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@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
Alastor was growing more impatient with vox. All he wanted to do was help, and vox wouldn't let him, it was frustrating, especially when it...."was it me? Did I do something?...are you...not sure you want this...we can give it time...you dont have to give me an answer right now, you can say no and ill still be here as long as you want me too"
Alastor was about ready to shove his face in his direction if he wouldnt look at him, but he finally did, but then he started muttering to himself and alastor couldn't discern what he was talking about. "You-...? Is there more to that sentence, could you speak up dear please, I want this to work, I need this to work, and id really appreciate if you could talk to me, im.not going anywhere, okay?"
Wait, what? Did he seriously think that he didn't want to marry him? Well, his behavior probably implied that, but that wasn't what he was worried about. No, no, he would have been overjoyed if his mind didn't immediately fill with scenarios of potential betrayal.
Still, what would he think if he actually told him? Wouldn't that just make him think he didn't trust him? He did, obviously, or else he wouldn't have lowered his walls at all, but doubt lingered in his mind all the same, in the case the past chose to repeat itself.
"Promise you won't get upset, then?" His gaze locked onto Alastor's, almost pleading with him. "Please?"
Alastor immediately nodded. "Mon amoure, i swear i wont be upset, just tell me what it is, nothing would change how i fee about you, I promise", though he was know starting to worry he was planning on fully breaking up with him, even though his words had not indicated that at all. Whenever it came to the tv demon, he typically got nervous and couldnt stop thinking about all.hid past errors.
He held both of voxs hands in his gently trying to comfort him, playing with the ring he placed on his finger absent-mindedly.
Hopefully he actually meant that. Still, how was he supposed to explain everything without immediately implying that he didn't trust Alastor at all? That could easily ruin their entire relationship.
"Just...give me a moment, then..."
Why was he so nervous? Alastor wouldn't hate him for this. Forgiving him for the past didn't immediately heal the wounds it caused. Surely he understood that, right? What could go wrong?
"I really do want to marry you, Alastor, so, please don't worry about that..." His gaze fell. "I'm just...worried, that's all... Everything's been going so well, and I've already forgiven you for the past, but some irrational part of my mind can't help but think that you're just messing with me. Pathetic, am I right?"
A weak chuckle followed those words, a desperate, feeble attempt to downplay his doubts.
Alastor nodded as he patiently waiting for vox to put his thoughts his together. Though internally he was losing it with the suspense. He knew the only thing thst could ruin their relationship was vox telling him their done because he didnt want to leave, no matter what.
"Alright, then"
He was heavily confused but waited nonetheless. He twiddling with his fingers in his hands trying trying maintain a calm appearance.
Hearing his small little chuckle something in him prompted him to practically jump on top of vox, wrapping his arms around his neck and holding him.both as tight and gentle as possible. "Your not pathetic, both for that reason or any other. I get it....you make me irrational too. Plus, i-i...I know I hurt you, and if i was in your position im not sure if id even forgive you, at least not fully, I cant be mad for how your brain responds to some shitty thing i did 70 years ago, its more logical to be scared than to not be scared, but I promise you, I love you so much, and I am not messing with you", he gives him a kiss on the top of his head.
Well, at least he finally admitted it. How Alastor would respond, he had absolutely no clue, but he couldn't take it back now. Besides, wasn't communication important in relationships? If he wanted this one to last, perhaps hiding his doubts and worries wouldn't help. But—
Wait, Alastor was...holding him now? So he wasn't upset with him for being worried about potential betrayal, despite knowing that it likely wouldn't happen again? Nothing was certain, not even when you wanted to trust someone entirely, as he had come to learn. Past experiences proved that much.
"I just—I thought that you'd take it as a sign that I don't trust you... I do, but I'm still terrified of having you betray me again, you know...?" At least he seemed to understand. "And I love you, too. Always. Please don't leave. I can't lose you, not again..."
The words almost broke alastor. He hated that he was the reason for this. He could never blame the man in front of him for it. Though he was really happy he was finally talking to him, all he wanted to do was help and be there.
"I mean...you have every right to not, and even if you didn't i still wouldn't be mad, okay? We'll work on it, i want to prove as much as possible theres nothing to be afraid of with me alright? Everyone else?, yes, they will die, but I could never hurt you on purpose again"
"Mon amoure, you are never losing me? Keep-ish? Ka-pash?, you are my life, you mean everything to me and it would hurt so bad to leave you or nit have you here anymore, my belle"
Did he have a point? Of course he did, but he wanted to fully trust Alastor, to rid himself of the lingering doubts. It would take time, yes, but there had to be a way to fully rid himself of such terrible thoughts, right?
Even if there wasn't, at least he wanted to help him. Genuinely. That much he could tell from his tone and actions. Yet, while understanding his subtle tells made it much easier to believe his words, not even that could fully rid him of that stupid anxiety. They'd just have to work on it, like Alastor said.
"I know...but it's nice to hear you say that..." He briefly glanced up at him, his gaze softening slightly. "And I'm not going anywhere, Al, promise... You're stuck with me now." Another chuckle, this time genuine. "I'm just...glad moments like this don't make you hate me..."
Alastor also wanted vox to fully be able to trust him aswell. He wanted him to be all his and do whatever it took to show him there wasnt anything to be afraid of anymore, especially sense he knew, it was his fault.
He felt a lot of guilt about that fact. Though to some degree it was also hard for alastor to trust well anybody, but he did vox, and he wanted the same from him, eventually. The way vox looked at him, it made it feel like the whole world stopped for a moment, but the thoight of him hating the other man, he did not enjoy it.
"I'm glad, because I dont know what id do without you, you imbecile" he cupped his cheek and gave him a kiss, " i could never hate you"
Would it still take a while for him to fully trust Alastor? Without a doubt. As much as he wanted to, the past would always haunt him, flooding his mind with doubt at the worst times, such as the proposal that started this entire conversation. Not how he imagined this moment, but the fear of being betrayed and humiliated again resulted in caution.
Still, he couldn't help but smile as he heard him admit that he'd practically be lost without him, even if he rolled his eyes in response to the playful insult. Maybe it was true at times, but he'd never give Alastor the satisfaction of hearing him admit it.
"Nor am I sure what I'd do without you, idiot. I spent decades trying to figure that out, and, well..." He shook his head, dismissing the memories of his most recent failures. "Never mind. I'm just happy to be with you."
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
Alastor was growing more impatient with vox. All he wanted to do was help, and vox wouldn't let him, it was frustrating, especially when it...."was it me? Did I do something?...are you...not sure you want this...we can give it time...you dont have to give me an answer right now, you can say no and ill still be here as long as you want me too"
Alastor was about ready to shove his face in his direction if he wouldnt look at him, but he finally did, but then he started muttering to himself and alastor couldn't discern what he was talking about. "You-...? Is there more to that sentence, could you speak up dear please, I want this to work, I need this to work, and id really appreciate if you could talk to me, im.not going anywhere, okay?"
Wait, what? Did he seriously think that he didn't want to marry him? Well, his behavior probably implied that, but that wasn't what he was worried about. No, no, he would have been overjoyed if his mind didn't immediately fill with scenarios of potential betrayal.
Still, what would he think if he actually told him? Wouldn't that just make him think he didn't trust him? He did, obviously, or else he wouldn't have lowered his walls at all, but doubt lingered in his mind all the same, in the case the past chose to repeat itself.
"Promise you won't get upset, then?" His gaze locked onto Alastor's, almost pleading with him. "Please?"
Alastor immediately nodded. "Mon amoure, i swear i wont be upset, just tell me what it is, nothing would change how i fee about you, I promise", though he was know starting to worry he was planning on fully breaking up with him, even though his words had not indicated that at all. Whenever it came to the tv demon, he typically got nervous and couldnt stop thinking about all.hid past errors.
He held both of voxs hands in his gently trying to comfort him, playing with the ring he placed on his finger absent-mindedly.
Hopefully he actually meant that. Still, how was he supposed to explain everything without immediately implying that he didn't trust Alastor at all? That could easily ruin their entire relationship.
"Just...give me a moment, then..."
Why was he so nervous? Alastor wouldn't hate him for this. Forgiving him for the past didn't immediately heal the wounds it caused. Surely he understood that, right? What could go wrong?
"I really do want to marry you, Alastor, so, please don't worry about that..." His gaze fell. "I'm just...worried, that's all... Everything's been going so well, and I've already forgiven you for the past, but some irrational part of my mind can't help but think that you're just messing with me. Pathetic, am I right?"
A weak chuckle followed those words, a desperate, feeble attempt to downplay his doubts.
