˚₊‧ ( 𝓚 ) 𝒀𝑶𝑼, 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑮𝑨𝑹𝑫𝑬𝑵 & 𝑻𝑯𝑬 𝑮𝑹𝑨𝑽𝑬 a private & highly selective rp blog for koschei the deathless from slavic folklore. portrayal is not canon-specific, but set within its own fabled universe drawing influences from slavic cosmologies, turkic mythos, and fairytales as collected by andrew lang and alexander afanasyev. | crowned by caliope ( 30 , she / her, pst ) est. 2020
studying . . . the slave who flew too close to the sun & the dragon who swallowed it, the devil in the garden, opening forbidden doors, the ugly truth behind the fairytale, escaping death but never the hunger, the demonization of magic & paganism, and the endless cycles of love and war | also found at @lebedevya
𝒐𝒏𝒆. you know the drill by now, no meanies, no god-modding, tag your spicy images etc. i'm limiting this blog to a handful of mutuals and long time friends until i get back to an active pace. will be very slow to reply to threads and dms until then, but please don't take the delay as a lack of interest ! i'm working with very short bursts of free time and poor time management skills here :') as a general rule, you can expect me to be most active on early week days.
𝒕𝒘𝒐. muses from the historical fiction space are super welcome, but as a personal preference i will not interact with muses based on real life historical figures. generally, i'd also prefer to plot crossovers or aus that allow for koschei's fantasy universe to be recognized. it's where i'd feel most comfortable exploring his themes, so really appreciate working with me on this ♡
𝒕𝒉𝒓𝒆𝒆. mature content will be present, so i will not be interacting with anyone under the age of 21. there are lots of themes of war, violence, and romance here, but i will be sure to tag anything particularly triggering or suggestive as ___ tw. if i miss one of your triggers pls lmk. for me, no need to tag anything except your us.fw/ns.f.w
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hi !! hello !! unnecessary yapfest and meta that i'll tidy up at some point, but the classicist in me decided to lock tf in for an ancient myth verse and also i just find this rabbit hole sooooo interesting and potentially relevant to buyan's (and viy's) primordial lore !! might have to do a part ii about koschei's maternal roots in an ancient context, but first focusing on his paternal roots, i think the closest equivalent would be the cimmerians. historically, they were indo-european horse archers from the late-bronze age and iron age who occupied the sea of azov region and spread towards the anatolian region. they were later displaced by the scythians and would be considered one of many ancient ancestors of the crimean tatars today. however, in greco-roman epics and poems, the cimmerians were mythologized as a society living right at the border of the underworld. . . you know, like the country of death !! look how gothic and gloomy homer gets when he describes them in the odyssey:
we reached the limits of deep-flowing ocean, where the cimmerians live and have their city. their land is covered up in mist and cloud; the shining sun god never looks on them with his bright beams— not when he rises up into the starry sky, nor when he turns back from the heavens to earth. destructive night blankets the world for all poor mortals there.
drawing inspiration from this, there were a few other poets who mythologized the cimmerians in a similar manner, like when ovid sets their land as bordering the chthonic house of hypnos in metamorphosis:
near the cimmerians there's a deep-set cave inside a hollowed peak, the hearth and home of sluggish sleep. phoebus' rays can't reach it— not when he rises, reaches noon, or sets. the ground sprouts misty clouds and dusky gloom. no sleepless rooster sings to wake aurora. no anxious dogs nor geese [...] no beasts, no flocks, no branches shaken by the wind, no cries of human voices echo through it.
or the spookiest and most relevant culmination of the mythos from valerius flaccus in his version of the argonautica. after the argonauts killed their host (king cyzius of the doliones) they receive advice from mopsus (a seer within their crew) on how to cleanse themselves of the miasma (greek concept of "blood guilt" or spiritual pollution) by performing a chthonic mystery that comes from the land of the cimmerians. he says:
known long since to the unforgetting seer (mopsus) there lies, where afar the land slopes down to silence and stygian night, the abode of the cimmerians, a region that the olympians know not (suggesting it's out of their jurisdiction), a land dark and desolate gloom, where the sun never drives his flaming car and jupiter sends not the star-appointed seasons [...]
