ephemeral

There's a pain in me that will not be quiet.

One day I will rip these bars from my windows and fall into the wide open sky

maybe if I fall

I wonder why you're still there

I scream until my voice cracks Like an egg thrown against the wall Splashing like blood After skin is torn Ripped to pieces Crumbling to the floor Stumbling over broken bits Here and there Crying Tears, an endless stream Like rain drumming against the window Full of bitterness On which I choke And my tongue stumbles

Strange How I lived my whole life up until now And you, stranger, Who might be part of my life from now on, A friend, a lover…. You You don’t know yesterday’s troubled me You meet me as the one I am now Today’s me Because to you my yesterday’s me Is a secret

Today, sadness weighs so heavy I don’t know how to carry myself through the day

It's 1 am and I am a little sad.

I don’t know how to tell you what it’s like to be in my head what never-ending sadness feels like. You’d have to dig your fingers deep into my skin And draw blood to get a taste of it