Alastor nodded as he patiently waiting for vox to put his thoughts his together. Though internally he was losing it with the suspense. He knew the only thing thst could ruin their relationship was vox telling him their done because he didnt want to leave, no matter what.
"Alright, then"
He was heavily confused but waited nonetheless. He twiddling with his fingers in his hands trying trying maintain a calm appearance.
Hearing his small little chuckle something in him prompted him to practically jump on top of vox, wrapping his arms around his neck and holding him.both as tight and gentle as possible. "Your not pathetic, both for that reason or any other. I get it....you make me irrational too. Plus, i-i...I know I hurt you, and if i was in your position im not sure if id even forgive you, at least not fully, I cant be mad for how your brain responds to some shitty thing i did 70 years ago, its more logical to be scared than to not be scared, but I promise you, I love you so much, and I am not messing with you", he gives him a kiss on the top of his head.
Well, at least he finally admitted it. How Alastor would respond, he had absolutely no clue, but he couldn't take it back now. Besides, wasn't communication important in relationships? If he wanted this one to last, perhaps hiding his doubts and worries wouldn't help. But—
Wait, Alastor was...holding him now? So he wasn't upset with him for being worried about potential betrayal, despite knowing that it likely wouldn't happen again? Nothing was certain, not even when you wanted to trust someone entirely, as he had come to learn. Past experiences proved that much.
"I just—I thought that you'd take it as a sign that I don't trust you... I do, but I'm still terrified of having you betray me again, you know...?" At least he seemed to understand. "And I love you, too. Always. Please don't leave. I can't lose you, not again..."
The words almost broke alastor. He hated that he was the reason for this. He could never blame the man in front of him for it. Though he was really happy he was finally talking to him, all he wanted to do was help and be there.
"I mean...you have every right to not, and even if you didn't i still wouldn't be mad, okay? We'll work on it, i want to prove as much as possible theres nothing to be afraid of with me alright? Everyone else?, yes, they will die, but I could never hurt you on purpose again"
"Mon amoure, you are never losing me? Keep-ish? Ka-pash?, you are my life, you mean everything to me and it would hurt so bad to leave you or nit have you here anymore, my belle"
Did he have a point? Of course he did, but he wanted to fully trust Alastor, to rid himself of the lingering doubts. It would take time, yes, but there had to be a way to fully rid himself of such terrible thoughts, right?
Even if there wasn't, at least he wanted to help him. Genuinely. That much he could tell from his tone and actions. Yet, while understanding his subtle tells made it much easier to believe his words, not even that could fully rid him of that stupid anxiety. They'd just have to work on it, like Alastor said.
"I know...but it's nice to hear you say that..." He briefly glanced up at him, his gaze softening slightly. "And I'm not going anywhere, Al, promise... You're stuck with me now." Another chuckle, this time genuine. "I'm just...glad moments like this don't make you hate me..."
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
Alastor was growing more impatient with vox. All he wanted to do was help, and vox wouldn't let him, it was frustrating, especially when it...."was it me? Did I do something?...are you...not sure you want this...we can give it time...you dont have to give me an answer right now, you can say no and ill still be here as long as you want me too"
Alastor was about ready to shove his face in his direction if he wouldnt look at him, but he finally did, but then he started muttering to himself and alastor couldn't discern what he was talking about. "You-...? Is there more to that sentence, could you speak up dear please, I want this to work, I need this to work, and id really appreciate if you could talk to me, im.not going anywhere, okay?"
Wait, what? Did he seriously think that he didn't want to marry him? Well, his behavior probably implied that, but that wasn't what he was worried about. No, no, he would have been overjoyed if his mind didn't immediately fill with scenarios of potential betrayal.
Still, what would he think if he actually told him? Wouldn't that just make him think he didn't trust him? He did, obviously, or else he wouldn't have lowered his walls at all, but doubt lingered in his mind all the same, in the case the past chose to repeat itself.
"Promise you won't get upset, then?" His gaze locked onto Alastor's, almost pleading with him. "Please?"
Alastor immediately nodded. "Mon amoure, i swear i wont be upset, just tell me what it is, nothing would change how i fee about you, I promise", though he was know starting to worry he was planning on fully breaking up with him, even though his words had not indicated that at all. Whenever it came to the tv demon, he typically got nervous and couldnt stop thinking about all.hid past errors.
He held both of voxs hands in his gently trying to comfort him, playing with the ring he placed on his finger absent-mindedly.
Hopefully he actually meant that. Still, how was he supposed to explain everything without immediately implying that he didn't trust Alastor at all? That could easily ruin their entire relationship.
"Just...give me a moment, then..."
Why was he so nervous? Alastor wouldn't hate him for this. Forgiving him for the past didn't immediately heal the wounds it caused. Surely he understood that, right? What could go wrong?
"I really do want to marry you, Alastor, so, please don't worry about that..." His gaze fell. "I'm just...worried, that's all... Everything's been going so well, and I've already forgiven you for the past, but some irrational part of my mind can't help but think that you're just messing with me. Pathetic, am I right?"
A weak chuckle followed those words, a desperate, feeble attempt to downplay his doubts.
Alastor nodded as he patiently waiting for vox to put his thoughts his together. Though internally he was losing it with the suspense. He knew the only thing thst could ruin their relationship was vox telling him their done because he didnt want to leave, no matter what.
"Alright, then"
He was heavily confused but waited nonetheless. He twiddling with his fingers in his hands trying trying maintain a calm appearance.
Hearing his small little chuckle something in him prompted him to practically jump on top of vox, wrapping his arms around his neck and holding him.both as tight and gentle as possible. "Your not pathetic, both for that reason or any other. I get it....you make me irrational too. Plus, i-i...I know I hurt you, and if i was in your position im not sure if id even forgive you, at least not fully, I cant be mad for how your brain responds to some shitty thing i did 70 years ago, its more logical to be scared than to not be scared, but I promise you, I love you so much, and I am not messing with you", he gives him a kiss on the top of his head.
Well, at least he finally admitted it. How Alastor would respond, he had absolutely no clue, but he couldn't take it back now. Besides, wasn't communication important in relationships? If he wanted this one to last, perhaps hiding his doubts and worries wouldn't help. But—
Wait, Alastor was...holding him now? So he wasn't upset with him for being worried about potential betrayal, despite knowing that it likely wouldn't happen again? Nothing was certain, not even when you wanted to trust someone entirely, as he had come to learn. Past experiences proved that much.
"I just—I thought that you'd take it as a sign that I don't trust you... I do, but I'm still terrified of having you betray me again, you know...?" At least he seemed to understand. "And I love you, too. Always. Please don't leave. I can't lose you, not again..."
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
Alastor was growing more impatient with vox. All he wanted to do was help, and vox wouldn't let him, it was frustrating, especially when it...."was it me? Did I do something?...are you...not sure you want this...we can give it time...you dont have to give me an answer right now, you can say no and ill still be here as long as you want me too"
Alastor was about ready to shove his face in his direction if he wouldnt look at him, but he finally did, but then he started muttering to himself and alastor couldn't discern what he was talking about. "You-...? Is there more to that sentence, could you speak up dear please, I want this to work, I need this to work, and id really appreciate if you could talk to me, im.not going anywhere, okay?"
Wait, what? Did he seriously think that he didn't want to marry him? Well, his behavior probably implied that, but that wasn't what he was worried about. No, no, he would have been overjoyed if his mind didn't immediately fill with scenarios of potential betrayal.
Still, what would he think if he actually told him? Wouldn't that just make him think he didn't trust him? He did, obviously, or else he wouldn't have lowered his walls at all, but doubt lingered in his mind all the same, in the case the past chose to repeat itself.
"Promise you won't get upset, then?" His gaze locked onto Alastor's, almost pleading with him. "Please?"
Alastor immediately nodded. "Mon amoure, i swear i wont be upset, just tell me what it is, nothing would change how i fee about you, I promise", though he was know starting to worry he was planning on fully breaking up with him, even though his words had not indicated that at all. Whenever it came to the tv demon, he typically got nervous and couldnt stop thinking about all.hid past errors.
He held both of voxs hands in his gently trying to comfort him, playing with the ring he placed on his finger absent-mindedly.
Hopefully he actually meant that. Still, how was he supposed to explain everything without immediately implying that he didn't trust Alastor at all? That could easily ruin their entire relationship.
"Just...give me a moment, then..."
Why was he so nervous? Alastor wouldn't hate him for this. Forgiving him for the past didn't immediately heal the wounds it caused. Surely he understood that, right? What could go wrong?