below is a cavern and the winding way of the spirits and ocean's headlong crash, waste stretches of black dread and after long silences sudden cries. here celaeneus (a name meaning "the dark one" or "murky one" -- possibly an epithet describing hades? although not so likely given later context), sitting sable-shrouded and sword in hand, cleanses the innocent from their error and remitting their fault unwinds a spell to appease the angry shades. he is who taught me what lustrations (cleansing rituals) should be made to the slain. he of his good pleasure opened the earth to erebus below (allowed others to convene with the dead/necromancy).
when therefore the orient sets the crimson seas aflame (at sunset), do thou summon thy comrades to the sacrifice and bring two steers to the mighty gods; for me were it wrong meanwhile to approach your gathering, until i spend the night in cleansing prayers (meaning mospus himself can't join them or engage in the ritual yet until he spiritually protects himself).
flaccus then describes what these mystery rites entail, which i won't get into, but the line that stands out most to me would be "low alters he (mospus) sets up around to gods with unknown names". again, that suggests flaccus is introducing a version of an underworld authority and death rite that's outside the greco-roman religious norm. really emphasizing the point that jason is entering an entirely foreign place. makes sense considering the black sea region he's headed towards is treated as the furtherest point of the known anicent world (to the greeks) and the cimmerians historically didn't worship that pantheon. we have no record of their religion, but it's very likely they practiced something that more closely resembled indo-iranian animist traditions -- which pre-date the greco-roman pantheon and carried on among nomad societies of the region through medieval times. the mythologization of their land as a misty underworld also makes sense considering:
1) the pontic-caspian steppe region during the bronze/iron age was probably more humid and foggy than it is today (or even during the medieval period); and
2) nomads from this age lived very mobile and impermanent lives. they didn't leave much behind in terms of monuments, written histories, or religious texts for us to parse through aside from their burials !!! which consisted of pretty elaborate crypts and kurgans (one example being a 9th cent. BCE kurgan built of stone and larchwood containing 70 chambers for 15 humans and 160 horses) showing how death rites were just as important to them as mobility !!
what's the point of sharing all this? i'm not quite sure yet. i'm still cooking his ancient myth verse here, but maybe something about an icarian ivan growing up in a land without sun and wanting to reach the place where the sun first rises (ancient taurica)?? or maybe he was already raised there and it's more his father who travels back and forth between taurica and cimmeria — which might not be what the greeks think it is?? idk it's just interesting how even in ancient times the west mythologized the black sea as a liminal land full of mysteries and sorcery and i think it might be worth giving that perspective a bit more depth and nuance too.
i also think this is all reallyyyyy good food for some of buyan's primordial lore (more so once i get into his maternal/tauric side of this) but especially so for viy's country of death!! i'd consider it an underworld in its own right, definitely different and apart from the greek one. although, i'll probably still incorporate some of these cimmerian myths, because their characterization of the steppe is pretty on par with the gloomy spookiness that baba yaga's tales and viy's horror novella attaches to it !!
𝐌𝐨𝐧𝐝𝐚𝐲, 𝐎𝐜𝐭𝐨𝐛𝐞𝐫 𝟐𝟕, 𝟐𝟎𝟎𝟖. It's been two days since Tatia's, which means two-whole days' worth of photographs, videos, and uncordial campus commentary, with more yet to come, have been pickled for safekeeping on the internet, each pixel a crystal of salt, each hot take like sour vinegar, soaking in a brine that will only get more pungent with time. In just two days, Marzanna Seitbekova had begun living a rather different life. And in just two days, her sense of what a dollar was worth had also shifted quite considerably -- forty-eight hours and some quarter-life crisising later, and an $1,900 flight from Chicago to Frankfurt, then Frankfurt to Almaty didn't seem all that expensive anymore.
There's still time left to decide.
At least the drive up to the house was a peaceful thirty minutes; the stars are collecting in the sky like silverlight beetles, spying on her, rumoring, in a way she didn't quite mind. No music plays. No people are tittering. There's just the coolness and sound of wind gentling in from the window rolled down, and its even rustling upon a little pink paper; directions to the farm that Inna had given her, drawn, of course, in unimpeachable, old-money cursive, and ink as blue as swan lake.
