im trying to get into using this blog more frequently as it's pretty therapeutic to talk about my selfships, though im still not super active. im trying to interact with the community more, i struggle to do so consistently. i dont bite i promise.
i also use this blog to talk about my (suspected) npd and other issues, usually in the context of selfship or irl relationships bc i #need to not repress that shit. i wont bitch about specific people or doubles here but i may not always be the nicest. also if u give me attention i will love u 5ever.
nonsharing or selective with most of my f/os but im willing to interact with doubles as long as there are tags i can block
⚜️ F/O list || S/I list ⚜️
⚜️ Current F/Ocuses ⚜️
damien webb (007: first light), aurore cassel (cyberpunk 2077), el capitán (cyberpunk 2077), go-fish (venture bros)
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YOU'LL BE BLOCKED IF:
you're a bigot in any capacity (sexist, racist, homophobic, transphobic, xenophobic, etc.). includes israel supporters.
you're a queer exclusionist (i love mspec lesbians & gays, cistrans, fagdykes, etc.), all good-faith identities are welcome.
you bastardise the word woke ("am i too woke..." "not to be woke but..."), use it correctly.
you're ableist towards people with any personality disorder, including the fetished/demonised ones like npd, aspd and bpd (and not forgetting my hpd bros to complete the cluster #beastmode)
you selfship with minors as an adult; if you aged them up with you, they must look different, don't just make their child design taller.
you complain a lot. this ones personal, i just dont care, if ur acc is a soap opera im tuning out.
you call yourself a proshipper. i think both proship and anti are stupid labels that water down what is a very complex and nuanced topic to be clear, i just think ppl who obnoxiously call themselves proship are worse and also just really annoying.
you're a radqueer.
you're a loli/shotacon, a "map", or whatever other word pedos use.
you expect me to tag anything as "blank dont look" or something akin to that; im fine with needing things tagged but that specific format is insanely disrespectful to whoever youre reblogging from, use something subtler
TAGS
#myart — self explanatory, my art, art by me
#yappin — yappin
#[ship name] — anything related to a selfship, including posts that remind me of them or silly thing
#[blank]shipping — ship tag for content of a ship made either by me or for me, eg textposts, analysises, lore dumps or art. may be preceded by "ship;", but i forget to add it a lot so i've stopped bothering
#s/i; (s/i name) [fandom] — s/i tag
#f/o name — no fancy tags for f/os, just their most common name
and here are the tags i use for nsft content in case anyone wants to mute a specific kink/fetish
nsft, suggeative, violence, sadomaso, gore, fauxcest, cnc, drugging, drugs, alcohol, somno, breeding, preg, lactation/milk, piss/omo, vomit. more likely to be added.
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f/o telling you that you’re their favorite….. out of everyone, you’re the one they cherish most, the one they have the best time with, the one they trust most, admire most, want to protect most… holding your hands, looking at you with such love in their eyes…….
whats the opposite of mirror pronouns? bc i might be that at times? like if theres someone who uses he/him, i use any set of pronouns other than he/him for clarity? and if theres multiple ppl, i use whatever is not currently in use/is the least common? asking genuinely, i wanna know if theres already a term and im not getting results when i look it up
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Dead wife montage but it's all slow motion shots of your dead wife throwing grenades and doing backflips and oneshotting the enemy with their long range weapons
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also fun fact darling is one of my few s/is who is willing to bottom, and pretty consistently at thay :> i usually dont bc the concept of it irl makes me want to kms but im coming around to the concept in fiction/a selfship sense. more maybe to come as i get used to this but for now
it slargely bc i see him n damien as "they were both tops" so they usually have fights for dominance, assuming they have penetrative sex at all. damien is physically stronger than darling, but darling. well. likes to drug damien. in a fight she'll jab him with a gentle transquiliser to have her way, assuming damidn doesnt wrestle it away. its a huge tossup as to who will top any given day, id say 50/50
in less violent/rough sex though darling usually tops (for fauxcesty reasons, damien wants mommy to make him feel good <3 he can be a pillow princess as a treat)
darling and damien progressively having filthier and filthier sex... its starts out ur casual sort of nasty but they get kinkier and significantly less safe as time goes on, the bar doesnt stop raising and theyve never met someone else meet their less acceptable needs so thoroughly
pretty often, if they want a thrill but cant go all out, theyll fuck against nicholas' desk or just generally in his office, then they start doing it while the office is open, then while they fully know he's in the building. the risk of getting caught is tantilising, especially with that massive window where anyone can see into the office easily...
violence is also a big thing with them. damien is a sadomasochist and darling is just a sadist, and they spar pretty brutally ag times to let off steam, which often ends with them banging while bloody and bruised. and again, this often increases in intensity, they definitely fuck with broken bones or eye injuries.
mmm and while out on missions... well, those get pretty messy quickly and taking someone out tends to get the blood pumping. they like to take a nice victory lap right there and then <3
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me when the character has a uniquely fucked mindset. me when the character's fundamental views of how the world works lead to them being hurt and/or hurting others and not seeing the problem with this. me when the character is a little freak who does weird shit because their beliefs, inspired entirely by their environment, are fuckeddddd
[said with so much adoration in my heart it physically hurts] why would they say that. what do they mean by that. why would they do this❤️ [also said while knowing exactly why they'd do this and, in fact, having done hours of analysis into why they'd do this]
nicholas walking in on his son being a faggot in his office with his secretary and still having the gall to say theyre not together
damien n darling 100% do Not define their relationship though, they usually refer to each other as coworkers, friends, or maybe later down the line when theyre willing to say theyre "together" with no further specification, partner or boytoy.
i think they do get married later on as well (in an au where damien survives), not ling as they start being an "official" couple, but its just for the legal stuff and giving webb industries something to have a celebration aboutm its a very public affair given how influential webb is, all some news outlets talk about for a while. the duo def dont really gaf aboht marriage because nothing changes but a nice honeymoon and excuse to party hard for while is good enough