"I really do want to marry you, Alastor, so, please don't worry about that..." His gaze fell. "I'm just...worried, that's all... Everything's been going so well, and I've already forgiven you for the past, but some irrational part of my mind can't help but think that you're just messing with me. Pathetic, am I right?"
A weak chuckle followed those words, a desperate, feeble attempt to downplay his doubts.
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@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
Alastor was growing more impatient with vox. All he wanted to do was help, and vox wouldn't let him, it was frustrating, especially when it...."was it me? Did I do something?...are you...not sure you want this...we can give it time...you dont have to give me an answer right now, you can say no and ill still be here as long as you want me too"
Alastor was about ready to shove his face in his direction if he wouldnt look at him, but he finally did, but then he started muttering to himself and alastor couldn't discern what he was talking about. "You-...? Is there more to that sentence, could you speak up dear please, I want this to work, I need this to work, and id really appreciate if you could talk to me, im.not going anywhere, okay?"
Wait, what? Did he seriously think that he didn't want to marry him? Well, his behavior probably implied that, but that wasn't what he was worried about. No, no, he would have been overjoyed if his mind didn't immediately fill with scenarios of potential betrayal.
Still, what would he think if he actually told him? Wouldn't that just make him think he didn't trust him? He did, obviously, or else he wouldn't have lowered his walls at all, but doubt lingered in his mind all the same, in the case the past chose to repeat itself.
"Promise you won't get upset, then?" His gaze locked onto Alastor's, almost pleading with him. "Please?"
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
The way he was acting even after asking him about it was starting to make him worry more. He knew him well enough to know he typically hid behind confidence but there was still genuine fear thaf vox didnt also want this.
".....are you sure?....you can talk to me belle....if your fine then can you at least....look at me?"
Alastor was still confused on why he was being like this. He loved him and he wanted him.
Yeah, that's about how he expected him to respond. Anyone could tell that something was up, but why did that matter? Why hide behind a facade Alastor could easily see through?
"I'm sure..."
Despite the attempt at reassuring him, his gaze never met his, instead shifting between various things, unsure of where to stay. Maybe he should just talk to him?
"It's nothing, really, Al, but," he sighed, his gaze finally shifting towards Alastor, "you—"
His voice trailed off, the words dying in his throat. What was he doing, honestly?
"Oh, fuck, this is pathetic..." He shook his head, muttering to himself. "Here I am, doubting his proposal. I'm just giving him reasons to fuck with my feelings..."
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
The way that vox spoke, he trusted him more than anyone but the tone still made him able to tell something was off. There relationship had never been very simple had it.
"....uh huh, is everything alright mon amoure, your just acting a bit weird", regardless he placed the ring on his finger sense he essentially said yes and smiled. Though he was slightly worried.
Of course Alastor knew him well enough to be suspicious of his words, though anyone would be. His obsession with him never was much of a secret, despite the damage it did to his image. After finally getting into a relationship with him, how could his reaction lack any emotion?
At least he didn't take it as a rejection, placing the ring on his finger despite his behavior. So he wasn't messing with him...? Why would he? Unless...?
"Yeah, yeah, everything's fine, Al..." His response came quickly, too quickly. "Nothing to worry about."
Despite being a skilled liar, however, even if Alastor truly had been messing with him the entire time they had been dating, he couldn't bring himself to properly maintain his facade, refusing to look at him, uncertainty in his eyes.
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
Alastor great worried as vox only stated back at him. He was already nervous for this and the lack of response was not helping.
"Dear...why would I be messing with you?, I love you...you can say no if you want"
Alastor loved vox's confidence, though his egotistical tendencies could be evwr so slightly annoying at times.
"Your avoiding the question dear", he said as one of his ears twitched impatiently.
Oh, right. Their love wasn't conditional or simply for power or status. Perhaps seventy years of rivalry resulting from rejecting made it difficult to accept that at times, Pathetic, but best not to think about it. How would showing weakness help here?
Not that switching to his usual persona did much either. At least it made him look a bit less like an idiot, right...?
"I am not avoiding the question. I'm just saying that anyone would want to marry me." His tone held an air of nonchalance. "I'd be a fool to reject you, Al. You know how much I love you."
Despite the words, his tone lacked the usual affection that came with them, instead lacking proper emotion. Was it a lie? No, but what if Alastor decided to mess with him again? What if he led him on this entire time?
Fuck...!
@the-radio-guy
[He gets on one knee]
For a brief moment, he could only stare at Alastor, eyes wide, trying to process the scene in front of him. A proposal? Now? Was it actually happening?
"Uh...what...? Is this really happening? Alastor, I swear, if you're messing with me..."
His voice trailed off as he shook his head. How pathetic, being at a loss for words, even for a moment. Sure, his heart and mind were racing, but his tone lost all confusion and surprise, replaced by his typical, confident demeanor.
"Oh, who am I kidding? Of course this is really happening. Who wouldn't want to marry me?"
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One of my employees decided to make a character based on my human self… Who gave them access to pictures of me in my 20s? I was such a dork back then…
But it's not bad, I must admit.
Please help me feel better Vox
I've been a bit busy lately, but if you still need some support, sure. I can't say people usually turn to me for comfort, but I promise I can try. Here, have a shark plushie. :)
(Don't ask which employee gave this to me...)
@the-radio-guy
Well hellllllllllo there vox🎵, I was just passing by and I wanted to ask you how your little suicide attempt spectacle was?
It was not a suicide attempt! I just had a goal, and not even death could stop me. I was not trying to kill myself.
"Would you like to see something ive had in my pocket for quite some time, i own it"
Oh, right, he did still believe that they were friends during that time, oblivious to the fact that he figured their friendship had ended long before then. Still, even if it was to get out of his deal, why was that his first idea? What an odd plan, though it succeeded in the end...
"I don't know if I'll ever understand you, Al..." A fond smile crossed his face, his eyes lighting up a bit at the confirmation of their friendship. "And I'm glad..."
Wait, what was he trying to show him? How did it relate to this conversation? Well, only one way to find out...
"Sure, what is it?"
"Hmmm, no one can ever figure me out~, its the mystery people find intriguing, I always told you, talk less, smile more, but you never listened, then again, your voice was always something, you even named yourself after it, clever word play i must admit"
"Its all mine", he pulls out a little mini crt vox head thing that turned on and displayed his screen smiling
//in case you didnt know this is a ref to a video of amir talai saying pretty much exactly this💀💀
Hm, fair enough. No one ever really knew what Alastor's true intentions were, the thoughts behind that permanent grin of his. Why would he be any different? Besides, perhaps the mystery added to the appeal...
"Exactly, Al. Who wouldn't love my voice? There's a reason behind my name, and that's exactly it." A hint of pride entered his tone. "Come on, you know you love it, too."
Despite the playful tone, his eyes widened when he saw what Alastor had in his pocket. How long had he owned that? Did he just carry that around with him at all times? Huh...
"I...I was not expecting that... How long have you had it?"
"Hmm, I dont beleive i said I didn't", he looked at him with admiration.
"About 70 years"
Wait, he was actually agreeing with him? He mostly said that to tease him, yet he basically confirmed it. Alone, his statement would have merely implied it, but his expression said it all. That look of admiration, so similar to the one he had given him so many times in the past. How strangely adorable...
"Oh, don't give me that look. I might just die from how cute it is." He playfully rolled his eyes before looking at him with a fond smile. "And don't deny that it's cute. It's the exact same look I'd give you all the time before the incident..."
Speaking of...did Alastor seriously keep a mini version of his old CRT head with him for the past seven decades? Huh...
"That long...? You miss that look I used to give you, don't you? I mean, you said it yourself that you miss what we used to have..."
He'd die from how cute it is? What was he saying? Why would he...? He gave it to me befire the incident?, well he guessed it was admiration
"Oh i found your look of admiration adorable...you know how I feel or felt about you, but i dont quite understand why you'd think mine is cute"
"Well of course I do you blunderhead'
Idiot... He could admit that he found the look he always used to give him adorable yet couldn't understand why he'd think the same thing about his current expression, despite it being almost identical? Or maybe he just couldn't comprehend the idea of being perceived as adorable...
"It's practically identical, silly! You're cute when you're impressed, you know... Maybe I should try to impress you more often..."
How he'd do that, he had no clue, but he'd make it work, whether Alastor liked it or not. He had to see that expression again.
"You miss my old expression, yet you still don't know how yours is cute? Like I said, it's practically identical."
"Your existence impresses me vox"
"No, no, you misunderstand, I found yours adorable, i dont understand why you feel the same way about i look at you, afterall you even said not long ago, 'its not like I enjoy this'
Huh? His existence itself impressed him? How? Why? Despite his desire to ascend to godhood and make everyone worship him, to hear someone admit that his existence alone impressed him, especially one he admired, almost stunned him into silence, aside from a few failed attempts at speaking...