The house itself had seen better days, though the bones of it are strong, not constructed from dreams and catalogue paper the way most houses are these days. They make dollhouses for little girls shaped like this one, Marzanna thinks, a pleasant thought she hopes might soothe the tickling beneath her skin when she walks the path up to the creaking stairs, and raps her cold knuckles on the paint peeling off the door.
It doesn't.
❝ You looking for someone? ❞ A voice calls from behind.
Marzanna turns. A man stands at the base of the stairs. Older, but not enough that age had chipped away at his vocal cords. He's covered in grease and sweat, and is weighed down by the pair of tin pails he's clutching. They bang against his shins.
She tucks a piece of hair behind her ear. ❝ Hello, ahm. Is . . . there an Ivan that lives here? ❞
He swallows a huuuuge circle of breath. Shouts at the top of his lungs:
❝ BARB ! ! ! ❞ ( She blinks. ) ❝ SOME GIRL'S HERE. LOOKING FOR YOUR KID. ❞ He almost chokes on his own bellow. But doesn't! ❝ She'll be with you shortly . . . ❞ He pauses. Then looks her up and down, seeming to want to pry apart every bit and piece of her DNA. ❝ . . . Where'd you say you were from? ❞
❝ I never . . . Kazakhstan. ❞
❝ Oh yeah, I know the place. ❞
❝ Do you? ❞
❝ Sure. Middle East. ❞
❝ . . . Correct. ❞
❝ That's why I said it! But. ❞ He squints. ❝ I just gotta ask. How come you don't sound, you know, like -- ❞
❝ Kidnapped by wolves at an early age. Then raised in Siberia. ❞
from the depths of the kitchen, the scent of burgoo and barbara's hoarse voice carries over through a tangle-webbed screen. ❛❛ the fuck are you talking about, tommy? i don't sell goats ! ❜❜ had to be the only sort of kid he'd be referring to, if the elderly woman could hardly remember anything crawling out of her womb from the latest century. a tap, tap, tap of her wooden spoon and she mutters for them to hold their horses while she takes her sweet, simmering time to come greet the stranger at her door. she opens the screen an arm's length, head craning and squiggly-lined eyes squinting, green as a cat's. quite sure she didn't recognize the young girl— until it dawns on her.
❛❛ aaah, i get it, ❜❜ the crone drawls, her dentured smile stretching wider than a sickle, folding every wrinkle of amusement she's collected all these years. tonight she'd be sure to tack on one more. ❛❛ you looking for the dancin' beanstalk boy? sorry baby, he's not here right now. ❜❜ how the girl wilts to hear as much is well-noted. and though nana barbara can't be quite sure, the fact she's the first pretty thing to come sniffing this close to home must mean she was the girl ivan had gotten himself beaten blue over. as much as she neglects to admit it, she did care about that cave cricket like her own kid; and with nothing better to do than to wait on her stew, it sounded about time pry into his business. ❛❛ — tell you what though; why don't you come inside? doubt he'll be long, but we can consult the tarot about it to be sure. ❜❜
good mornoon and happy munday !!! went to jimothy's city proclamation yesterday and there was an art contest that followed !! some of my personal favs under the cut 💀
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just found about garden follies and how the wealthy would hire people to live in these follies as ornamental hermits just for the whimsy and conversation starters smh so ridiculous
𓆩 ♔ 𓆪 semi-hiatus from july 20 to july 27 ! i'm traveling out of town to see an evanescence concert with my sister and then also having a friend fly in to spend the weekend with me, so won't have much time for writing until next monday. howeverrrrr, in the meanwhile i'm still reaching out and dming folks who liked my plotting call !!
rejection was normal. rejection was real. an ordinary staple in every day life. yet james felt the shame of it heat his throat anyway, his nape, his temples, a light pink flush creeping across porcelain skin. so spoiled was romeo on the acceptance of others that he did not expect koschei's distaste. not really, anyway. somewhere in his mind he'd entertained possible doubt, a hint of weariness or mistrust he could smooth with a blink and a well-meaning smile. but never this. james's hand remained extended for just a few beats longer, brows knitting like his body hadn't caught up to the reality of the scene just yet. by the time koschei trailed off, though, he lowered it, rubbed it on his coat front, smoothing fabric, brushing away failure and letting his palms sink comfort in the pockets of his trench.
