I am a country girl!

It is so funny how someone who was your friend yesterday will turn into a backstabbing girl. Ug! Life sucks sometimes.

Okay, so today I was just sitting there wondering how to get him to like me and how to get him to talk to me, but I try to talk to him I never get a response. God, he drives me crazy, the way he talks, and the way he walks. He reminds me of me and my brother. Love forever.

I am the only one out there who thinks that you can tell a persons mood through their eyes. Only true friends see the hurt in my eyes yet. I have been hurting for a while now and none of my friends see. I gets me to wondering how life would be like if everybody was completely honest. Told everybody how we feel in some ways that would be nice. In others it would be awful. I couldn't always tell the truth because I would get punched a lot if I did. Sometimes the things I think affend a lot of people. Okay, so a lot of the things I think would affend people. Also, my thoughts aren't always rated PG. So, no I don't always tell the truth. Yes, I lie a lot sometimes, but I only do it if I feel the truth would hurt you or make things worse. My best friend, I have known her since I was born, we don't always tell each other the truth, no, but does that make our friendship, wait change that to sisterhood, any less real. I don't think. Yes, people deserve the truth, but being the one to tell them I couldn't handle that.

Hey yall. I know I just typed this long quote thing. But, I just wanted to say happy almost hump day.

It's funny because last year I did something funny. I was hanging out with my friends and we were playing tag with the guys and my friend to one of the guys hat. So, they started chasing her. She threw it to me and I caught it then they started chasing me so I threw the hat in the air and ran in the opposite direction. So, the boys and my friend and I got in a fight over it. Words were exchanged and things. So, later I felt bad because I liked these boys and so did my friend. So I said I was sorry and they forgave me, but my friend never that she was sorry so, today they were being a little rude to her and a little funny but, so I think that they won't stop teasing her til' she apologizes. Now, about the hat. They picked it up and said you never mess with a mans hat. I said well that works out cause neither of you are men yet. So, then they both almost had a heart attack because there was a stain on it. Later that day they said we owed him a new hat. So, I got pissed and said you know what if you want a new hat so bad go buy. Then, I felt bad because I really liked hanging out with them. We always had fun. So, when I was on the bus and they were at a basketball game. I called them and the guy who's hat we took and dropped picked up and he said, "Well, hi Cinnamon." By the way I am cinnamon. It's a nickname. So, I explained why I was pissed and he forgave me, but my friend never did. She never said sorry. So, a year later they he still wants the hat. I told him if he's lucky he might get one. It's funny how one little apology can fix a big problem not matter the size.

Is it weird that I love someone I can't have. Do you know how hard it is to sit there and smile like I don't care, but I do. I sit their and wonder how it would be if he were mine. I love someone I can't have I can't be the only one. There has to be other people who feel this way too. He shares everything with me and I share everything with him. I wonder if we could talk like this if we were together. Sometimes with him I open up with him more than I open up with my best friends. I mean he is... amazing, cute adorable, nice, funny, and weird. When I am with him I just can't look away from his eyes. This eyes drive me insane, I am in total and uterly in love with him and his adorable eyes.