Not that it was important, of course, as he just changed the subject back to his own expression, thank goodness. And he couldn't help but laugh at his response. He really didn't see it, did he?
"And you thought I was being honest? It was an attempt to conceal my embarrassment, dumbass... You're an idiot, I swear..."
"Im not an idiot vox, you just confuse me, so...you...feel the same way?, all this time or???"
As if he'd believe that. Alastor always seemed so good at reading people, yet he couldn't detect an obvious lie? He had every reason to call him an idiot after that, didn't he? Maybe he just wouldn't admit it.
"Of course I feel the same way...! I have since we met...! There's a reason I blush so much around you, stupid..." How had he not realized that? "Most people don't leave me blushing like a damn fool with a simple compliment, you know... I figured you always knew about my feelings..."
"Its not my fault ive never felt this way aboit anyone before, I wasnt sure how one would act, I just assumed you admired me, in a platonic-mentorship way, If I could ever even figure out my own emotions towards you, I wouldn't think you felt a similar way, I didn't even realize you weren't straight until you mentioned it"
Could he fault him? No, not at all, but he could still tease him about his obliviousness towards his own feelings. In a way, it was endearing, as ridiculous as it was, knowing how obvious it had been from the start.
"To be fair...I didn't know I wasn't straight when we first met, either... I spent so much time telling myself that it was platonic, that there was no way I was attracted to you... I was...very wrong..." He couldn't help but laugh. "But I've felt this way for decades, silly. It is obvious, you know..."
"Hmm, somethingwe both had in common, though i only figured it out less than an hour ago..wait, did everyone else know, is that why mr. Moth told us we should just fuck already??...well shit"
Well, at least he finally figured it out, even if he never expected him to return his feelings in the first place. His obsession had always been fueled by those feelings, wanting to win him back by impressing him, only to learn that he had never lost him to begin with. Perhaps they were both a bit stupid.
"Better late than never. I didn't think you returned these feelings at all, but you've always been hard to read." More laughter followed those words. "And, kind of. Val is just, well, himself, but obviously he knew there was something between us. Most of Hell probably does, honestly."
He places his head in his hands from embarrassment, " well thats just fucking great, isnt it?", he pauses, " its mostly on purpose, you have to keep your cards close, keep your enemies guessing"
Huh, he was actually embarrassed by his own inability to recognize his feelings. Interesting, knowing how he was never one to actively express emotions, hiding them all behind his smile. What an odd sight.
"Well, I never doubted that. It's strategic, I know, which makes me wonder why you're embarrassed right now, honestly..." While his tone held a small hint of teasing, it had mostly faded. "You never did seem like one to pay much attention to your own feelings. It's just how you are, but hey, I find it endearing, in a way."
"Because everyone apparently knew! And even worse I didn't!, and because its you, and...I trust you"
Wait, what? Did he—did he just say that he trusted him? Sure, that might have been obvious, but to hear him outright admit it... For a moment, he couldn't help but stare, attempting to process it all.
"Hey, hey, feelings are complicated, especially ones you've never felt before..." Hopefully that would reassure him... "Trust me, okay? You've never experienced this before. It's okay, I promise..."
"I just said i do you imbecile", he hugged him and grabbed his screen and kissed him on the mouth again, "i know we just reconciled, so this might be bad timing to say, but, I think, i love you"
Well, yes, he did just say that, but the request came naturally even so. Besides, it was just an attempt to reassure him, nothing more than—
Before he knew it, his blush returned as Alastor pulled him into another kiss. However, this time, he actually returned it instead of standing there like an absolute idiot. Much better.
"No, no, it's not bad timing... It never could be..." His gaze held nothing but affection as he looked at him. "I love you, too, silly. I have for decades now..."
He let go of him and placed his hands on his lap, " well, i guess thst makes the both of us, even if i didnt always have the best ways of expressing it"
Did either of them have the best ways of expressing their feelings? No, not in the slightest. Arguing and attempting to kill each other on occasion definitely wasn't a good way to deal with those feelings, after all.
"Neither did I. Are you forgetting that I tried taking over Heaven just to impress you? Also because becoming a god sounded like a good idea, but that was also to impress you..."
"Not to tell you your reasons but i doubt I was the only factor guiding those decisions, but yes killing yourself wasnt a great response, me? Understandable, everyone else in hell, no, still the fact you did all thst for my approval...im sorry"
Sure, he had a point, as his general desire for power and attention influenced his decisions, but Alastor had always been one of the main factors leading up to those decisions. Trying to ascend to godhood had to have impressed him—if he would have succeeded, anyway—hence why he went through with that plan...
"No, but you were one of the main ones..." He sighed. "And yeah, trying to kill everyone, including you and unintentionally myself, is not a good way to deal with feelings... Still, you don't need to apologize... I kinda lost it towards the end. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish in that moment..."
" I think trying to kill just me was a completely fair reaction, yes i do, im the main reason you lost ut and it was because of a stupid mistake I made seventy years ago, i could've apologized for it anywhere down the line but I didn't"
Did he seriously think that his behavior was justified? Well...to some extent, anyway. Putting himself and the rest of Hell at risk would never be justified, after all...
"You really think it was reasonable? It was just a bit of miscommunication, you know... You thought we were on the same page until I tried killing everyone..."
"Well, yes, but still the entire reason we even seperated in the first place wasn't, I couldve at least let you down easy, but I panicked and i.......I was awful to you vox"
Well, yes, that much was true, but could he really hold it against him? They had already cleared things up, hadn't they? After all they had gone through, they worked through some of those issues, so why keep focusing on the past?
"You were, but I've already punished you enough for that. I mean, I did try to kill you..." Another quiet sigh escaped him. "Seriously, Al, I'm not upset about that anymore... I'm just glad you're back in my life..."
"Your insane in my book, I dont think id ever fully forgive me if I was in your position, but if thats how you feel than, I can just be glad your back aswell"
Huh, he really regretted his decisions, didn't he? Even if he forgave him—which he did—would he ever forgive himself? Surely it would happen eventually, once they got used to getting along again, right?
"Well, I have. I have the one thing I've wanted for the past seventy years, so of course you're forgiven. Just stay in my life this time. That's all I want."
"Your stupid, staying was a given, anything you want mon amour"
Well, maybe it was a given, but he had to make sure, anyway, just in case. Anything to avoid being abandoned again, despite knowing that Alastor wouldn't do that a second time...
"I'd hope it was, but it's nice to hear you say it."
@the-radio-guy
Well hellllllllllo there vox🎵, I was just passing by and I wanted to ask you how your little suicide attempt spectacle was?
It was not a suicide attempt! I just had a goal, and not even death could stop me. I was not trying to kill myself.
"Would you like to see something ive had in my pocket for quite some time, i own it"
Oh, right, he did still believe that they were friends during that time, oblivious to the fact that he figured their friendship had ended long before then. Still, even if it was to get out of his deal, why was that his first idea? What an odd plan, though it succeeded in the end...
"I don't know if I'll ever understand you, Al..." A fond smile crossed his face, his eyes lighting up a bit at the confirmation of their friendship. "And I'm glad..."
Wait, what was he trying to show him? How did it relate to this conversation? Well, only one way to find out...
"Sure, what is it?"
"Hmmm, no one can ever figure me out~, its the mystery people find intriguing, I always told you, talk less, smile more, but you never listened, then again, your voice was always something, you even named yourself after it, clever word play i must admit"
"Its all mine", he pulls out a little mini crt vox head thing that turned on and displayed his screen smiling
//in case you didnt know this is a ref to a video of amir talai saying pretty much exactly this💀💀
Hm, fair enough. No one ever really knew what Alastor's true intentions were, the thoughts behind that permanent grin of his. Why would he be any different? Besides, perhaps the mystery added to the appeal...
"Exactly, Al. Who wouldn't love my voice? There's a reason behind my name, and that's exactly it." A hint of pride entered his tone. "Come on, you know you love it, too."
Despite the playful tone, his eyes widened when he saw what Alastor had in his pocket. How long had he owned that? Did he just carry that around with him at all times? Huh...
"I...I was not expecting that... How long have you had it?"
"Hmm, I dont beleive i said I didn't", he looked at him with admiration.
"About 70 years"
Wait, he was actually agreeing with him? He mostly said that to tease him, yet he basically confirmed it. Alone, his statement would have merely implied it, but his expression said it all. That look of admiration, so similar to the one he had given him so many times in the past. How strangely adorable...