then he tried to speak again, dimmer this time though no less stubborn. his mouth tauter, his shoulders stiffer. defiance glimmered there in his grey eyes, a hint of the real personality that lurked beneath a veneer of manners and private schoolboy charm. (he both hated and liked koschei's perceived immunity, it was a jolt to his carefully crafted expectations.)
❛ you— ❜ a subtle inhale. (easy now, james. you are going off script, but control is still well within your grasp.) ❛ you misunderstand. i'm not in charge of anything, and we're not at war, good lord. we're academics... most of us, anyway. ❜ a fact he'd come to forget in the bloody years that followed. ❛ forget the others. i speak for only myself when i say i don't want to be lumped with him. richard's a dickhead, an anomaly in our department, and you're already looking at me like i'm bad, too. is it any wonder i felt the need to plead my case? ❜ he was a fool to expect an answer to a rhetorical. ❛ ... i'm not fucking off. ❜
koschei hadn't bothered to wait on a reaction to get on with his trek to the studio— until the small note of james' enragement reers its ugly head, cuing him to stop. spin back on the sharp pivot of a heel. ❛❛ 'you', what ? ❜❜ he eggs, teeth bared and eyes narrowed; half-amused and far more curious to see how mr. congeniality's wish for world peace might finally come to a crumble in front of him. ❛❛ academics— ❜❜ he couldn't help laugh at that, ending the bout with a piteous humph while james continues to drawl on. the boy really is a lost little pup, isn't he? broadwater, illinois was a far cry from yale or princeton or wherever else his oh-so-supportive and oh-so-securely-invested parents must have graduated from, to let their son go on believing this was anything akin to the academic's path.
here were creatives. madmen. alchemists, even. and their struggle to turn a dream into gold ( or a truly immortal legacy ) was about as terrible and raw and cut-throat as any other war. most dreams were guaranteed not to survive it. it's why the conservatory culls the weak and mediocre far before they even reach their senior years. so why bother to make friends? or fear to make an unsolicited enemy or two when it was the stinging but most tangible proof of genius?
koschei remembers sitting through the flickers of james' own, when lebedeva had dragged him to see hamlet in support of a friend; even as a five-minute fool, preening for royal favor, there wasn't a single seat in that audience that hadn't been endeared to him. he'd loathe to admit himself briefly included. even now, immeasurably annoyed as he'd been, it was still a deliberate effort not to fall prey to james' well-spun charms.
❛❛ well. if it's all the same, i would much rather just not look at you at all. ❜❜ it was about as close to a compromise as they'd get, it seemed. ❛❛ either of you. you're both dickheads. ❜❜ now, might tybalt actually make it to his rehearsal? apparently not. hardly making it two steps before he turns to a dragging backpedal, tongue swelling for just one last bite at that grating savior's complex. ❛❛ — him for being inhumanly insufferable, and you for being a performative bore ! ❜❜
⊹ , there is no room for misgivings, no soft place to land, or net to break her fall. ambition had made her reckless enough already. if she had been anyone else there would have been no way to claw herself out from the bottom. a torn acl stealing not only her pride but years for blood, sweat, and tears. it was a grief she nearly hadn't been able to recover from, mourning a success that never quite met its fruition. this was why she could barely stand the sight of him, the ballerino's presence alone plucking at her past. while the stage dressing was no comparison, the ambition matched only by the elegance of dance was enough to remind her of her days upon the ice. all the reckless ease he moved with, gliding through the world with the firm belief of invulnerability.
how she would bite, tear, and scratch at the sky to even taste that divine intention once more ( a surety in one's purpose ) she would have to settle for whatever semblance of it she could steal from claiming his body for her own. a mutual exploitation although what he receives from her is the promise of denial rather than any meaning in her bones. perhaps, a problem to be solved or another woman to be ruined but he is far too late to receive such an honor with the musician. he can only map out the remnants of the wreckage with his too-eager hands. the raised skin of scar tissue he grazes as his hands move up from her calves to her thighs. underneath her he is all lean muscle and demanding compulsion. he could have here yet he is choosing to yield to her whims.
