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summers like. you will feel a loneliness so profound youll fear it has no end but also sometimes God will place their cooling hand on yr forehead & you will feel held for the first time

holding my own face in my own hands and screaming “there is no connection without an open heart! you must be brave! you must be honest! you must be true!” in the mirror

Someone said “because I carry it well doesn’t mean it’s not heavy” I felt that.

that james baldwin quote where he says, “it took many years of vomiting up all the filth i’d been taught about myself, and half-believed, before i was able to walk on the earth as though i had a right to be here.”

To be chosen. To be cared for. To be loved. The sweetest thing. The warmest thing.

this is the beginning of my life!!!!!!!