The end of this blog.
Approximately 7 years ago, I started this blog as an impulse reaction to stay relevant in the life of an ex-girlfriend of mine that broke my heart after a short summer romance. This blog continued to be a part of my life as a means of venting my emotions, keeping up with the anime and video games community, and a window in which I talked to people online, who have come and gone. In a lot of ways this blog embodies my growth from adolescent to adulthood, and in some periods, my degradation. After months of a lack of posting, I thought it would be appropriate to write a conclusion to this period in my life, where this simple blogging domain was my crutch in depression and loneliness. It is 2017 now, I am 23 years old, and it took me 5 years to graduate from college with a degree in computer science from the University of California, Santa Cruz. In my 5th year of college I finally met a girl that gave me something I had always wanted; the chance to love and be loved in return. While I'm well aware that this does not ensure me a fairy tale ending, meeting this wonderful and exciting person has renewed a confidence in myself that I thought was a fictitious shield that my lonely teenage self created out of fear. While I credit this woman with helping me realize my own self worth, the gold in me was always there. I used to be afraid that my heart was a rotting fruit, and that I would end up hallow inside. I can't express the joy I feel everyday when I look in the mirror and know that there's more to me than just some emotional sad boy. It should also be noted that before meeting this woman, I came to terms with my depression and sought psychological help in both medicine and therapy. I also flunked out of college for a quarter and was hit with the realization that I had fucked up. Not beyond all repair, but it was what made me realize that I had to try a lot harder. Not just in school, but in the relationships I nourished and the ones I needed to let go. As of this moment, I am in a happy relationship with a woman I plan to move in with as soon as I have the money to afford doing so. I have a job right out of college as a contract programmer to a company that is paying me well, and has a bright future doing something that I believe is important. I'd share more about it, but I'm technically under an NDA, so perhaps you will hear about my project in the news some day. Better yet, I hope you might hear and recognize my name, Henry Tran. To the people who have followed me and have taken any interest in the development of my life, I thank you for your support, whether it be in the form of a DM or a like on my personal posts. To those that I don't speak to anymore, I still wish the best for you, unless I have explicitly said otherwise. I may not be good at keeping in contact, but I always keep good people in mind. Lastly, I will be dropping in this blog to change its title once TSM finally wins worlds, but who knows when that will happen.
