Honestly i dont know what's going on in my life now; i care about not eating, losing weight and byler? but somenthing else is pissing me off, i like to be masculine sometimes. First things first, i've aways been sure that if i had a choice, i would choose to be born like a boy; but i aways cared so much about looking femenine, petite, small, cute, thin (yes it was kind of a self fetishe) but now i cant view myself like this anymore. I enjoy looking slightly masculine sometimes, i wish i could look more masculine (and do it more often) i do not care about prounouns, i do not care about being a living doll, i dont want to be an object enymore.This feeling also reflects on my sexuality, i'm dating a cis straight men who doesn't let me top him, oh so sad guys. Fuck my stupid baka life

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