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I didn't want to keep texting you but I feel like I need to get some things off of my chest. I am missing you terribly. So bad that it feels like there is a massive hole in my chest. There's a constant ache. An ache for you. It hurts to know that you don't even miss me. Not in the slightest. But then again why would you miss me when I am nothing to you. Those words haunt me every night. All I want to do is help you, literally any way I can. Every way I can. I care for you massively and when you are down, so am I. I just can't help but care for you. Knowing you are feeling down and stressed is like a stab in the heart. You have the best smile, it lights up my whole world. Your smile to me is contagious, I instantly smile when you smile. In fact I instantly smile when I see you. If I'm not facially expressing that I'm smiling, my heart is smiling and jumping for joy just for you. And that's even when I hear your name or see it written down. You have such an effect on me it's crazy. Your absence truly shows in my actions and behaviour. I'm a lost puppy without you. It's like I can't function properly. I'm empty. When you leave, you take my life and soul with you. I'm lifeless like a zombie. You are constantly on my mind. You are all I think about. There's not a second that goes past where I don't think of you. I wonder if you're okay, if you've eaten, if you're having fun and I have the best flashback of memories, they keep me sane when I am stressing for whatever reason. I miss eating with you. I don't enjoy my food without you. I miss spending all my time with you. Our times spent together were the best times of my entire life. And still id do anything just to spend quality time with you. The whole time with you I feel unstoppable, you make me feel myself. You fill me right up with confident which I have always lacked. You've made me a better person and you always bring out the best in me. You say I'm always moody but it's hard keeping in so many feelings when all I want to do is hold you. When I hold you there is an instant lift in my body. I feel full of life. My heart is at home with you. You are my home. And I have never felt more comfortable with another person in my life. And that includes family. My life has come to a complete stop. I have never felt more alone in my life. I'm broken but still, still after all the hurt I still carry on. And you know what keeps me going? You. I guess it's because my love for you is greater than anything in this universe. iloveyou. And I'd still climb to the tallest point on this earth and shout it out. We are all human. We all have a heart and other organs which work exactly the same. And we all have feelings and this is just a fraction of my feelings. You're special to me and you always will be.