SHE'S GOT A WAYâ SHE GOT AWAY.
SYNOPSIS scaramouche never doubted that you would leave him. you promised him that you would stay and he wanted to trust that. but late at night, he'd lay awake wondering if you were being honest.
PAIRINGS scaramouche x gn!reader
WARNINGS angst, scara's insecure but we knew that
the clock reads 2:43 am and despite scaramouche's drowsiness, he's still awake.
you had been asleep for a while now, having passed out after drinking multiple bottles of soju with him in competition. obviously, he won. though, you weren't too far behind.
scaramouche thinks it's the liquor, blaming the toxins for the way his hands are shaking and how he's desperately clinging to your sleeping form as if you'd run and leave him behind.
he was never one to explain his thoughts outloud, preferring to appear unbothered and mask his vulnerabilities. however, being around you for hours on end has made him soft.
he fears his walls would crumble at the feeling of your embrace and once you see how he truly is... why, then you'd surely leave him. he never thought himself to be a loving boyfriend. scaramouche viewed himself as a monster, as someone incapable of loving and being loved.
although, you've expressed your love for him repeatedly, he's always wondered whether or not it was the truth. if that, you had this false idea of him and that it was never truly him that you loved but someone else. someone that wasn't him.
his eyes shut tight before he buried his face into the crook of your neck. he wanted to believe you, he wanted to believe the sweet words that would always come out of your pretty lips.
but his anxiety persisted and with shaky hands, he clung to you even tighter, praying to any god out there to take these feelings away, to never burden you any longer with his insecurities.