my random reality

im sorry for stealing a good 6years from you. im sorry you were part of my made up, selfish world. sorry for breaking your heart with all the lies-over and over..im sorry i left you hanging. my conscience ate all of me i did not know how to save you from the pseudo world i have created. im sorry i just left. 

ive carried the burden-up to this day. knowing ive scarred someone so naive and precious. i prayed relentlessly for you to be okay and hopefully find that person who will pick u up and mend you. iv always wanted you to be happy. you deserve to be happy.

your love has been my standards. youve set the bar way too high. thank you for making my teenage year wonderful. thank you for the unconditional love.

i am sending you my best wishes. congratulations. may you have a blissful marriage and a wonderful family. funny how you ended up with that familiar last name :) 

 you can forget me now. it was nice walking with you in this lifetime :)

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im forgiven

M.E.

i got reminded of you last 12/12. wouldve been 5yrs of knowing you if youre here.  i still remember the time you said “ youll never eat dinner alone” so last  thurs, i decided to eat bymyself in this ramen place. nothing fancy. but it would have been nice if you were with me. i ordered a different base this time and it was so good! first time ive consumed that much ramen! i had plans of letting the waiter know that i enjoyed my meal

Brave one, your sister did not mean to fail you. You have to understand she has her life and schedules. I know its sad and upsetting at the moment. But dont feel like you are less loved. One day, everything will come together. You will spend time with your family, reunited and all happy. It will be amazing..far beyond what you have imagined. So today, smile :)

Because youre about to meet new friends.. remeber, dont let anything steal your joy. Your God has eqquipped you and he is fighting your battles.