Iqra khan

Sometimes I wake up and it already feels like I’ve lost a fight I didn’t even start. My bones ache, my thoughts are heavy, and I carry this invisible weight that no one else seems to see. And every time I ask myself, “Am I happy?” it just breaks me a little more. Because the truth is, I dont even know what happiness looks like anymore.

Maybe its not meant for everyone, maybe some of us are just built to endure, to keep going quietly, to find small bits of peace in the middle of chaos. I see those smiling faces on screens, people who seem so light, so free… but in real life, it’s never that simple. Most of us are just trying to survive the storm and still look human doing it.

And so, I whisper to myself

That’s the rhythm of growth. The ebb and flow. The beauty in being human.

Because Tumblr doesn’t ask me to be okay.

It doesn’t expect me to be loud, perfect, or productive.

It just... lets me feel. Quietly. Messily. Honestly.

This is the only corner of the internet where I can open my chest,

spill everything I’ve been carrying,

and not be told to "get over it."

So yeah, Im back.

Not because everything is fine,

Its been 9 months since we last talked, and I've been doing my best to keep you out of my mind. But today something unexpected happened. I was going about my day when a song started playing on someone else's phone. It wasn't even our favorite song, and you didn't suggest it to me. Yet as the lyrics unfolded, something clicked deep within me.

The song had a line that went like this: Kuch log ek roz jo bichar jate hai, wo hazaron ke aane se milte nhi. Those words struck a chord within me, and suddenly, I found myself overwhelmed with a flood of memories and emotions. I couldn't help but miss you so much in that moment.

It's funny how certain things, even unrelated to us directly, can trigger such strong emotions and bring back memories of the beautiful bond we shared. I guess it's a testament to the impact you've had on my life, my dear friend. It's moments like these that make me realize how much I truly cherish our friendship and the countless memories we've created together.