It's all too much and not enough at the same time

I didn’t expect to find a friend like Bruno in my life. Nor that friendship was a place where you put down roots, that remains waiting for you.

sometimes I think I must deserve it. or else I don’t know why it would happen. why’d you never say any of this to me before? the whole time we were together, why did you never tell me any of this? I don’t know. I suppose I didn’t want you to think… I was damaged, or something. I was probably afraid you wouldn’t want me anymore

seasoned; antelope valley, california

- You’re watching the fire and you’re thinking “If I don’t do anything “this place will burn down and all my anxiety will go away with it.”

- And then you put the fire out.

- Then you put the fire out.

Oh my god oh my god oh my god