"Oh, don't give me that look. I might just die from how cute it is." He playfully rolled his eyes before looking at him with a fond smile. "And don't deny that it's cute. It's the exact same look I'd give you all the time before the incident..."
Speaking of...did Alastor seriously keep a mini version of his old CRT head with him for the past seven decades? Huh...
"That long...? You miss that look I used to give you, don't you? I mean, you said it yourself that you miss what we used to have..."
He'd die from how cute it is? What was he saying? Why would he...? He gave it to me befire the incident?, well he guessed it was admiration
"Oh i found your look of admiration adorable...you know how I feel or felt about you, but i dont quite understand why you'd think mine is cute"
"Well of course I do you blunderhead'
Idiot... He could admit that he found the look he always used to give him adorable yet couldn't understand why he'd think the same thing about his current expression, despite it being almost identical? Or maybe he just couldn't comprehend the idea of being perceived as adorable...
"It's practically identical, silly! You're cute when you're impressed, you know... Maybe I should try to impress you more often..."
How he'd do that, he had no clue, but he'd make it work, whether Alastor liked it or not. He had to see that expression again.
"You miss my old expression, yet you still don't know how yours is cute? Like I said, it's practically identical."
"Your existence impresses me vox"
"No, no, you misunderstand, I found yours adorable, i dont understand why you feel the same way about i look at you, afterall you even said not long ago, 'its not like I enjoy this'
Huh? His existence itself impressed him? How? Why? Despite his desire to ascend to godhood and make everyone worship him, to hear someone admit that his existence alone impressed him, especially one he admired, almost stunned him into silence, aside from a few failed attempts at speaking...
Not that it was important, of course, as he just changed the subject back to his own expression, thank goodness. And he couldn't help but laugh at his response. He really didn't see it, did he?
"And you thought I was being honest? It was an attempt to conceal my embarrassment, dumbass... You're an idiot, I swear..."
"Im not an idiot vox, you just confuse me, so...you...feel the same way?, all this time or???"
As if he'd believe that. Alastor always seemed so good at reading people, yet he couldn't detect an obvious lie? He had every reason to call him an idiot after that, didn't he? Maybe he just wouldn't admit it.
"Of course I feel the same way...! I have since we met...! There's a reason I blush so much around you, stupid..." How had he not realized that? "Most people don't leave me blushing like a damn fool with a simple compliment, you know... I figured you always knew about my feelings..."
"Its not my fault ive never felt this way aboit anyone before, I wasnt sure how one would act, I just assumed you admired me, in a platonic-mentorship way, If I could ever even figure out my own emotions towards you, I wouldn't think you felt a similar way, I didn't even realize you weren't straight until you mentioned it"
Could he fault him? No, not at all, but he could still tease him about his obliviousness towards his own feelings. In a way, it was endearing, as ridiculous as it was, knowing how obvious it had been from the start.
"To be fair...I didn't know I wasn't straight when we first met, either... I spent so much time telling myself that it was platonic, that there was no way I was attracted to you... I was...very wrong..." He couldn't help but laugh. "But I've felt this way for decades, silly. It is obvious, you know..."
"Hmm, somethingwe both had in common, though i only figured it out less than an hour ago..wait, did everyone else know, is that why mr. Moth told us we should just fuck already??...well shit"
Well, at least he finally figured it out, even if he never expected him to return his feelings in the first place. His obsession had always been fueled by those feelings, wanting to win him back by impressing him, only to learn that he had never lost him to begin with. Perhaps they were both a bit stupid.
"Better late than never. I didn't think you returned these feelings at all, but you've always been hard to read." More laughter followed those words. "And, kind of. Val is just, well, himself, but obviously he knew there was something between us. Most of Hell probably does, honestly."
He places his head in his hands from embarrassment, " well thats just fucking great, isnt it?", he pauses, " its mostly on purpose, you have to keep your cards close, keep your enemies guessing"
Huh, he was actually embarrassed by his own inability to recognize his feelings. Interesting, knowing how he was never one to actively express emotions, hiding them all behind his smile. What an odd sight.
"Well, I never doubted that. It's strategic, I know, which makes me wonder why you're embarrassed right now, honestly..." While his tone held a small hint of teasing, it had mostly faded. "You never did seem like one to pay much attention to your own feelings. It's just how you are, but hey, I find it endearing, in a way."
"Because everyone apparently knew! And even worse I didn't!, and because its you, and...I trust you"
Wait, what? Did he—did he just say that he trusted him? Sure, that might have been obvious, but to hear him outright admit it... For a moment, he couldn't help but stare, attempting to process it all.
"Hey, hey, feelings are complicated, especially ones you've never felt before..." Hopefully that would reassure him... "Trust me, okay? You've never experienced this before. It's okay, I promise..."
"I just said i do you imbecile", he hugged him and grabbed his screen and kissed him on the mouth again, "i know we just reconciled, so this might be bad timing to say, but, I think, i love you"
Well, yes, he did just say that, but the request came naturally even so. Besides, it was just an attempt to reassure him, nothing more than—
Before he knew it, his blush returned as Alastor pulled him into another kiss. However, this time, he actually returned it instead of standing there like an absolute idiot. Much better.
"No, no, it's not bad timing... It never could be..." His gaze held nothing but affection as he looked at him. "I love you, too, silly. I have for decades now..."
He let go of him and placed his hands on his lap, " well, i guess thst makes the both of us, even if i didnt always have the best ways of expressing it"
Did either of them have the best ways of expressing their feelings? No, not in the slightest. Arguing and attempting to kill each other on occasion definitely wasn't a good way to deal with those feelings, after all.
"Neither did I. Are you forgetting that I tried taking over Heaven just to impress you? Also because becoming a god sounded like a good idea, but that was also to impress you..."
"Not to tell you your reasons but i doubt I was the only factor guiding those decisions, but yes killing yourself wasnt a great response, me? Understandable, everyone else in hell, no, still the fact you did all thst for my approval...im sorry"
Sure, he had a point, as his general desire for power and attention influenced his decisions, but Alastor had always been one of the main factors leading up to those decisions. Trying to ascend to godhood had to have impressed him—if he would have succeeded, anyway—hence why he went through with that plan...
"No, but you were one of the main ones..." He sighed. "And yeah, trying to kill everyone, including you and unintentionally myself, is not a good way to deal with feelings... Still, you don't need to apologize... I kinda lost it towards the end. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish in that moment..."
" I think trying to kill just me was a completely fair reaction, yes i do, im the main reason you lost ut and it was because of a stupid mistake I made seventy years ago, i could've apologized for it anywhere down the line but I didn't"
Did he seriously think that his behavior was justified? Well...to some extent, anyway. Putting himself and the rest of Hell at risk would never be justified, after all...
"You really think it was reasonable? It was just a bit of miscommunication, you know... You thought we were on the same page until I tried killing everyone..."
"Well, yes, but still the entire reason we even seperated in the first place wasn't, I couldve at least let you down easy, but I panicked and i.......I was awful to you vox"
Well, yes, that much was true, but could he really hold it against him? They had already cleared things up, hadn't they? After all they had gone through, they worked through some of those issues, so why keep focusing on the past?
"You were, but I've already punished you enough for that. I mean, I did try to kill you..." Another quiet sigh escaped him. "Seriously, Al, I'm not upset about that anymore... I'm just glad you're back in my life..."
"Your insane in my book, I dont think id ever fully forgive me if I was in your position, but if thats how you feel than, I can just be glad your back aswell"
Huh, he really regretted his decisions, didn't he? Even if he forgave him—which he did—would he ever forgive himself? Surely it would happen eventually, once they got used to getting along again, right?
"Well, I have. I have the one thing I've wanted for the past seventy years, so of course you're forgiven. Just stay in my life this time. That's all I want."
@the-radio-guy
Well hellllllllllo there vox🎵, I was just passing by and I wanted to ask you how your little suicide attempt spectacle was?
It was not a suicide attempt! I just had a goal, and not even death could stop me. I was not trying to kill myself.
"Would you like to see something ive had in my pocket for quite some time, i own it"
Oh, right, he did still believe that they were friends during that time, oblivious to the fact that he figured their friendship had ended long before then. Still, even if it was to get out of his deal, why was that his first idea? What an odd plan, though it succeeded in the end...
"I don't know if I'll ever understand you, Al..." A fond smile crossed his face, his eyes lighting up a bit at the confirmation of their friendship. "And I'm glad..."
Wait, what was he trying to show him? How did it relate to this conversation? Well, only one way to find out...
"Sure, what is it?"
