for a moment there was hope

when harry's name should be deep gold and orange, like a forest fire looming and smelling of liquor, like a tequila sunset because it's too late and sunrise is long gone, but the longer you spend with kim you see the same fire reflected in his glasses turning them golden, he wears an orange jacket and when you wake up for second time still alive the first thing he says to you is *sunrise* parabellum, sunrise prepare-for-war, because it is not too late and him being there proves it

bf told me i remind him of ignus nilsen? specifically because i quote “would do that” referring to the impaling and the giving speeches on a horse in a blizzard with a sword while high on enough amphetamines to kill a grown man?

thinking about the timeline discrepancy between when dobreva and abadanaiz are supposed to be found and people like harry and the student communists knowing about it in advance, i believe it could possibly have to do with them walking into the sea when they took the poison and encountering a killer wave or pale-related phenomena, causing them to drown and be deposited on the beach while embracing. since we know that the pale can retain information from the past and make “ghosts” and the existence of killer waves allow a person caught up in it to essentially project their memories into the pale, there could be some sort of record being left behind and seeping in through the swallow in martinaise even before their skeletons are discovered on the beach on the ozonnes. that compounded with existing rumors since not everyone would believe they shot themselves, i also wonder about the color seeping back into the black and white of history when ulv is self-chilling and playing the comte’s music into the pale since his compositions are also described as waves