You had met Dongrim back in 2007 as you tried to find the way back to your dorm after a finished school day at Hongik University. Being a foreigner, and your Korean being at a 30% fluency rate, getting lost was not ideal at all. You did not want to ask anyone, 1.) to not offend anyone in case you said the wrong thing, and 2.) you wanted to figure this out yourself. Giving up you went up to a tall guy, wearing glasses, with a backpack. Judging by the backpack, you had thought he was a student as well, so you went up to him asking for directions in broken Korean with some English. He luckily was able to inform you that he understood English, but just couldn’t speak it. You brightened up as soon as you replied telling him that you understood Korean, but just couldn’t speak it either. Dongrim helped you out of the random street you were in and showed you the way to your dorm building.
Each day after that, you had purposely taken the same route to meet him at least even for a small hello and greeting. You had learned that he was not infact a student, but an aspiring artist, who studied in North America for a while. Dongrim had also learned that you were in the international students program at Hongik University, studying International Management. Despite your 4 year age gap, (him being older) you had definitely hit it off well. You had gone to his few shows in Hongdae when you had time, and he would come over to your dorm to distract attempt to help you with homework.
It was now 2013, 6 years of meeting and 5 of dating. In honestly, you were having the time of your life with your relationship. He had gained more fame, you had graduated university last year, and you had both moved in together in the main part of Seoul. It had also been about a month and a half since Dongrim had left for overseas business and promotion (Which you both really hated). He hardly had to leave far, with the company headquarters, Starship being in Seoul, and your comfortable two bedroom apartment too. This had been the third day in the row where you had lost your appetite in the morning after cooking. Weird, it could have not been a coincidence…, your menstruation was near by so it definitely was that, or was it?
Going to the clinic was probably the safest, and most reliant choice to determine this conflict. So you did, and that was a decision that would change your life forever. You took a pregnancy test, and the results were positive. How were you going to tell Dongrim, especially when he was away working? How? You had two had spoken about children recently, but definitely after marriage at least. You both were at the peak of starting your lives successfully. So, you didn’t, you waited for him to come back.
After two weeks of keeping the secret in, Dongrim finally returned back home. You waited a few more days deciding how to tell him.
“Dongrim oppa, how was your two hour nap?” You asked with a small laugh as Dongrim walked towards you. “Ughh, what time is it?” He groaned, wrapping his arms around your waist, standing there as you finished making dinner. “Only 7:30 pm…on a Tuesday night” You replied turning around pecking his lips, and walking away to set the table. “It was a wonderful nap, cut short by the amazing smell of what you’re cooking” Dongrim replies grabbing cups, helping you. “Ahh..well. I’m sorry.” You sarcastically reply, winking. “But hey, sit down I wanna do this for you. I was hoping I’d have to wake you up and surprise you. I guess hunger woke you up.” You chuckle making him sit down. “Jagiya, what did I do to deserve to have you?” He jokingly says. You let out a sigh, “What did I do to have you?” You repeat back, genuinely.
After you both finished eating dinner and before he stood up, you grabbed his hands. “Dongrim-sshi” You began formally, he didn’t mind the honorifics it was just odd hearing you begin a sentence like that. “Uhh?” He looks up at you confused, sitting back down. “I’ve been feeling ill for the past…month and a half. I didn’t want to worry you while you were working, but I went to a clinic recently.” You said. Dongrim raised an eyebrow, “Why didn’t you tell me? We’d speak like every day, is it something serious?” He worriedly questions. You shake your head while a slight smile. “Ahh, well. The doctor gave me the news..we’re having a baby!” You told him with a slightly happy expression, trying to read his face. “W-what? A baby..us?” He suddenly says in a panicking and upset tone. “No, no no no no. Hey, tell me you’re lying. This is a joke, isn’t it?” He searches truth in your eyes. “I know it’s a little too soon, but we probably conceived before you left. This can be a good thing” You gulp watching him stand up. “We are not having a baby! Look. I-I..I have a career I’m trying to rebuilt. You have a life to work for, that’s just starting.” Dongrim steps out of the kitchen trying to take control of his temper in a way that wasn’t mad. “Please calm down, we can figure it out, uhm. I’m sure I can delay work for a while, and you can ask sajangnim for a short break.” You reason out. He buries his face into the palm of his hands, trying to calm down. “Please, oppa, we can do this.” You sniffle and walk towards him, tears building up in your eyes. “I need to calm down and think about this situation. I’ll be back tomorrow.” Dongrim cowardly says, grabbing his phone, wallet, and putting on his shoes. “No! Don’t leave me, Dongrim! Please.” You beg, crying now. “I’m sorry….I can’t think straight right now.” He pecks your forehead and walks out, leaving you in an emotional mess.