"Hmmm, no one can ever figure me out~, its the mystery people find intriguing, I always told you, talk less, smile more, but you never listened, then again, your voice was always something, you even named yourself after it, clever word play i must admit"
"Its all mine", he pulls out a little mini crt vox head thing that turned on and displayed his screen smiling
//in case you didnt know this is a ref to a video of amir talai saying pretty much exactly this💀💀
Hm, fair enough. No one ever really knew what Alastor's true intentions were, the thoughts behind that permanent grin of his. Why would he be any different? Besides, perhaps the mystery added to the appeal...
"Exactly, Al. Who wouldn't love my voice? There's a reason behind my name, and that's exactly it." A hint of pride entered his tone. "Come on, you know you love it, too."
Despite the playful tone, his eyes widened when he saw what Alastor had in his pocket. How long had he owned that? Did he just carry that around with him at all times? Huh...
"I...I was not expecting that... How long have you had it?"
"Hmm, I dont beleive i said I didn't", he looked at him with admiration.
"About 70 years"
Wait, he was actually agreeing with him? He mostly said that to tease him, yet he basically confirmed it. Alone, his statement would have merely implied it, but his expression said it all. That look of admiration, so similar to the one he had given him so many times in the past. How strangely adorable...
"Oh, don't give me that look. I might just die from how cute it is." He playfully rolled his eyes before looking at him with a fond smile. "And don't deny that it's cute. It's the exact same look I'd give you all the time before the incident..."
Speaking of...did Alastor seriously keep a mini version of his old CRT head with him for the past seven decades? Huh...
"That long...? You miss that look I used to give you, don't you? I mean, you said it yourself that you miss what we used to have..."
He'd die from how cute it is? What was he saying? Why would he...? He gave it to me befire the incident?, well he guessed it was admiration
"Oh i found your look of admiration adorable...you know how I feel or felt about you, but i dont quite understand why you'd think mine is cute"
"Well of course I do you blunderhead'
Idiot... He could admit that he found the look he always used to give him adorable yet couldn't understand why he'd think the same thing about his current expression, despite it being almost identical? Or maybe he just couldn't comprehend the idea of being perceived as adorable...
"It's practically identical, silly! You're cute when you're impressed, you know... Maybe I should try to impress you more often..."
How he'd do that, he had no clue, but he'd make it work, whether Alastor liked it or not. He had to see that expression again.
"You miss my old expression, yet you still don't know how yours is cute? Like I said, it's practically identical."
"Your existence impresses me vox"
"No, no, you misunderstand, I found yours adorable, i dont understand why you feel the same way about i look at you, afterall you even said not long ago, 'its not like I enjoy this'
Huh? His existence itself impressed him? How? Why? Despite his desire to ascend to godhood and make everyone worship him, to hear someone admit that his existence alone impressed him, especially one he admired, almost stunned him into silence, aside from a few failed attempts at speaking...
Not that it was important, of course, as he just changed the subject back to his own expression, thank goodness. And he couldn't help but laugh at his response. He really didn't see it, did he?
"And you thought I was being honest? It was an attempt to conceal my embarrassment, dumbass... You're an idiot, I swear..."
"Im not an idiot vox, you just confuse me, so...you...feel the same way?, all this time or???"
As if he'd believe that. Alastor always seemed so good at reading people, yet he couldn't detect an obvious lie? He had every reason to call him an idiot after that, didn't he? Maybe he just wouldn't admit it.
"Of course I feel the same way...! I have since we met...! There's a reason I blush so much around you, stupid..." How had he not realized that? "Most people don't leave me blushing like a damn fool with a simple compliment, you know... I figured you always knew about my feelings..."
"Its not my fault ive never felt this way aboit anyone before, I wasnt sure how one would act, I just assumed you admired me, in a platonic-mentorship way, If I could ever even figure out my own emotions towards you, I wouldn't think you felt a similar way, I didn't even realize you weren't straight until you mentioned it"
Could he fault him? No, not at all, but he could still tease him about his obliviousness towards his own feelings. In a way, it was endearing, as ridiculous as it was, knowing how obvious it had been from the start.
"To be fair...I didn't know I wasn't straight when we first met, either... I spent so much time telling myself that it was platonic, that there was no way I was attracted to you... I was...very wrong..." He couldn't help but laugh. "But I've felt this way for decades, silly. It is obvious, you know..."
"Hmm, somethingwe both had in common, though i only figured it out less than an hour ago..wait, did everyone else know, is that why mr. Moth told us we should just fuck already??...well shit"
Well, at least he finally figured it out, even if he never expected him to return his feelings in the first place. His obsession had always been fueled by those feelings, wanting to win him back by impressing him, only to learn that he had never lost him to begin with. Perhaps they were both a bit stupid.
"Better late than never. I didn't think you returned these feelings at all, but you've always been hard to read." More laughter followed those words. "And, kind of. Val is just, well, himself, but obviously he knew there was something between us. Most of Hell probably does, honestly."
He places his head in his hands from embarrassment, " well thats just fucking great, isnt it?", he pauses, " its mostly on purpose, you have to keep your cards close, keep your enemies guessing"
Huh, he was actually embarrassed by his own inability to recognize his feelings. Interesting, knowing how he was never one to actively express emotions, hiding them all behind his smile. What an odd sight.
"Well, I never doubted that. It's strategic, I know, which makes me wonder why you're embarrassed right now, honestly..." While his tone held a small hint of teasing, it had mostly faded. "You never did seem like one to pay much attention to your own feelings. It's just how you are, but hey, I find it endearing, in a way."
"Because everyone apparently knew! And even worse I didn't!, and because its you, and...I trust you"
Wait, what? Did he—did he just say that he trusted him? Sure, that might have been obvious, but to hear him outright admit it... For a moment, he couldn't help but stare, attempting to process it all.
"Hey, hey, feelings are complicated, especially ones you've never felt before..." Hopefully that would reassure him... "Trust me, okay? You've never experienced this before. It's okay, I promise..."
"I just said i do you imbecile", he hugged him and grabbed his screen and kissed him on the mouth again, "i know we just reconciled, so this might be bad timing to say, but, I think, i love you"
Well, yes, he did just say that, but the request came naturally even so. Besides, it was just an attempt to reassure him, nothing more than—
Before he knew it, his blush returned as Alastor pulled him into another kiss. However, this time, he actually returned it instead of standing there like an absolute idiot. Much better.
"No, no, it's not bad timing... It never could be..." His gaze held nothing but affection as he looked at him. "I love you, too, silly. I have for decades now..."
He let go of him and placed his hands on his lap, " well, i guess thst makes the both of us, even if i didnt always have the best ways of expressing it"
Did either of them have the best ways of expressing their feelings? No, not in the slightest. Arguing and attempting to kill each other on occasion definitely wasn't a good way to deal with those feelings, after all.
"Neither did I. Are you forgetting that I tried taking over Heaven just to impress you? Also because becoming a god sounded like a good idea, but that was also to impress you..."
"Not to tell you your reasons but i doubt I was the only factor guiding those decisions, but yes killing yourself wasnt a great response, me? Understandable, everyone else in hell, no, still the fact you did all thst for my approval...im sorry"
Sure, he had a point, as his general desire for power and attention influenced his decisions, but Alastor had always been one of the main factors leading up to those decisions. Trying to ascend to godhood had to have impressed him—if he would have succeeded, anyway—hence why he went through with that plan...
"No, but you were one of the main ones..." He sighed. "And yeah, trying to kill everyone, including you and unintentionally myself, is not a good way to deal with feelings... Still, you don't need to apologize... I kinda lost it towards the end. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish in that moment..."
" I think trying to kill just me was a completely fair reaction, yes i do, im the main reason you lost ut and it was because of a stupid mistake I made seventy years ago, i could've apologized for it anywhere down the line but I didn't"
Did he seriously think that his behavior was justified? Well...to some extent, anyway. Putting himself and the rest of Hell at risk would never be justified, after all...
"You really think it was reasonable? It was just a bit of miscommunication, you know... You thought we were on the same page until I tried killing everyone..."
"Well, yes, but still the entire reason we even seperated in the first place wasn't, I couldve at least let you down easy, but I panicked and i.......I was awful to you vox"
Well, yes, that much was true, but could he really hold it against him? They had already cleared things up, hadn't they? After all they had gone through, they worked through some of those issues, so why keep focusing on the past?
"You were, but I've already punished you enough for that. I mean, I did try to kill you..." Another quiet sigh escaped him. "Seriously, Al, I'm not upset about that anymore... I'm just glad you're back in my life..."
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@the-radio-guy
Well hellllllllllo there vox🎵, I was just passing by and I wanted to ask you how your little suicide attempt spectacle was?
