I feel like Im gonna throw up, I feel terrible in every way. Had another nightmare last night. On the bright side I no longer fear death....I wish I could just start over and have things just be happy for once (Like that would ever happen) I'm just so tired of only encountering bad things every where I turn. Yes, one may tolerate a world of demons for an angel, but only if I could find another angel in a world of demons. In my nightmares it's always the same. I have to in some way or another save the world from some of the most terrifying creatures but always fail. I see all that I love die in front of me, I am helpless to save them. Soon, the entire world is lost including myself. Then comes the part where I spring up drenched in sweat, not able to tell where I am I begin to tear up in fear until I realize I'm in bed in my room. Before all of that, before I fall asleep, nothing feels real. I can see things, touch them, know they are there, but they just feel like they aren't there at the same time. It's hard to explain...