❛ or desperation more like… ❜ which smells like sweat, the muggy arrival of arousal. bent over his reclining form, the thin strap of her dress tumbles down her shoulder. while she may speak in harsh indifference her chest begins to heave and the peaks of her breasts are no mere outline against the thin satin of her dress. fingers becoming curious, finding the buttons down his shirt and tugging them free one by one. golden skin and golden hair there should be no coldness to him but his eyes are shards of ice that betray his true nature. they reveal the cruel creature beneath the very man who disrobed and became more himself under the spotlight each evening. ❛ don't be so easy for me, kostya. aren't you supposed to be playing the villain this season — just like every season before. ❜ a pursuit that was far too willing, the wanton path of his hands, nails scrap along his ribs as she frees him from the trappings of the forced formality of this whole affair. ❛ yet the altruism practically seeps out of you, can't say the same for myself. ❜ guiding their hips together into a blissful collision, the damp seeping through lace which he didn't get the satisfaction of feeling directly just yet.
❛ convince me you'll make it worth my while. from where i'm sitting it doesn't seem like you'll last very long. ❜ between the two of them reaching for release was just as cerebral as it was physical. if the countless midnight phone calls were a testament to anything it was the way they could compel one another by voice alone. still, he is too greedy for his own good, his chin inclining begging for a sweetness she could part with. even in the throes of her indecency she had her glacial pride. pressing the pad of her thumb to his lips, hot breath careen across her skin. ❛ uh, uh, no kissing, remember what we agreed to. ❜ parting his mouth, pressing into his tongue. she grins at the sudden pliancy but welcomes the bite that may come from placing herself between his teeth.
no fanfare, no strings, no rules — the arrangement should be easy enough for two virtuosos to orchestrate on the sly. until the rules that weave themselves in — as they always do — only serve to keep her at an reachable distance. koschei should be glad of it. he'd sought an ice queen from the pit specifically to denounce himself from the unscripted dramas of the stage. or so he claimed. ambitious to a fault and caring more about the one eye that refuses to look at him than the hundreds who do, koschei had designed what he could to capture zoya's rapt attention. it's the oldest dance that serves the trick; and he couldn't say he minds it at all: being wanted by her in ways no one else knew about.
as long as no one else compares. ( as long as she keeps coming back. )
❛❛ altruism. is that what we're calling it? ❜❜ as if he'd even be here tonight if his own scholarship weren't on the line. or that he hadn't found himself cast in an underdog's position enough times to know the idea of this little torture ritual had been seeping from her head to the root all night. taunting and elusive as she seems, they're both where they want to be: poised in the balancing act between a fawn for the taking and a snake in the grass. he fawns just a bit longer. taken by how artful the flutist's fingers were with his undressing. her scratches over the deep-breathing drum of his torso have him suck in a sharp breath, loosened into a self-satisfied hum. ❛❛ you haven't heard then: i'll have to be a blue bird this season. rescuing maidens from the pasha. ever so eager to please a friend. ❜❜
his slow but inexorable growth ( not much of character just yet ) arches another teasing dig of unmet bodies. maybe the desperation does point to his untimely end. he knows she'd never let him live it down if it did. even if she conspired it over a lengthy week of late night calls and a dress tailor-made to rendering him a dribbling mess. but maybe more so, she underestimates the villain's flair for taking conspirators down with him. ❛❛ so what — are we trying to be here all night ? ❜❜ the intrusive press of her thumb against his lips and tongue serve a fine answer. there's the faintest taste of powdered sugar that he sweeps from the soft pad. not much, but enough to galvanize his mouth to water. his mind to soak further into the pits of all hungers. he bites her finger, only hard enough to keep her wrist in place, her hand for the taking.
