Always

“i hope you never see this. i hope you never realize how much you affected me. i hope you never realize how fucking rude you were to me. i hope you realize that i struggle just as much as i do. i hope you fucking realize you were just as much into it as i was. i hope you fucking realize you never had to do a thing lay a finger on me and i never made you do anything i hope you realize i have anxiety. just like you, and mine is all the time. i hope you realize i don’t want to be like this. i hope you realize that i was something worth having and holding onto, and everything there was for you and you never had to do a thing. you just had to be there, at the worst times and the best times. and you weren’t. i hope you see this.”