crush suggestions

oh to be a 19th century student roaming oxford's halls with a poofy victorian shirt in the middle of the night, holding old books in my hands that are filled with my notes in the margins and secret poetry i wrote between the pages because i'm on my way to leave them under a willow tree for the student i'm having a secret passionate homoerotic love affair with who's now gazing upon me from a tower window as i make my way to the garden,,,,,,

i cannot even begin to emphasize how romantic signing off letters or postcards with “always yours” is. like... no one ever knows if they would be together forever. we love someone with the knowledge that they might not be in our lives in the future. we know we could fall apart. we still write “always yours”, because we mean to say, “hey, i know you might not be in my life forever, but you will have a part of me still. a part of me will be always yours to keep.” i need a moment