❛❛ да, i remember, ❜❜ he mutters, lips left derelict yet struggling to remain vexed at the sight of that rare, nefarious grin of hers. ❛❛ just like you agreed to keep the claws to yourself. but i'm sure we'll forget that eventually, too. ❜❜ for now at least, the one hand he's overtaken is forced to hold still and interlocked with him behind her back. the grapple that ensues between them grows hotter, more possessive, but not nearly enough. he has to keep prodding and testing the bounds of her affection. met with the turn of her cheek once more, however, the pouting prince tears himself back to the bench with a dragged out sigh. nearly growling: ❛❛ where's the harm in kissing me, zoya ? you think i steal hearts from the mouth ? never seen one beat there before. ❜❜
eyes downcast and deviled beyond masking, the serpent finally comes to plot and rove over her an indulgent moment. nudges his way first to the underside of her chin. ❛❛ maybe here. ❜❜ he says, kisses planted over the pulse of her throat, while a finger deftly hooks and drags the strap of her dress even further down the slope of her arm. from there he could slither over the perfumed bridge of her sternum. to lavish the inner groove of her bare breast and the beat that brews a storm just beneath it. ❛❛ or here, ❜❜ his breath rakes. a detour of sorts, as lechery and magnanimity both bid him to take a shivered swell of flesh into the hearth of his mouth. famished for and then lost the music she makes, his hand has to find the way again. to the pulse at the crevice of her inner thigh. he plucks and pulls the damp lace curtain aside, and like a river stone lost in silt, in the dark he offers his fingers for her pleasure to better move through. ❛❛ or — right there. ❜❜
sharing a bed forced proximity trope except the staff did their job setting up twin beds and koschei's still just like "move over. little spoon coming through"
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𓆩 ♔ 𓆪 consider this a plotting call ! feel free to give a like if you want to get some ideas going, but before you dooo i just kindly ask that you take a gander at his story arcs page. i've already laid out a bunch of plot ideas there! more so putting feelers out to see if anything piques interest! will start sliding in the dms later this weekend!
never making a carrd in my life ever again, but there you go!! everything you need to know about this freak and his fairytale epic in the cleanest way i could do it !! some things you might already recognize, but in his dossier i included a pre-history about his parents and went full throttle with breaking down all his story arcs. there are many many plot ideas sprinkled in between there, so if you read nothing else please check out that page!! big shoutout to my editor and loml @laperlina for holding my hand through this! it probably never would have gotten done otherwise 💀
never making a carrd in my life ever again, but there you go!! everything you need to know about this freak and his fairytale epic in the cleanest way i could do it !! some things you might already recognize, but in his dossier i included a pre-history about his parents and went full throttle with breaking down all his story arcs. there are many many plot ideas sprinkled in between there, so if you read nothing else please check out that page!! big shoutout to my editor and loml @laperlina for holding my hand through this! it probably never would have gotten done otherwise 💀
me, locking tf in on this carrd !! sorry it's taking me so long, but it's for our own good!! i've got six years worth of dots and plots i'm finally jotting down, but in the end you'll get pretty much all the details of his story (ivan days included) and a clean breakdown of his world conflict, as well as all the plot hooks that we can play around with so i no longer have yap a storm in your dms !!
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𝒯𝒉𝒆𝒓𝒆 𝒊𝒔 𝒔𝒂𝒍𝒕 𝒕𝒉𝒂𝒕 𝒃𝒂𝒓𝒃𝒔 𝒕𝒉𝒆 𝒂𝒊𝒓; dense, pricklous crystals the color of white, or silver, or even nothing at all in the eyes of a human. But to a perisi, those creatures made from perfume and dew and light thrice bounced from jewels, the air looks much like a shattered rainbow-- a kaleidoscope they'd entered of broken opals and shimmering confusions to which only those truly tethered to the water may attune. And though Adella had so long ago been cut from that ligature that binds together all folks of the Sea, it is not so easy to forget the shores that first bore you. It is not so easy to forget your home.
For once, she obeys Koschei, if only because the tessellated micas that made up the scales along her joints shiver upwards. Between his first words and the last sweet kiss of his breathing upon her brow, she sifts her reaching fingers through the air, knowing that these clusters of fresh, saline pinks and cyans, so unlike the parched and ugly grains found high in the towers of the Chernosvyat, can only mean one thing. And her heart, in a defiant act of mutiny, climbs up her throat-- to demand at last its share over her senses.
