wednesday. 11:05 am. i’m trying to be happy but i keep getting grasped by the clutches of sadness when i remember how you just don’t care and you probably won’t ever care about me or my happiness ever again… even if you do it just won’t be the same. thursday. 11:11 am. for the first time in months i didn’t wish for you but believe me i wanted to. friday. 3:00 am. i woke up to find our last conversation playing on a loop i can’t sleep without hearing your voice without wishing to relive that day just to change what happened without missing what we had without missing you as i finally start to drift off to sleep again i tell myself that even if we are nothing now it was an honor a privilege to have meant something anything to you at one point. saturday. 7:35 pm. you posted a selfie on twitter i had to stop myself from liking it but i couldn’t stop myself from going back onto your profile and looking at it once more i miss you. sunday. 4:05 pm i got a haircut today i want to text you or send you a selfie like i used to be able to do i want to ask you what you think of it i want to ask if you think of me i don’t i won’t. monday. 1:55 pm. i had the weirdest dream last night you were in it the only part that wasn’t weird was that even in my dream you couldn’t be bothered to text me back. tuesday. 4:57 am. i’ve dreamt about you every night since you left last night was no exception and i am so so tired but i hope you’re sleeping well. wednesday. 11:42 am. whenever something happens you’re still the first person i think to tell i still have to stop myself every time you’re the hardest habit i’ve ever had to break.
a week with you on my mind || inspired by @panamaweddings (cc, 2017)
