. Onpa täällä hiljaista.

Tämä on hetki, jonka tahdon tallettaa. Jo ajatellessani kirjoittamista on se rikkoutunut, ohitse, eikä koskaan saatavissa takaisin. Varmistuttuani painaneeni mieleen ensimmäisen lauseen, kiiruhdan takkahuoneeseen hakemaan koneeni.

Uskon olevani elossa, enemmän kuin usein, mutta kyseenalaistan sitä tässä hetkessä. Vastakohtien yhteen sulautuminen kokemuksessa hätkähdyttää edelleen. Todellisuus on alati määrittelyään pakeneva konsepti.

https://www.bigissue.com/latest/environment/david-graeber-to-save-the-world-were-going-to-have-to-stop-working/ 

“The experience of really listening to another human being is the source of our willingness to love them. Someone just gave me a t-shirt that says, "You can't hate someone whose story you know." That works at every level.”

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“In fact, a lot of people do know how to be together, but it's a skill that hasn't been considered important or given any status in our society. It's actually been dismissed as insignificant and soft and fuzzy. So courage is what we need, and the source of that courage is recognizing that the questions, doubts and desires that move in me move in everyone else as well.”

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“Many of us within large organizations are awakening to the awareness that life is uncertain and that we do make it up as we go along. But these aren't the usual management principles (laughs). There are very powerful forces that have no interest in this kind of awakening. I believe that's part of the gift of being alive right now. We have a wonderful opportunity to transform our relationships and our awareness of life. It's about creating a whole new world view, and I would say, even moving beyond that to emptiness. But we have to realize that we're not going to gain sanction from our present institutions. That's why courage is even more required. We're actually being quite revolutionary here. The world is going to continue to tell people who feel this awakening that they're crazy, so we might as well realize that what we are seeking is quite revolutionary in these times. It is part of a great swelling up on the planet of a desire for transformation. I don't know if I want to say it's big work, but it feels fundamental, in the good sense of returning to the foundations that truly support us.“

And other very timely points from Margaret Wheatley from more than 20 years ago.

https://www.margaretwheatley.com/articles/uncertainty.html

For future reading:

https://medium.com/@seamusohailin/pontoon-archipelago-e53f28fa6fae