Sands that shade of Caspian black, a sea glade of grown lavenders, waters braided with brack; forgetting both herself and the very notion of speech altogether, eyes gone fluttering and wide, she wriggles like a taffy newt out of his grasp, perhaps too dizzy to notice that familiar hex of shards upon her toes when she stands on her own. She looks back at him just once, but it is a very long once, an afraid and true and Marzanna-named once, and then darts ahead.
It lasts a while, all her playing. All her testing of the might of the Tsar's enchantments between her curious fingers, and the limits of her own nature for prying very deeply into things. Several times did she chase and try to catch the shadows as though they were fireflies, sipped from the flowers so nurtured by the mysterious Black Sea, and many, many times did she feel among the waters the way a sailor clutches his maid after a lonely and long voyage. So full of frenzy and distraction was she that, when tiredness at last began to take its place inside of her, she had forgotten to discard the greater portion of her feeling into the wind; a routine that she nearly never neglected.
Time passes. Then, like a ribbon of falling silk, she drifts slowly into the magicked edge of the shore, sitting among lapping foams and ghost crabs that wander and click sweetly by the hem of her wet dress. And when Koschei takes his equal place beside her, he cannot see her face-- she is hiding it away in the safety of her palms.
❝ Why...? Why did you... ❞ It is enough that her voice cannot manage to unquiver itself; the state of her eyes and mouth and whatever it is that stands in place of a soul cannot be known too. ❝ I don't understand. ❞
the balancing act of disarming a threat and courting a lover crumbles slowly, but so inevitably it's a wonder how either one of them hadn't seen this coming. she looks at him once — that rigid mountain of a man — and he nods a silent encouragement, promising to watch on should anything go wrong. as any other pillar of rock would, he shows how far he's melted over the kiss and crash of these ebbing encounters only after she parts from him. when at her back, he could look at her a fool. an ivan-named fool. it all seems mystifying to him too: the way she moves through the water, the way she gorges on scent, the way she enraptures herself in his illusions with more trust than he's ever been owed. but always, beneath the growing murmur of these frankest of feelings, there's a cowardly maggot of an idea that speaks from the cavity where the fullness of his heart should be.
it speaks of how easy it would be to leave his death untouched while the chance remains. ( — just a pinch of sea salt, that's all. in an instant, she would be boiled up in your cauldron. her skin no more than a fragrant froth. her bones turned into a suite of the rarest jewels ) . . . even if he'd been desperate enough, there was no such chance. for whatever the reason, koschei had been deliberate in his escorting her here with his pockets emptied of treachery. convincing himself that seeing her vanquished rather than conquered would be too costly for the war effort. that he still had control over himself and the situation. see how serenely she drifts back to the bank? at last perfectly subdued and content, he thinks. no sooner does he inch toward her than he finds himself sorely mistaken.
❛❛ why are you weeping ? stop it, ❜❜ he says — infected by the sudden burst of adella's overwhelm, though hardly in a position to demand a thing, with his being compelled to his knees over it. she fails to abide him, so his long fingers shuck past the shell of her hands. to cradle and caress her raw pearl of a face. ❛❛ adelinka . . . i do not wish to sew your eyes shut, but i will; your tears are too precious to waste over cantrips. ❜❜ terribly selfish as he could have been, there were men who would have done the unthinkable for just a drop of her sorrow; and try as he may to cheapen his gestures, this at least— the sharp discomforts that remain intolerant to her anguish, the care with which he kisses her lids to staunch her tears — was a very real and very weighty thing.
he contends with it for only a strand of a moment further, trying to understand the meaning of all this for himself so that he might get the better hold of it. all could have been understood and conveyed to her with three mad little words, but stubbornly he settles back to his most practical though no less honest answer. ❛❛ it was an awful thing that was done to you. an awful thing to be forced out of your home. i know buyan might not ever be the same, but where i can, i make it my duty to make it something better. for you — as much as any other subject, i suppose. ❜❜