It was not a suicide attempt! I just had a goal, and not even death could stop me. I was not trying to kill myself.
"Would you like to see something ive had in my pocket for quite some time, i own it"
Oh, right, he did still believe that they were friends during that time, oblivious to the fact that he figured their friendship had ended long before then. Still, even if it was to get out of his deal, why was that his first idea? What an odd plan, though it succeeded in the end...
"I don't know if I'll ever understand you, Al..." A fond smile crossed his face, his eyes lighting up a bit at the confirmation of their friendship. "And I'm glad..."
Wait, what was he trying to show him? How did it relate to this conversation? Well, only one way to find out...
"Sure, what is it?"
"Hmmm, no one can ever figure me out~, its the mystery people find intriguing, I always told you, talk less, smile more, but you never listened, then again, your voice was always something, you even named yourself after it, clever word play i must admit"
"Its all mine", he pulls out a little mini crt vox head thing that turned on and displayed his screen smiling
//in case you didnt know this is a ref to a video of amir talai saying pretty much exactly this💀💀
Hm, fair enough. No one ever really knew what Alastor's true intentions were, the thoughts behind that permanent grin of his. Why would he be any different? Besides, perhaps the mystery added to the appeal...
"Exactly, Al. Who wouldn't love my voice? There's a reason behind my name, and that's exactly it." A hint of pride entered his tone. "Come on, you know you love it, too."
Despite the playful tone, his eyes widened when he saw what Alastor had in his pocket. How long had he owned that? Did he just carry that around with him at all times? Huh...
"I...I was not expecting that... How long have you had it?"
"Hmm, I dont beleive i said I didn't", he looked at him with admiration.
"About 70 years"
Wait, he was actually agreeing with him? He mostly said that to tease him, yet he basically confirmed it. Alone, his statement would have merely implied it, but his expression said it all. That look of admiration, so similar to the one he had given him so many times in the past. How strangely adorable...
"Oh, don't give me that look. I might just die from how cute it is." He playfully rolled his eyes before looking at him with a fond smile. "And don't deny that it's cute. It's the exact same look I'd give you all the time before the incident..."
Speaking of...did Alastor seriously keep a mini version of his old CRT head with him for the past seven decades? Huh...
"That long...? You miss that look I used to give you, don't you? I mean, you said it yourself that you miss what we used to have..."
He'd die from how cute it is? What was he saying? Why would he...? He gave it to me befire the incident?, well he guessed it was admiration
"Oh i found your look of admiration adorable...you know how I feel or felt about you, but i dont quite understand why you'd think mine is cute"
"Well of course I do you blunderhead'
Idiot... He could admit that he found the look he always used to give him adorable yet couldn't understand why he'd think the same thing about his current expression, despite it being almost identical? Or maybe he just couldn't comprehend the idea of being perceived as adorable...
"It's practically identical, silly! You're cute when you're impressed, you know... Maybe I should try to impress you more often..."
How he'd do that, he had no clue, but he'd make it work, whether Alastor liked it or not. He had to see that expression again.
"You miss my old expression, yet you still don't know how yours is cute? Like I said, it's practically identical."
"Your existence impresses me vox"
"No, no, you misunderstand, I found yours adorable, i dont understand why you feel the same way about i look at you, afterall you even said not long ago, 'its not like I enjoy this'
Huh? His existence itself impressed him? How? Why? Despite his desire to ascend to godhood and make everyone worship him, to hear someone admit that his existence alone impressed him, especially one he admired, almost stunned him into silence, aside from a few failed attempts at speaking...
Not that it was important, of course, as he just changed the subject back to his own expression, thank goodness. And he couldn't help but laugh at his response. He really didn't see it, did he?
"And you thought I was being honest? It was an attempt to conceal my embarrassment, dumbass... You're an idiot, I swear..."
"Im not an idiot vox, you just confuse me, so...you...feel the same way?, all this time or???"
As if he'd believe that. Alastor always seemed so good at reading people, yet he couldn't detect an obvious lie? He had every reason to call him an idiot after that, didn't he? Maybe he just wouldn't admit it.
"Of course I feel the same way...! I have since we met...! There's a reason I blush so much around you, stupid..." How had he not realized that? "Most people don't leave me blushing like a damn fool with a simple compliment, you know... I figured you always knew about my feelings..."
"Its not my fault ive never felt this way aboit anyone before, I wasnt sure how one would act, I just assumed you admired me, in a platonic-mentorship way, If I could ever even figure out my own emotions towards you, I wouldn't think you felt a similar way, I didn't even realize you weren't straight until you mentioned it"
Could he fault him? No, not at all, but he could still tease him about his obliviousness towards his own feelings. In a way, it was endearing, as ridiculous as it was, knowing how obvious it had been from the start.
"To be fair...I didn't know I wasn't straight when we first met, either... I spent so much time telling myself that it was platonic, that there was no way I was attracted to you... I was...very wrong..." He couldn't help but laugh. "But I've felt this way for decades, silly. It is obvious, you know..."
"Hmm, somethingwe both had in common, though i only figured it out less than an hour ago..wait, did everyone else know, is that why mr. Moth told us we should just fuck already??...well shit"
Well, at least he finally figured it out, even if he never expected him to return his feelings in the first place. His obsession had always been fueled by those feelings, wanting to win him back by impressing him, only to learn that he had never lost him to begin with. Perhaps they were both a bit stupid.
"Better late than never. I didn't think you returned these feelings at all, but you've always been hard to read." More laughter followed those words. "And, kind of. Val is just, well, himself, but obviously he knew there was something between us. Most of Hell probably does, honestly."
He places his head in his hands from embarrassment, " well thats just fucking great, isnt it?", he pauses, " its mostly on purpose, you have to keep your cards close, keep your enemies guessing"
Huh, he was actually embarrassed by his own inability to recognize his feelings. Interesting, knowing how he was never one to actively express emotions, hiding them all behind his smile. What an odd sight.
"Well, I never doubted that. It's strategic, I know, which makes me wonder why you're embarrassed right now, honestly..." While his tone held a small hint of teasing, it had mostly faded. "You never did seem like one to pay much attention to your own feelings. It's just how you are, but hey, I find it endearing, in a way."
"Because everyone apparently knew! And even worse I didn't!, and because its you, and...I trust you"
Wait, what? Did he—did he just say that he trusted him? Sure, that might have been obvious, but to hear him outright admit it... For a moment, he couldn't help but stare, attempting to process it all.
"Hey, hey, feelings are complicated, especially ones you've never felt before..." Hopefully that would reassure him... "Trust me, okay? You've never experienced this before. It's okay, I promise..."
"I just said i do you imbecile", he hugged him and grabbed his screen and kissed him on the mouth again, "i know we just reconciled, so this might be bad timing to say, but, I think, i love you"
Well, yes, he did just say that, but the request came naturally even so. Besides, it was just an attempt to reassure him, nothing more than—
Before he knew it, his blush returned as Alastor pulled him into another kiss. However, this time, he actually returned it instead of standing there like an absolute idiot. Much better.
"No, no, it's not bad timing... It never could be..." His gaze held nothing but affection as he looked at him. "I love you, too, silly. I have for decades now..."
He let go of him and placed his hands on his lap, " well, i guess thst makes the both of us, even if i didnt always have the best ways of expressing it"
Did either of them have the best ways of expressing their feelings? No, not in the slightest. Arguing and attempting to kill each other on occasion definitely wasn't a good way to deal with those feelings, after all.
"Neither did I. Are you forgetting that I tried taking over Heaven just to impress you? Also because becoming a god sounded like a good idea, but that was also to impress you..."
"Not to tell you your reasons but i doubt I was the only factor guiding those decisions, but yes killing yourself wasnt a great response, me? Understandable, everyone else in hell, no, still the fact you did all thst for my approval...im sorry"
Sure, he had a point, as his general desire for power and attention influenced his decisions, but Alastor had always been one of the main factors leading up to those decisions. Trying to ascend to godhood had to have impressed him—if he would have succeeded, anyway—hence why he went through with that plan...
"No, but you were one of the main ones..." He sighed. "And yeah, trying to kill everyone, including you and unintentionally myself, is not a good way to deal with feelings... Still, you don't need to apologize... I kinda lost it towards the end. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish in that moment..."
" I think trying to kill just me was a completely fair reaction, yes i do, im the main reason you lost ut and it was because of a stupid mistake I made seventy years ago, i could've apologized for it anywhere down the line but I didn't"
Did he seriously think that his behavior was justified? Well...to some extent, anyway. Putting himself and the rest of Hell at risk would never be justified, after all...
