crybaby

men would really rather settle than have to self reflect and change their ways for the person they really want to be with and i think that is so crazy to me

dealing with a narcissist is no fun. and i had to really step back & look outward to see how much of a narc he was. the signs were all there, and i felt so stupid for missing all of them, until i realized that’s what they’re good at. they’re good at masking their real selves in order to lure their victims in. and that. is a very sad life to live.

4am; a day after my birthday and i’m sitting here on my floor, wondering why this girl he met two weeks ago is so much more important than the girl who’s been by his side for three years. we went through so fucking much and he really picked a girl he just met over working on our relationship. i get we had a lot of arguments, but it’s like he just flipped a switch. a month ago we were planning our future, and then all of a sudden he found someone else that fast? it just doesn’t make sense to me. no matter how much i replay it in my head, no matter how much i ask myself the same damn questions. how can he just throw me away like that?

my birthday is in two days and i am not looking forward to it one bit. the last time i cried on my birthday was 3 years ago when my ex fiancé ghosted me and now i’m going through heartbreak again, this time with a different person. the person i want most by my side is gone and i doubt he’ll even greet me happy birthday. we broke up 2 and a half weeks ago but i think he hates me so. guess who’s crying on her birthday again?? HERE’S TO 27!