im on a plane on my way to istanbul turkey rn. itβs crowded and dark but itβs pleasant. Iβve been on way more annoying flights. as im sitting here trying to pass time, im trying to make sense of how somewhere along the timeline of my life, i made a left, or right turn and it led me to a plane on my way to istanbul turkey.
i started making songs like 13 years ago. maybe longer tbh. itβs been so long I donβt even really remember. well, i guess i could count. ok letβs count. im 32 and i started when i was like 15 (when i wrote my first song), so thatβs 17 years. cool, got it. and ive played a lot of songs a lot of times, but never in istanbul turkey.
i have played shows in other cities in Europe a few times before (which weβll be doing after turkey). and I have played some of my own music at those shows. but this time it all feels different. And thereβs a chance that it feels different because I want it to be different? But no, this all feels different.
but none of those shows felt like this. not even if you added them all up together. and tbh, its not even the SHOWS, but more the whole thing. mainly the interactions and love and community im feeling here on the internet. and i have to say its really a crazy feeling.
it can be really lonely sharing yourself. id be lying if I said i make things solely for myself. i make things in the WAYS I DO solely for myself. i dont bend or adapt because I think itβll get your guys attention quicker or easier. you guys cant be fooled. itβs impossible. Iβve tried. and itβs SO crazy to me, and I feel SO fulfilled because all of these songs Iβm playing, and photos, and posts im sharing, are just my natural reactions to whatever is in front of me. idk if thatβs clear enough or makes sense, but im saying, im keeping it a buck, and just being real and you guys seem to believe in that, and itβs fucking freeβing. and you guys are allowing me to be myself and contribute to your lives. and seeing me for that. so thank you. itβs so liberating, and so incredible.
btw, music really is coming soon. and thatβs not in a promo kinda way. all the details are being worked out and songs will arrive. and I really hope you like them. i really like them. but okay, im ranting now. Iβve probably been ranting. excuse my terrible writing btw. Love to all of you everywhere all the time. Iβm going to continue sitting on this flight to Istanbul turkey rn.
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TΓΌrkiye loooved you come back againnn