"You really think it was reasonable? It was just a bit of miscommunication, you know... You thought we were on the same page until I tried killing everyone..."
@the-radio-guy
Well hellllllllllo there vox🎵, I was just passing by and I wanted to ask you how your little suicide attempt spectacle was?
It was not a suicide attempt! I just had a goal, and not even death could stop me. I was not trying to kill myself.
"Would you like to see something ive had in my pocket for quite some time, i own it"
Oh, right, he did still believe that they were friends during that time, oblivious to the fact that he figured their friendship had ended long before then. Still, even if it was to get out of his deal, why was that his first idea? What an odd plan, though it succeeded in the end...
"I don't know if I'll ever understand you, Al..." A fond smile crossed his face, his eyes lighting up a bit at the confirmation of their friendship. "And I'm glad..."
Wait, what was he trying to show him? How did it relate to this conversation? Well, only one way to find out...
"Sure, what is it?"
"Hmmm, no one can ever figure me out~, its the mystery people find intriguing, I always told you, talk less, smile more, but you never listened, then again, your voice was always something, you even named yourself after it, clever word play i must admit"
"Its all mine", he pulls out a little mini crt vox head thing that turned on and displayed his screen smiling
//in case you didnt know this is a ref to a video of amir talai saying pretty much exactly this💀💀
Hm, fair enough. No one ever really knew what Alastor's true intentions were, the thoughts behind that permanent grin of his. Why would he be any different? Besides, perhaps the mystery added to the appeal...
"Exactly, Al. Who wouldn't love my voice? There's a reason behind my name, and that's exactly it." A hint of pride entered his tone. "Come on, you know you love it, too."
Despite the playful tone, his eyes widened when he saw what Alastor had in his pocket. How long had he owned that? Did he just carry that around with him at all times? Huh...
"I...I was not expecting that... How long have you had it?"
"Hmm, I dont beleive i said I didn't", he looked at him with admiration.
"About 70 years"
Wait, he was actually agreeing with him? He mostly said that to tease him, yet he basically confirmed it. Alone, his statement would have merely implied it, but his expression said it all. That look of admiration, so similar to the one he had given him so many times in the past. How strangely adorable...
"Oh, don't give me that look. I might just die from how cute it is." He playfully rolled his eyes before looking at him with a fond smile. "And don't deny that it's cute. It's the exact same look I'd give you all the time before the incident..."
Speaking of...did Alastor seriously keep a mini version of his old CRT head with him for the past seven decades? Huh...
"That long...? You miss that look I used to give you, don't you? I mean, you said it yourself that you miss what we used to have..."
He'd die from how cute it is? What was he saying? Why would he...? He gave it to me befire the incident?, well he guessed it was admiration
"Oh i found your look of admiration adorable...you know how I feel or felt about you, but i dont quite understand why you'd think mine is cute"
"Well of course I do you blunderhead'
Idiot... He could admit that he found the look he always used to give him adorable yet couldn't understand why he'd think the same thing about his current expression, despite it being almost identical? Or maybe he just couldn't comprehend the idea of being perceived as adorable...
"It's practically identical, silly! You're cute when you're impressed, you know... Maybe I should try to impress you more often..."
How he'd do that, he had no clue, but he'd make it work, whether Alastor liked it or not. He had to see that expression again.
"You miss my old expression, yet you still don't know how yours is cute? Like I said, it's practically identical."
"Your existence impresses me vox"
"No, no, you misunderstand, I found yours adorable, i dont understand why you feel the same way about i look at you, afterall you even said not long ago, 'its not like I enjoy this'
Huh? His existence itself impressed him? How? Why? Despite his desire to ascend to godhood and make everyone worship him, to hear someone admit that his existence alone impressed him, especially one he admired, almost stunned him into silence, aside from a few failed attempts at speaking...
Not that it was important, of course, as he just changed the subject back to his own expression, thank goodness. And he couldn't help but laugh at his response. He really didn't see it, did he?
"And you thought I was being honest? It was an attempt to conceal my embarrassment, dumbass... You're an idiot, I swear..."
"Im not an idiot vox, you just confuse me, so...you...feel the same way?, all this time or???"
As if he'd believe that. Alastor always seemed so good at reading people, yet he couldn't detect an obvious lie? He had every reason to call him an idiot after that, didn't he? Maybe he just wouldn't admit it.
"Of course I feel the same way...! I have since we met...! There's a reason I blush so much around you, stupid..." How had he not realized that? "Most people don't leave me blushing like a damn fool with a simple compliment, you know... I figured you always knew about my feelings..."
"Its not my fault ive never felt this way aboit anyone before, I wasnt sure how one would act, I just assumed you admired me, in a platonic-mentorship way, If I could ever even figure out my own emotions towards you, I wouldn't think you felt a similar way, I didn't even realize you weren't straight until you mentioned it"
Could he fault him? No, not at all, but he could still tease him about his obliviousness towards his own feelings. In a way, it was endearing, as ridiculous as it was, knowing how obvious it had been from the start.
"To be fair...I didn't know I wasn't straight when we first met, either... I spent so much time telling myself that it was platonic, that there was no way I was attracted to you... I was...very wrong..." He couldn't help but laugh. "But I've felt this way for decades, silly. It is obvious, you know..."
"Hmm, somethingwe both had in common, though i only figured it out less than an hour ago..wait, did everyone else know, is that why mr. Moth told us we should just fuck already??...well shit"
Well, at least he finally figured it out, even if he never expected him to return his feelings in the first place. His obsession had always been fueled by those feelings, wanting to win him back by impressing him, only to learn that he had never lost him to begin with. Perhaps they were both a bit stupid.
"Better late than never. I didn't think you returned these feelings at all, but you've always been hard to read." More laughter followed those words. "And, kind of. Val is just, well, himself, but obviously he knew there was something between us. Most of Hell probably does, honestly."
He places his head in his hands from embarrassment, " well thats just fucking great, isnt it?", he pauses, " its mostly on purpose, you have to keep your cards close, keep your enemies guessing"
Huh, he was actually embarrassed by his own inability to recognize his feelings. Interesting, knowing how he was never one to actively express emotions, hiding them all behind his smile. What an odd sight.
"Well, I never doubted that. It's strategic, I know, which makes me wonder why you're embarrassed right now, honestly..." While his tone held a small hint of teasing, it had mostly faded. "You never did seem like one to pay much attention to your own feelings. It's just how you are, but hey, I find it endearing, in a way."
"Because everyone apparently knew! And even worse I didn't!, and because its you, and...I trust you"
Wait, what? Did he—did he just say that he trusted him? Sure, that might have been obvious, but to hear him outright admit it... For a moment, he couldn't help but stare, attempting to process it all.
"Hey, hey, feelings are complicated, especially ones you've never felt before..." Hopefully that would reassure him... "Trust me, okay? You've never experienced this before. It's okay, I promise..."
"I just said i do you imbecile", he hugged him and grabbed his screen and kissed him on the mouth again, "i know we just reconciled, so this might be bad timing to say, but, I think, i love you"
Well, yes, he did just say that, but the request came naturally even so. Besides, it was just an attempt to reassure him, nothing more than—
Before he knew it, his blush returned as Alastor pulled him into another kiss. However, this time, he actually returned it instead of standing there like an absolute idiot. Much better.
"No, no, it's not bad timing... It never could be..." His gaze held nothing but affection as he looked at him. "I love you, too, silly. I have for decades now..."
He let go of him and placed his hands on his lap, " well, i guess thst makes the both of us, even if i didnt always have the best ways of expressing it"
Did either of them have the best ways of expressing their feelings? No, not in the slightest. Arguing and attempting to kill each other on occasion definitely wasn't a good way to deal with those feelings, after all.
"Neither did I. Are you forgetting that I tried taking over Heaven just to impress you? Also because becoming a god sounded like a good idea, but that was also to impress you..."
"Not to tell you your reasons but i doubt I was the only factor guiding those decisions, but yes killing yourself wasnt a great response, me? Understandable, everyone else in hell, no, still the fact you did all thst for my approval...im sorry"
Sure, he had a point, as his general desire for power and attention influenced his decisions, but Alastor had always been one of the main factors leading up to those decisions. Trying to ascend to godhood had to have impressed him—if he would have succeeded, anyway—hence why he went through with that plan...
"No, but you were one of the main ones..." He sighed. "And yeah, trying to kill everyone, including you and unintentionally myself, is not a good way to deal with feelings... Still, you don't need to apologize... I kinda lost it towards the end. I don't even know what I was trying to accomplish in that moment..."
