Went to bed and dream that I was someone, a director? Photographer? Artist? Magazine editor?. I'm not sure all I know I was not a happy women in red. Seeing that I have red lips and red dress on most times. A depressed woman I guess was angry with life. Walking down the streets where people selling flowers,fruits and vegetables. Buying some fruits and wine. I guess that's all I eat since my body was not healthy with fruit and wine as my diet. Not forgetting my medication. Lived in a somewhat ok apartment. No dog no plants. Just plain modern minimalist home. Looking at the mirror with my depressed tired face thinking if is this how my life going to be. Looking at my skinny face with red lips and long jet black hair,wondering how did it get so long?. Next thing I knew I have a clipper on my hand. I guess it's time to shave my hair off. Maybe it will make me fill better, as I shaved my had thoughts of me waiting for a man I can never have. I guess I was just a play thing,a past time or maybe just a pill to forget reality. "Will you kiss me like when we first met?" He tried but it's not the same since. We just fuck not make love anymore. Maybe he is tired of me. Too dangerous maybe I guess I have become more bold around him. Or maybe I'm not good anymore. Used goods I guess. After our little secret,next thing I'm at the rooftop terrace kinda high for my taste, the house keeper vacuuming some of my fallen hair that I cut with scissor. Telling me have hope miss everything will be alright. I'm back to mirror where my hair is half gone. Why am I Smiling now?I guess I have hope in my mind. And idea for a photoshoot. Let me call my kids to come with the cameras. Wine I need my wine again. I think I need to celebrate. Few hours later my two boys came with the cameras and props. "Boss you ok there? It's dark in here? We got the stuff. Great guys set it up by the veranda when the light come take the shot. Hope with flowers around as light flashes. Then one of them stop asking are you ok boss? Then they saw my head. Shocked, boss let me help you to clean it up, as he picked up the clippers and continue to finish shaving my head, it felt real good now so light and free. Then he said go wash up so I can clean the hair off my body. I was in my kimono red silky robes and now to the shower, nice and warm. Clean from thoughts clean mind.when I was done the cleaning lady still vacuuming my leftover hair on the floor. They boys got the shot and head out. They text me that to finalize the pictures tomorrow. Red flowly dress, full face make up with red lips. New day with hope In mind.
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