Three days later after not speaking and that incident, he came back finally. “You finally decide to show up?” You snap, watching him walk in through the door shamefully. “I-I thought about this and I’ve dec-” You cut him off “Oh? You did? Finally Mr. Jo Dongrim made up his mind? What is it? Leave me? Shotgun wedding? Let me guess, you don’t want our child?” You calmly ask. “I’m sorry Y/N, I don’t want this child, and I don’t want us. I went to see my parents last night and they agreed on my-” You scoff “You’re a real bastard you know that? Your parents never agreed to our relationship, to your career, to us living together. Finally, you’re giving into them? Or is this an idiotic excuse?” You harshly respond. “Y/N, look I didn’t intend on this..” He reasons coming closer. “Get out Dongrim, Get out, and never come back! Your shit will all be sent to you somehow, I don’t know how, but it will. If i would have known this was the real you six years ago, I would have never spoken to you, you asshole!” You scream, tears building up again. “Hey, I promise I want to help. I’ll be willingly to-” He walks towards you. “I SAID LEAVE! DO YOU NOT UNDERSTAND ME?” You shout trying to push him out. “I’m sorry..” He tells you before walking out the same door, he came in with.
And you did as you said you would. Two days later, most of his clothing and necessary items were sent to his parents’ home. You had sold most of your unnecessary belongings, got rid of anything that could be replaced, and quit your job at a marketing agency you really worked hard to get into. Just like that, you were ready to erase your mark in the lovely country and city that treated you well, getting ready to raise a child made from love.
Three years later, here you were back again. You had raised a beautiful boy, Jaebum, or as you called him, Jae. You were able to get a part time job (despite your degrees) with a little over minimum wage. Your family helped, but you didn’t like depending on people. After you gave birth to Jae, you began rebuilding the connections you once had and got started on your career again. You worked as an international business manager. It certainly paid way more than minimum wage, and comfortably supported Jae and yourself. You had made trips internationally for business but not enough to enjoy it. Working for a Korean music company put your language skills back into use.
So here you were, over three years later back into the country that matured you, for a business trip. No word from, or to Dongrim had been ever made in the past few years. And you liked that. Jae was an amazing boy, fast learner, and enjoyed korean music despite not understanding much. Dongrim did not deserve to have this super sweet happy virus in his life.
Walking into a music store with Jae holding your hand, you looked around happily. “Mommy has to look for an album okay? So be patient, we’ll be out soon and go eat.” You reassured you fussy, yet calm son. “Ah! There it is!” Your hand reached up to grab the Got7 album. “Wahh, looks better as a finalized product.” you whisper to yourself looking at the packaging. “Jae, Mommy got the-” you turned around and found no toddler. “Jae?! JAE?!” you shouted out looking around. A sudden giggle made you turn around and before you could grab Jae, he turned around bumping into an older man. “Ahh!” You picked up Jae and bowed to the stranger. “I’m so sorry.” you muttered before looking up. “Y/N..?” Dongrim asked looking at you, putting back what he was looking at. “excuse me, I need to go.” You firmly say holding Jae tightly, and walking towards the exit.
“Hey! Y/N.” Dongrim grabbed your arm pulling you back. You quickly removed your hand from him grip. “Don’t you ever touch me!” You harshly say. “Don’t be mean mommy.” Jae pouted hugging you tightly, looking at Dongrim. “Is this our child..?” Dongrim asks in Korean, looking at Jae in awe.”No, this is my child. If you can please get out of my way, I need to go.” You repeat, not knowing how to react in this situation . “He’s beautiful, what’s his name?” He asks trying to reach for him. “Did you not hear me the second time, you idiot? It’s none of your business.” You push past him harshly.
Suddenly the store alarm goes off and an employee walks towards you. “Miss, I think you didn’t pay for that.” She says. “Oh yes, yes, I’m so sorry.” You sheepishly apologize, embarrassed, walking back to the register to pay. Thankfully, the employee understood it was a mistake. Before you could take out your wallet, Dongrim takes out his card and hands it to the employee. “HEY!” You scold him, your blood boiling even more. “It’s fine, I got it.” He shrugs. “Well, keep it.” You growl walking out again, thinking how the hell he was so calm and normal in this situation.
“Y/N, C’mon. Don’t go.” Dongrim chases after you with the shopping back in one hand. “I’m sorry, please. I swear I tried to contact you everywhere but when I found out you went back home..I lost hope. I was stupid, selfish, I wasn’t in the right mindset. I’m a changed man.” He admits with tears in his eyes. You look down, “Sorry and stupid excuses don’t make up for everything I went through.” letting out a sigh, you set down Jae.
“I can imagine, just please. Give me a second chance?” He pleads, crouching down to Jae’s height. “Get away from my child, Dongrim-sshi.” You carry Jae again. “I need to calm down and think about this situation. You are my son’s biological father, but there’s nothing left between us. You mock, his exact words from three years ago. “Who is he mommy?” Jae finally speaks in English. “Someone you’ll formally meet one day…just not today, or right now.” You respond, mostly to Dongrim. You walk away with Jae, leaving a dumbfounded Dongrim, in front of a music store. Why would you buy a got7 album? Were you living here now? Did your child only speak English? So many questions ran through his head as he looked down to the Got7’s MAD album, spotting something.
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My first scenario up! I know this is not a happy ending but i just could not help myself! I would NOT let a coward like this into my life again! haha. Please give me any feedback, criticism, and any mistakes that need to be fixed please tell me! Thank you and I hope you enjoyed it!
